Hot, my body was burning. However, it was not painful. It was somewhat itchy as if it was desperate to achieve something.
The thing under me throbbed while I was gagged. My hands and feet tied.
I heard the animal desperately squeal every time I thrust my hip. I want to puke, I want to stop, however, my body could not hear me...
All these years, my tormentors have made me do unexplainable things. They were scornful, unforgivable, and unforgettable.
I've become a devil myself. So that will make my future child a saint.
However, this was the worst. Behind the blindfold, I cried even though my body was not stopping.
I don't want to admit it... but it feels good.
Help me...
Time passed. I feel pure weakness.
"Losing vitality..."
"Then feed the lizards' blood!"
I don't know who but they pulled what gagged me and closed my nose. Wanting to breathe, I opened my mouth and at the same time, something foul entered. It tasted like iron.
I want to throw it out but I can't close my mouth.
After consuming what forcefully entered my mouth, my body felt strong and rejuvenated right after. With the heat still there, my body didn't stop...
Unknown time passed again.
The heat was finally gone. So I dropped onto the ground, gasping for air.
"Oh, they're finished..."
"Hehe!" I heard the crispy and loud laughter of Keth.
Someone then placed their foot on my back as they untied my blindfold.
"Surprise!"
My eyes was couldn't handle the sudden brightness. Someone pulled my hair and turned my hair around.
"Hey, you can't touch the princess!" an old lady's voice resounded.
"Oh, so-sorry..." that voice was from Shan.
He sounded defeat.
Once my eyes adjusted to the brightness, I was ready to see my humiliation. That animal should've died by now for how many hours I've been going.
"Huh? W-who?"
It was not me who spoke in fright.
But in front of me was a dainty fairy. Her beautiful face was half-buried on the mud just like mine. And just like mine, her whole being was ridden in scars.
We both laid down on the muddy ground. Keth on top of me, the one who pulled my hair. On top of the pitiful girl was an old lady with a fierce expression.
We have the same situation.
"Feeling betrayed? Of course, we're not going to let you enjoy your first time. HAHAHA!" Keth annoyingly laughed again before getting off me, releasing the weight on my back.
"Let's go. We'll come back after sunrise." the old lady did the same.
Everyone turned their back and exited the only door before locking it with a loud clack. They didn't say what we should do. They just left us here.
I turned again and saw the girl looked at me with a strange expression. Once again, the same as what my face was currently wearing.
We didn't stare at each other for too long. Standing up from the mud, we tried to dust ourselves off and made our body the cleanest it can be.
Alone in this strange room, we had our backs turned to each other as we mind our own business.
The room was silent but not dark. Opposite to the only door was the only window, conveniently showcasing the beauty of the moon.
The moonlight scattered and revealed that we are in some kind of barn.
After many years of my life here in this world, Lennie had taught me everything I should know about. I learn how to read, write, and more. Even though the lectures were hard, compared to the torture, it was heaven for me.
I learned a lot.
While I was lost in my thoughts, below the window sill, the girl sat down with a blank gaze. It was to protect herself from the wind. Her face was cold and a bit sinister.
I could see the deep hatred in her eyes. However, I kept my sight out of her bare body.
I don't know her name... but it was obvious who she is.
"Princess?" I called.
I saw her react as if startled. But soon, she averted her gaze away as if I don't exist.
"H-hello, I'm the princ-"
"I know, don't talk to me."
"Ah..."
I was rejected. But that was to be expected. What she had gone through, I know them too well.
We are both devils. I am sure of that.
Devils born to suffer in this hell.
That's my thoughts at the beginning. However, it is late to give up. If I didn't retain my memories, I would still be stuck at that phase... stuck abhorring this world.
But I'm past that.
Just like Lennie, this princess will become a very important person to me... in the future, at least.
I'm just glad that I didn't lose my first time to an animal. But I don't think that's her first time. She must have gone through a lot. But I don't care about that. I don't want to unnecessarily hurt myself by imagining what possibly happened to her.
We are both devils.
That is why I had the skin to sat beside her. A meter apart but she still moved away. Only a little.
We are both naked but I'm not embarrassed at all. Compared to what I've been through, this is peace.
"I don't like this place."
Once I said that I heard her mutter something.
I looked at her and her clear, untainted eyes looked back before averting them again.
"I said, of course." she continued, "Who would like this place?"
Just like that, as if a trigger, tears dripped from her eyes.
I understand her.
She wiped the tears before glancing at me. But after that glance, she seemed to be dumbfounded and looked at me again for confirmation.
"Why... how are smiling?"
Eh? I am?
I moved my hand to reach my face.
She flinched when I did that. But soon, calmed down when she saw I was just checking my smile.
She's right.
How am I smiling?
Hmm...
"I don't know why... but if I have to guess, it's because I learned that the princess is beautiful." I said.
I think that's very true.
I've never cared for the appearance. But between pretty or not, I'm not dumb to say that I will choose the latter. And this princess is very pretty on top of that.
"I'm beautiful?" she raised an eyebrow, "Do... you not see these scars? And this messy hair?"
"I've seen them."
"But you still say that I'm beautiful?"
"Yes."
"Ah..." she nodded in realization, "Maybe, you just never saw a real woman before. Just to let you know, my tormentor, the old lady, is not the standard woman."
"Of course, I have seen women. I have my own pretty maid. Her hair is silky, her face white and smooth."
"..."
"But of course, I see her as my mother figure, I am not really focusing on that. So... if compared, you're prettier than her."
"Ah..." she nodded in realization again, "Maybe, you've turned crazy from all that torture. You're not positive, you just became an idiot."
"Haha..." I guess she had long lost her confidence as a woman.
"Hmph!"
Now that I think of it, I heard loud squeals earlier. She's not cold. Like me, maybe her tormentors told her that she will lose her first to an animal. She still has emotions.
Maybe my standards are just low but I'm already taking a liking to her. It would be bad if I were to hate her, after all.
"This is... pretty peaceful."
"..." she replied with silence.
I gave her a glance before continuing, "Usually, I'm very uncomfortable with other people. I saw them nothing as idiots. But I'm pretty comfortable right now."
"Why?" she asked but from her tone, I think that she sympathizes with what I said.
"Umm..." but I'm speechless.
Her face became red before she turned it around, "M-m-maybe... because... umm... we did that?"
She said what I can't say.
"Y-yeah..." I can't believe that, after all I've gone through, I can still get embarrassed.
"That... that was my..."
"Hm?"
She frowned at me, but there was no hatred behind them.
"I said... that... that was my first."
"Eh? Really?"
"Y-yeah... I just wanted to mention that. I mean look..." her finger pointed as it shivered, "There's blood there."
Before I could say anything, she continued, as if trying to find an excuse.
"I just don't want you to think that I've been dirtied. My tormentors are all women. They said... they said that I should keep my purity. Because losing it brings bad Karma. Only perseverance and endurance give good Karma that's why they torture us."
I bit my lips as tears fell.
"Huh...?" she looked at me, confused.
"Thank you... for telling that..." I am sincerely grateful, "I'm really glad..."
I didn't see her reaction as I'm busy as it is my turn to wipe my tears, "But... after this, I still have my purity as long I just do it with one man..."
"What?..."
"Usually, I'm uncomfortable with others too..." she muttered, "But..." and then she turned silent.
She didn't need to say anything more.
I couldn't stop smiling.
"Is that so."