After eating together, Mario and I seemed reluctant to part. from a cafe that is not crowded with visitors, he invites me to walk to a park.
He held my hand warmly, Mario did not cover his head with a hoodie, maybe because it was dark. I wonder why he looks so wary, but I don't want to ask him too many questions.
I just want to enjoy this togetherness, let go of the longing that always makes my chest tight.
We sat on a long bench in the park, looking at the crowd ahead, several couples were enjoying the evening like the two of us. Yes mate .. but for me and Mario? I have no idea.
I said, let's date him, but he did not answer with certainty.
I don't want to think much. I want to enjoy this togetherness.
"Bey, I'm so sorry I couldn't see you again after that night." He started discussing it.
I was curious about all the reasons he just disappeared that day. But I tried to hold back, and .. now, I don't want to hold back anymore.
I turned slightly, facing him, my body leaned, saw my sitting position, he turned his head, until our faces met. He smiled sweetly.
"Mario, you must have a reason. Seeing you like this makes me happy. I'm not a teenage girl like in the past, I'm an adult now. Then. I .." I don't know what else to say. Something knocked on my heart, making me lost for words, my eyes staring into his eyes that seemed to be shining.
This park was getting lonely because it was late at night. Several couples seemed to have looked elsewhere while we were still here.
He saw my eyes that cast a glance at the park.
"You want to move somewhere?" He asked.
I'm confused about what to say. I still want to be with him, I still want this togetherness.
"Sofia has a connection at a hotel. " why do you mention your wife's name in front of me. didn't you understand my feelings, it hurts. "I don't want anyone to see us, let's go over there, you have to go in first, I'll catch up with you later. I usually enter through another door. Sofia taught me well."
Why does it seem like you are so proud of your wife in front of me? How stupid again! I just kept quiet, as if I complied with Mario's ridiculous request.
He gets up from the park bench and takes my hand, but I don't want to stand up. I'm still transfixed sitting in this chair.
He sat back down, I looked up.
"Do you want to stay here?" He asked softly. He squatted in front of me, put his hands on my thighs.
I folded my lips, acting cute. "Why do you look nervous, what are you worried about, you have to tell me so I understand, Mario," I said then.
Mario retracted his smile, he stood up a little, bringing his lips closer to my ear. "I don't want anyone to see and recognize me here. I've been married, How could a husband be alone with a beautiful girl like you in public. "
His words made me jolt. You are right! Ah, I'm so stupid. Even though he's married, I still don't want to let him go, even though he's someone's husband, I still want to be with him.
Now it is my turn to stand up, he follows.
"I'll book my hotel room. Where we can spend time together, you have to promise me to tell me lots of things!" I asked with a cute face.
He laughed at my behavior, he pinched my cheeks and we left the park. I took his hand, occasionally resting my head on his arm. Ah. I'm really happy tonight. I don't think I want to go home. I want to spend time with my lover.
I booked a hotel room in my name for the first time. Do you guys think I can act that naturally when booking a hotel room with a guy?
Mario wears a hoodie and a mask on his face, he covers his face, while I ... ah, I'm so ashamed to giving my identity, I'm still 20 years old and I dare to spend the night in a hotel room with a man.
I can't imagine what's in the hotel clerk's head. They must be thinking weird things. But, we'll only be chatting all night, that's all! I want to describe all that to them. But, never mind .. in the end, I can only pretend to be calm even though my heart was restless.
What makes me surprised was. I and Mario are not the only couple tonight. When I realized everything, my face flushed red, this was a love hotel and it was the weekend.
I got the key to the room with a pounding chest. We both felt awkward walking down the hall. Whereas previously we were holding hands but after arriving at this hotel, the atmosphere was different.
The aura of this hotel was so different, it gives me goosebumps and weirdness. I felt I had chosen the wrong hotel. I should have followed Mario's recommendation. Besides, I have no experience with lodging.
The rental house during my school days was also one of my mistakes. What a beautiful mistake.
My hands felt shaking when I pressed the room code. My heartbeat was so strong, my chest seemed about to burst.
Mario realized my nervousness. He took over the code of the door, he pressed calmly until the bedroom door could open. He invited me in. But. I was frozen in front of the door.
"Why?" He asked seeing me was still petrified in front of the door.
"Come on in, we can talk here in a safe and relaxed manner. Sorry if I seem to force you over here. You don't need to be afraid. "He whispered a little.
It seems like he can read my thoughts right now and it makes me shook my head stiffly. I am embarrassed by myself with lecherous thoughts in my mind.
I followed his steps into the room with a feeling of uncertainty in my heart.
"You sit down, I'll order something for us to eat." He said approaching the telephone.
I landed on the sofa with my back straight, clumsy, nervous, hot.
What am I doing here, tonight, with him?
He's done with the food order on the phone. I can hear his footsteps approaching, close, the closer, and makes me more nervous.
"Can I take off my clothes? "My eyes were rounded, I stuttered at his question just now.