Fiona
I always thought that the girl I meet in the green land of meadow was beautiful but that doesn't mean I'm inlove with her. She is a wonderful girl, she cares about me and people around her even if she didn't show it and every little praises and her touch make my heart flutter. Especially, when she look at me with her eyes, there is no emotion but her eyes doest mean its dead. When Koharu stare at me I couldn't help but feel like my knees is going weak. This emotions I'm feeling is scary.
Because…
Lately, Koharu became really popular and she also became an object of admiration. When I see her sorrounded with the others. I feel like she is so far away. I felt this ache in my heart and its hard to breath.That's what it makes this emotion scary
Fiona thought that as she clench her shirt where her heart position was.
"Fiona, you okay?" A voice called out to me, her voice showed no emotion yet I could feel worry in her voice.It also contain gentleness.
"Hm...Y-yeah...Im fine" I gave her a smile to assure her. I meet her eyes yet I am the one who look away first. I heard her sigh...I was afraid to look at her. I was afraid to look that if I look her face will show a negative expression .
Koharu and I are alone together. We are in a schools kitchen. Today is Saturday. She said she will teach me how to make sweets so that she can eat my homemade sweet. We are alone and I am happy but at the same time my thoughts just keep going in my worries.Why was Koharu spending alone time with me? Maybe she does it out of obligation because I save her life?.I dont know. I want Koharu to look at me and only me but I know this moment will sooner came to an end. I sigh at this thought
'I really am selfish'
I gather all the courage I could muster and finally ready to speak and face Koharu but before I could. I feel like someone was embracing me from the back. I turn to look. It was Koharu
"Ko-haru?" I said unsure
Instead getting a response, I only got silence. I waited for her to talk but she didn't. When I was about to open my mouth. She finally spoke
"Fiona? What's bothering you?" She ask in a whisper and unusually gentle voice. Her voice alone brings shiver down to my spine. Maybe Im going crazy. This action of hers cause me to smile. Then I answer her.
"Nothing is bothering me Koharu...Im fine now" This time it was genuine. Just her doing this even the smallest yet intimate gesture and showed me her unusual side. Let me hear her voice filled with gentleness and also embracing me gently and tenderly was enough to wash my worries away.However, even after I reassure her she continued to spoke.
"Fiona?" She gently whisper my name, care and affection can also be faintly heard
"Y-Yes!" This cause Fiona to startle.
"I may not be reliable, I may unable to help you deal with your problem. I may not be the person who you want to be there for you.However, I can just atleast listen and give you comfort. I can atleast be there for you, be at your side and be with you to saw through that problem. Please rely on me more." Koharu said the last sentence meekly and a little bit of desperation was shown.
"I-I um" I was lost for word. Right now, my mind was blank. I cant think of anything other than how Koharu's touch feel, her unusual behavior that she showed me. I cant think other than the Koharu right now.
She force me to face her way. I think to be honest my face is beet red right now. Thats why I look down and didn't meet her eyes. However, Koharu put her fingers on my chin and force me to look at her in the eyes. When she done that, I feel like I would melt because of her gaze.
"Fiona, listen. Whether you want it or not, whether you need it or not and whether you like or not. I will always stay by your side for as long as I live." Her voice was stern and affectionate and with her eyes directly staring at mine. It was too much for me.
I am pretty sure my face is as red as tomato right now. In fact, if this is an anime I would already have steam coming out of my ears. My face felt hot. I feel warm and fuzzy inside. My mind went blank. My heart was beating so fast that its going to pop out of my chest and my consciousness starting to fade.
'Wait My conscious—nes-s is starting to fa—de? 'was my last thought. After that my sight went black and I hear Koharu catching me before I fall and calling out my name.
When I was awake I was already in our dorm room and I saw no one there and I am in Koharu's bed...
'Wait... I am at Koharu's bed? Whaaat?! Wh-wh-why? Waaah'
Fiona started to panic but Koharu entered
"Are you fine now?" Koharu ask. She is back to her usual emotionless voice
"Ye-yes"
"Mhm, your face is red. Are you certain?" She ask, back to her emotionless face and voice.
"Yes, I am certain I am fine" I said when I calm down
" but what happen? Why am I in your bed?"
"Well, You faint while we were in the middle of talking and for as why you are at my bed, its because I cant take care of you when your in yours" she said while pouting
I look at her. She looks too cute when she is pouting. Really.
"Ahh, sorry sorry. I'll make it up to you. What do you want?" I ask slightly nervous
Her pout was turn into grin
"Sweets" she said mischievously
"Ehh?" I muttered I wasn't sure I heard it right
"If you bake me sweets. I might forgive you"
"What? But I dont know how"
"Dont worry, I'll give you a recipe and with the help of oven. You will be fine. Your Fiona after all" she reassured me.
"What does that even mean? But whatever." I said it with a resign voice and smile and shrugged it off.
"Then thats settle then" Koharu then gave me a big and sweet smile that made me stun and blush.
Thinking about how I faint and how easily she can make my heart race and flutter. I sigh on resignation on the inside and said to myself 'I guess its too much for me to handle haha.It is too much but it made me very happy. This emotion is scary but it bring me happiness.I wonder what its called..I feel like at this moment I am the happiest girl alive'.