The next day I awoke restlessly in my bed - wondering what to do to make everything return to the way it was. I realize I can't, but I can try. I'm trying to be more optimistic rather than pessimistic like my usual self. Why does Hyun-ki...why did Hyun-ki like me so much? I'm just a plain person. Now I'm adding more depressed than before to the list of things I am. Let's face it...I'm nothing without Hyun-ki. I was something before him. Now he's entered my life, and entered it again but this time it hurts. He doesn't remember I love him. He'll never remember that he loves me. Another girl is gonna swoop in, and take the love of my life away from me. I refuse to sit back in a cowardly manner and let that happen.
I eagerly jump out of my comfortable bed, and run to the bathroom to undergo my morning routine. I exited in determination with no reason at all. I decide to wear an off-shoulder royal blue dress that came to the top of my knee, and black knee high sandals with a small heel. I braided my hair but left my bangs untouched, flowing over the surface of my forehead. I grabbed the black hoops out of my transparent jewelry box, and left tranquility (bedroom). Kallie was on the couch studying, and Celeste had been cooking breakfast.
"Goodmorning ladies", I make eye contact with both of my best friends and plop down on the couch next to Kallie.
"Goodmorning", Kallie and Celeste greet in unison.
"You seem excited this morning. That's a good thing", Celeste noticed the radiation reflecting off of my spirit.
"Yeah, it is a good thing. My heart has been hurting, because I knew you were and I couldn't do anything about it. I'm glad you look a little better now", Kallie gave me a sincere smile.
"Yeah, and you're glowing today", Celeste points out as she plates the food.
"I love you guys!" I confess while hugging Kallie, and running into the kitchen to hug Celeste.
"We love you more!" Kallie and Celeste form a group hug before taking a seat on the barstools next to me at the kitchen island.
"Not possible. Just not possible", I shake my head in disagreement.
We all quickly ate breakfast, while watching the television that was in our kitchen.
"You know what we should do today?" Kallie attempts to get our attention.
"What?" Celeste and I face Kallie.
"Let's go shopping", Kallie suggests with a bright smile.
"Oooh yeah! I need some new shoes anyway, so good idea", Celeste coincides with Kallie's idea.
"That sounds...good", I smile but then it fades to a neutral expression. I go back to eating the food, and my best friends look at me with curiosity.
Somehow....they knew what was going on.
"You miss him?" Celeste comfortingly wraps an arm around me.
"Yes, and partially because of the way he made me feel. I love him guys. I love...them. Not the way I love Hyun-ki of course", I felt so defeated.
"It'll get better. He'll get his memory back before you know it. Trust me", Kallie gets up from her seat to join in a group hug.
"I love you guys too", I grin at them with love in my eyes.
"Maybe shopping will distract you", Celeste mentions before collecting our finished plates, and placing them in the sink.
"Only one way to find out", I hop out of the barstool, and grab the car keys to Wenowa. Since everyone was already dressed and ready to go - we left immediately.
1 hour later, and we are at the mall. So far Celeste bought two pairs of shoes, Kallie got three T-shirts, and I purchased a pair of basketball shorts. Now we're back to walking through the mall, and a sky blue high-low dress caught my eye. It flowed at the bottom almost like a long red carpet dress but not unnecessarily long and more simple than fancy, it was off the shoulder with very short sleeves (like a thick strap), and a split at the side stopping at my lower thigh. I had to buy it. There was something special about it. I got lost in every part of the dress, it was...mesmerizing.
"I'm getting that dress", I point at the mannequin.
"That would look amazing on you!" Celeste gasps in awe.
"You guys should get a dress too", I point at the red dress for Celeste and the white/nude one for Kallie. The red dress had no sleeves, and it would stop at Celeste's ankles. It was packed with glitter, and it would bring out her rosy cheeks. The white one would end slightly below Kallie's feet. It had thick straps, two layers (one nude & the outer covering was white with sparkly designs), and I knew it would make Kallie feel like a princess.
"Those dresses must be way over my budget", Celeste's eyes widen at the predicted prices.
"Mine too", Kallie giggles at my illogical thinking.
"What if...we all pitch in and pay for the stuff?" I raise an eyebrow as a smirk spreads over my face. I knew that I had persuaded my girls into getting those enchanted dresses.
"That's actually...not a bad idea", Kallie concords and waits for a reply from Celeste.
"Oh fine", Celeste rolls her eyes which makes Kallie and I chuckle. Celeste eventually starts chuckling too. We all head into the store surprised that the prices of the dresses were actually very low. Converted to money in the U.S., they'd be about $120 each. I'm extremely glad that I saved $740 in my bank account.
"On second thought, I think we can buy it ourselves. That's pretty cheap for what we're actually getting", Celeste admits. Kallie and I nod our heads.
"Let's all try on the dresses!" I gesture my hand in the direction of the changing room. We look at each other, and then rush to the room. Kallie comes out with the white dress, our jaws drop to the ground in amazement. Celeste walks out with the red dress, our brains stopped functioning.
"You two look so beautiful. More precious than stars, and valuable than diamonds", I tilt my head slightly in fondness.
"Thank you", Celeste blushes.
"Thank you, and that was cheesy", Kallie giggles, but also a redness rises to her cheeks.
"You know I'm always cheesy when you guys try on clothes", I remind them as we all break into chuckles.
"Okay it's my turn now", I head into the changing room, and come out feeling like the prettiest flower in the world.
Of all the flowers...Hyun-ki picked me. Why? I need to stop thinking about him, just for a second. My mind feels as if it's being controlled by an unknown force.
You won't believe who happened to be in the same mall. The guys! They noticed me as they were walking by.
"MaeMae....you look...perfect", Celeste & Kallie comment simultaneously.
"Thanks guys", I smile happily as I take a look in the mirror.
"Yeah, you look incredible", a familiar voice tells me. I recognized it...Yong-sun.
"I think I lost my breath from your appearance", another familiar voice speaks. It sounded like Joo-won.
I stand there, shocked. I gradually rotate around to notice Yong-sun, Joo-won, Tae-geun, Ji-hoon, Jun-seo, Ha-jun, and behind Joo-won was....the love of my life.
"Celeste I've never seen someone more gorgeous than you right now", Ha-jun shakes his head repeatedly in astonishment.
"Really? Thank you!" Celeste blushes immensely with a wide grin.
"You both also look amazing, but I wanted to stun MaeMae by surprising her", Yong-sun let's out a chuckle and everyone joins in.
"Thanks", Kallie and Celeste take the compliment humbly.
"Kallie your boyfriend would die after seeing you in that dress", Jun-seo winks at her.
"Well, let's hope not", Kallie giggles and so does Jungkook.
"Hello again", Hyun-ki steps out from behind Jin.
"Hi, how are you feeling?" I waved at him. It took every part of me not to run to him. I knew it'd freak him out since he lost his memory.
"I'm doing much better now, thank you. Also, I never caught your name", Hyun-ki remains patiently for an answer. My heart broke, and time stuck around long enough to make me realize that, because my knees fall to the floor.
"I don't think it matters anymore", a tear falls down my cheek, and I run into the changing room with Celeste and Kallie urgently following behind. The guys take a seat in the seating area of the store. I sit down on one of the three cushioned seats in the changing room.
"Aaaawwwee MaeMae", Kallie and Celeste hug me at the same time, hoping that my composure will be regained twice as fast.
"I think silence is what you need right now. We're just gonna hold you until you feel okay to go outside", Celeste rubs my shoulder and Kallie agrees.
"Thanks guys. Wait...aren't there any customers?" I wonder since we've been in the store for a while.
"Nope", Kallie answers.
"I think because the dresses look so expensive...people don't even bother coming in since they assume they can't afford it", I hypothesize even in this moment to try and distract myself from reality.
"That's a smart way to think", Kallie slowly nods her head.
"MaeMae?" Yong-sun softly calls my name as he knocks on the door.
"Yong-sun you should go home. I don't want you seeing me like this", I sniffle.
"I don't mind. I've seen you like this before", Yong-sun slightly smiles as he leans on the door. I release myself from my friends' grasp to unlock the door, but just enough so that I could see him and not the rest of the shop.
"Hey MaeMae", Yong-sun gives me a warm smile, and I pull him into an embrace.
"I got it from here guys, she'll be out in a minute", Yong-sun notifies Celeste and Kallie as they quietly walk out after patting my back gently in reassurance.
Yong-sun closes the door behind him, and we sit on the seats in the room.
*Hyun-ki's Point Of View
The lady that I saved yesterday suddenly had tears in her eyes, and when they came out...the words she said confused me. What does she mean it doesn't matter anymore? The guys that I live with who claim to be my brothers took me over to the seating area to explain.
"Hyun-ki, before you lost your memory...she-" Jun-seo begins but is cut off by Joo-won.
"The doctors said don't tell him that she was his girlfriend. It was bad enough we told him that we're his best friends/brothers. He can't deal with any other emotional triggers until he recovers", Joo-won whispers into Jun-seo's ear. Jun-seo nods his head.
"Hyun-ki, before you lost your memory...you knew that woman", Jun-seo finishes.
"Oh, so she was upset when I didn't know her?" Hyun-ki tilts his head waiting for clarification. They all nod their heads.
"I'm gonna check on her", Yong-sun moves away from the guys.
*MaeMae/My Point Of View
"It'll get better", Yong-sun holds me tightly.
"I know but it hurts so bad right now", I put my head helplessly over his shoulder.
"I know, I know", Yong-sun rubs my back.
"Thanks Yong-sun", my right hand clutches onto my left index finger behind Yong-sun as he lends me his shoulder to cry on.
"For what?" Yong-sun becomes curious.
"Being there for me. Even though you barely knew me, and I was just a girlfriend of your best friend", I express gratitude towards Yong-sun.
"Well I'm not here for you, because it's the right thing to do. I'm here for you, because I want to be", Yong-sun buries his head in my hair.
"That's nice to hear", I gently smile over his shoulder. I feel Yong-sun's shirt becoming soaked. I calmly pull away from him, and noticed how wet his shirt is.
"Oh man. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get your shirt all wet", I tug at the tear stains. Yong-sun looks down at his shirt to see the stains.
"It's fine, I can get a new...one and it'll dry", Yong-sun looks back up at me, and stares into my teary eyes. He delicately grabs my face with one hand, and wipes the tear away. All of a sudden, our faces start inching closer and closer. Yong-sun snuck his hand around my waist to pull me near him.
This was such a dumb thing to do, but he wasn't a mistake. Maybe what we did was...a mistake or wrong. Though, what made me even more surprised is that we even got this close. I didn't even think of him that way until possibly now. I thought stuff like this only happens in movies. Can you love two people? It feels like a love triangle, but one corner is slightly faded (Hyun-ki). He doesn't even remember me, and might not ever get his memory back. I hate having feelings. This cannot be happening. Why did I do this?