I am positioned comfortably in a chair inside of the dance studio. The guys are practicing, and my attention is all on Hyun-ki who seems to have that face he always has when he's focusing. I just realized this. I can't express what my body feels into words.....he makes me think about him 24/7, even though he's right next to me. I know it's not a possibility for me to be in love with him, right? We've just met. If someone were to look at my life from a far, they'd think that I was oblivious to my feelings and that I'm in love with him. However, when you're actually glued to this rare time in this fast life, you tend to not believe how you feel, so what I feel....is it....is it real? I don't wanna be a princess in some fairytale, this has not been a fairytale at all for me. I'm not princess and my life is not the best dream in the world. Though, Hyun-ki forced me into another dimension where I don't have the urge to run away from these contaminated emotions that always occurs. Here I go rambling again, like a crazed, in love psychopath. Is that what love is? Does it really make you go crazy? Maybe I'm not crazy. Maybe I'm just trying to figure things out. Still.....what am I to him? Am I easy? You'd think that if you'd been through the roughest of times that you'd hold the toughest shell. Mine is broken into pieces by him. A stranger, that I'm getting to know. That I kissed. Wait! That was my.....first kiss!!! How could I not notice that? Now I'm truly into a deep, dark hole of emotions.
The guys go on a break except Hyun-ki who seems to be behind on purpose. He walks towards me, and grabs my hand.
"Come on", Hyun-ki pleads attempting to pull me from the seat.
"What? Why", I question while I'm grabbing his arm.
"Because I wanna dance with you", Hyun-ki admits getting closer to my face.
"But I can't do it in front of people unless it's my cousins", I reveal nervously chuckling.
"It's okay. I'm not the best dancer, so....come on", he begs picking me up out of the seat and placing my feet on the floor.
He plays Bboom Bboom by Momoland, and of course I know some of the dance moves. I just shake my head in reaction as I laugh. He pulls my arms to the center of the studio.
"Do you know the dance moves to this song?", Hyun-ki asks.
"Yes I do actually", I giggle.
I start singing it, because I know most of the words, and then I begin doing the dance moves to the chorus.
Hyun-ki smiles so hard that his dimples are so deep in depth.
"You're so cute, and a much better dancer than me", Hyun-ki compliments me before starting to do a hilarious dance that makes me burst out in laughter.
"What about this dance move?", Hyun-ki jokes as he does a weird move with his arms that leaves me dying on the ground crouching with my face in my palms.
"What the hell was that? You looked like a snake being electrocuted", I tease as I stand up. He advances to a point where he's 3 inches away from me, and does the crazy dance movement near me. I shake my head repeatedly. I put my hands up to distance himself from me.
"N-n-o. St...op. Too much. I....can't....breathe", I try to catch my breath, and he starts laughing. He hugs me to say I'm sorry for making you laugh too hard, and joins in the laughter again. But we both fall down from our overly expressed humor. We just can't stop giggling. My forehead is touching his as we keep chuckling.
20 seconds later, we've stopped our laughter and I go back to the seat since the guys are heading back in the dance studio. Throughout the practice, we make intense eye contact, reminding each other of our exaggerated bursts of laughter.
30 minutes later, and everyone is headed in my direction.
"Hey MaeMae. Do you want to grab something to eat with us?", Joo-won invites grabbing his bottle of water.
"Sure. But, I have school in 2 hours so...", I inform him as I slowly raise out of my chair.
"Don't worry we won't keep you too long", Ha-jun joins in the conversation to reassure me. I nod my head in response.
We all head out to the vehicle.
"Aigoo! I forgot that there's only 7 seats in the truck", Joo-won complains while smacking his forehead.
"It's okay just let MaeMae sit on Hyun's lap", Jun-seo advises as and I freeze up. Yong-sun, Ji-hoon, Tae-geun, Ha-jun, and Joo-won chuckle.
"Aaawwwee. They froze up", Yong-sun points out at us while continuing to laugh. I step towards him.
"Are you trying to die today? If you are, then it's working", I warn him.
"I'm just kidding. Geesh!"
"So was I, but just know that when you have a crush, I'm going to do the same thing to you. You know...IF you get over your ego and think someone is good enough for you", I give an evil grin.
"Oooooo. She just roasted you", Jun-seo says and the guys nod their heads in agreement except Yong-sun of course. We all just end up laughing.
"But just so you know....I don't get intimidated easy", Yong-sun tells me as he heads into the truck.
"I'll keep that in mind when I'm harshly roasting you next time", I respond.
"Also, where'd you learn the word roasting from? Or is that slang that is also said here?", I question Jun-seo.
"We all picked it up from going to America on tour", Jun-seo replies, as everyone nods their heads.
Hyun-ki gets into the truck, and that's when I get extremely nervous. I could tell that Hyun-ki was too, because his smile seemed anxious. He patted his lap as to direct me to come sit. I hesitantly put my bottom on his legs, and I become shocked when he spreads his legs so I am in between them. This is actually kind of smart, because then his legs won't go numb from me being on them. As awkward as the situation is, we still managed to put the seat belt on locking both of us in, and make conversation.
"Aaah no", I massage my head at my really dumb mistake.
"What's wrong?", Tae-geun looks at me with sincere concern along with the rest of them.
"I left Blue Jean", I look out the back window, even though I knew we were too far to see her.
"Who is or what is Blue Jean", Hyun-ki raises an eyebrow crossing his arm, and I turn my head as much as possible to see his face.
"My beautiful blue car", I sigh hitting my head from my stupidity.
"It's okay, we'll go back and get it after we eat", Ji-hoon calms me.
"Yeah, and I'll come with you", Hyun-ki grins brightly.
"Me too", Jun-seo adds his accompaniment.
"That's thoughtful of you guys, but it's too much trouble", I didn't wanna burden them with my problems.
"No it's fine. Literally you made our life more interesting. It's no problem at all", Ji-hoon simultaneously peers at all of the guys as they're all smiling at Ji-hoon and I in agreement with him.
"You guys are the best. I really want my friends to meet you all", I grin as if I'd never had a problem in my entire life.
These guys really make life worth living. I hate to look on the bad side, but...what would I do if I lose them?