"A-Yuan, child do you still talk to your moon-like you used to talk when you were little?"
His train of thoughts broke down when he heard Mo Nuwa called him A-Yuan and he cleaned the string of pearls from his eyes and face with his hands as fast as he could.
"No, grandma I was just looking at its beauty."
Xiao Xing said as he got up from the seeing to give hand to his grandma to sit on the swing with him.
"So, you think you can lie with me, Xing Xing?
His heart stopped at the sudden attack which wasn't expected at all. It was a big shock to him. His wide eyes, hooked breath, shivering everything was pointing towards the hidden truth,
"Does she know that I am not Mo Yuan but Xiao Xing? Why did she call me Xing Xing?"
But thinking about his sister and controlling over his all senses at once,
he replied a question to Mo Nuwa,
"Grandma, what are you saying? Why will I lie with you?"
"Chuckles…Yes, why will you lie to me? I was just kidding, trying to get on to your nerves."
She chuckled again, actually getting on the nerves of Xiao Xing
"Grandma, why are you pulling my leg?"
"Because I love to see your flustered face. Do you remember A-Yuan when you were small, whenever you used to get sad or angry, you used to talk to the moon?
You always told me in your cutest voice that moon is your best friend. He comes to you and listens to your complaints and unhappy moments.
After listening to your all babbling he doesn't leave you but showers his brightest light on you. Do you remember, I started calling you Xing because of this, a star who talks with the moon?"
"I don't remember my childhood days, Grandma. But I still talk to him sometimes. Grandma, now I want to talk to you. Can I ask you something? No, actually, can I tell you something?"
Giving a most lovely smile the old lady looked at the moon and then again back to Xiao Xing. What's with that smile, Xiao Xing thought to himself?
"Yes, dear you can tell me your new decision and if you want my approval for it then you know your grandma very well. I am going to support you in your every decision. I just want to ask you one thing, can I?"
"Grandma, how do you know I have made a decision and I want to tell you?"
"If you want the truth, I am not going to tell you those things that I know everything about you and all, but I don't know how I feel that I can read your face since you came back from this accident.
I don't know why I am feeling that I understand you so well like the back of my hand. Are you satisfied?"
The silence met her question, but the surprise in Xiao Xing's eyes was something that gave her the answer.
"I think you know now but can you tell me one thing, truth will be preferable. Do you love him, Xing Xing?"
"Grandma, I don't know? Maybe I am, but can you please tell me what is love first?"
"The way you were looking at him today is called love, Xing Xing. The happiness you want to see in his eyes is called love. Each moment you want to spend with him that you want is called love.
The way you want to give him your everything is called love. The way you have become greedy to get his attention and affection is called love, Xing Xing. Do you understand what love is now?"
"Does that mean I truly love him?"
"You were confused about it then why didn't you ask me before?
"I don't know why I would have done that, Grandma, but are you sure I never said anything to you about my feelings before? "
"No. You never spoke a word. After losing our family, you went into the shell. You were just seven years old at that time. You never opened up again but now that I can see you, I am feeling so happy that you are back, Xing Xing.
This everything always belonged to you since the start and now that you have come to me, I want you to take all the responsibilities. I want you to take care of everything. I want you to settle down with Xie Jayden, he was waiting for you for thirteen years, go to him."
"Grandma, actually I wanted to tell you only about Xie Jayden. I asked him to stop our engagement for two months for now. I...I asked him to be my boyfriend first. Are you okay with this, Grandma?"
"You think you did the correct thing, Xing Xing?"
"Grandma, I wanted a few more days to understand him. That's why I asked him to do it and I don't know if I have done it correctly or not but this is what my heart Grandma."
"If your heart wanted this then you did the correct thing, Xing Xing."
Her assuring words were like medicine for his heart injury. Never in his life, he felt more relieved and happy. Only by one sentence, all his worries left his heart like they never recited in his heart.
"Grandma, Thank you so much."
"Hey, keep this thank you for your boyfriend. Let me go now. This old lady is tired now."
As she said it she got up from the swing and looked back at Xiao Xing,
"Xing Xing, tomorrow I have called an interior decorator. Change everything in this room as you want it. I know this is not your taste. Good night."
Her
Her retreating silhouettes was the thing he saw till she didn't close the door of the room behind her back and Xiao Xing fell silent, reminding himself about what happened between him and Xie Jayden. The intensity of his love for Mo Yuan again and touched his heart to hurt it some more. His mind again started to think about all the haywire emotions about Xie Jayden.
There will be a time when he will get married to him, surely, but he never wanted to get caught in the middle of his acting as Mo Yuan.
No. That didn't seem feasible that he would be in the middle of any emotional and practical fight. It will only tar the things between them. He can't become more greedy than this in future.
It should have been a relief that he was getting what he wanted at that time, even as Mo Yuan. It should have been a relief...a golden chance but instead a wave of sadness and heartache rolled through him.
Tomorrow he will go back to be the strong and cold omega for all his family knew. He will become the successful and passionate founder of the big Mo empire. Tomorrow will be the start of a new leaf of his life where the certain name would become his for a few months, certain someone becomes him till he doesn't give birth to their heir of the empire and after that everything will become a memoir of time that god has given to him as a gift of his life.
But for tonight, in the solitude of a silent full moon night, he will let himself cry, cry for his first love that remained one-sided, cry for that love which came very unexpectedly in a worse situation in his life, cry for the loving family which became his but only for time being, cry for love which will be his in every aspect of life but never come true, cries for the little one which will be part of his blood but never be his…
And he silently cried till the end of the night that was there till new rays of sun didn't touch the ground of reality.
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