He stood at the frame of the heavy brown door I stood waiting for him to spit out what his visit permits for, his face flashed a saddened look intriguing me to figure out what had happened .I evoked him to say something ,anything .This person was no longer a friend of mine yet the years of glory and joy we had in the past plead their case to my mind to let him back in my life yet no time has that ended well for me ,perhaps those years are gone with no return, they mean nothing to him yet they sure do to me .
''Theodor has passed '' said he
We stood in silence for s few minutes as light shone throw the window beside us , Theodor again was no friend to me yet he always looked out for me he is or perhaps was a good soul he was also fond of art such as myself we would spend time painting shame the best go first , as the prettiest flowers containing the best colors are always to be picked first and left to dry out and die .
My face contained expressions of shock perhaps sadness ,once a long time ago we were adjacent friends in ad of other people yet is it not hilarious how such closeness could burn down due to the hatred seed that grew in my mind perhaps if I had detached that seed of gloom we could all be jubilant ,
''when has that happened '' I asked
''Not far too long ''answered he
asked about my art and whatnot yet I did not tell him about the lack of motivation nor the bitter sorrowful monster lurking in my mind , I decided to keep it to myself ,we sat in my living room with the wooden floor boards with she shelves of books on the side of the room and a simple elegant set of couches cedar in color .The house was old fashioned as I enjoy this setup than any other .However, some may call it dull ,yet to me that is no truth.
The window above the couch shone light and rays of sun into the once dull bitter room ,the spring weather is inducing the spread of flowers outside and all around , bushes and trees decorate the once cold and frosty juniper ground .The winter was surely my favorite as the sound of pouring rain is indeed my favorite it is comforting from the luxury of my home yet the animals outside would beg to differ .It has been long since I had a talk with Cedric ,therefore I no longer know how to talk to him or even start a conversation I guess that was noticeable as he toke the sign to begin talking asking if I am fine and what night ,he queried my reply of being fine yet shook it off regardless ,needless to say Cedrick was a good talker a listener too you could talk to him hours nonstop yet not lose the jubilation we talked and talked for what seemed to me for hours about work , study ,books and on what is between the lines of that.
As the indigo blue toke control over the sky ,and the sun excused itself to be replaced by the crescent moon that shone between the darkness surrounding it ,it shone so effortless mythical might I add , Cedric headed back home leaving me once alone in the acrid bitter forsaken house as an old saying goes ''no company is better than bad company '' yet I beg to differ as bad company is still company and a bad friend is better than no friend or so I believe ,as no matter good or bad remaining with your own mind is far the worst as it is your biggest blessing and the deadliest weapon .
Cedric had just left when I heard a bumping noise yet I couldn't figure where such noise was coming from ,it got louder and louder until I had realized it was close to one of my shelves I had found an akita cub ,its ears bended downwards with paws white as snow and face dark as coal its eyes a brownish shade, I am more fond of cats as they are calmer and less work yet at the sight of this puppy I had changed my mind ,regardless of what hatred towards dogs I withheld ,this puppy brought a smile upon my face with its funny attempts at barking at running with its tiny paws and even tinier claws thinking that this adorable puppy will once grow to a full dog size mesmerizes me .
I fed him with the leftovers of food I had, this lonely house lit up with the barks he made making me realize how quite this place was, his barks filled the house and my ears with noise which was very pleasant as the silence felt like daggers to the heart.
Focusing on his barks lowered the commotion within my mind , as if telling it to relax and let go ,I adore the pleasant silence from time to time .Nevertheless, too much of good result in a bad I have grown used to the quite ,alone with my thoughts in which feed me poison as your mind is your greatest enemy .Staying alone with such an enemy fills you with bitterness like no other ,''Theodor passed'' those words played loops in my head. Theodor was a tall man with a good build and a love for history in fact he used to speak to me of tales about said history ,I thought of them as boring with all honesty yet I listened not wanting to inform him of his dull stories ,looking back at such times I wish I had listened more to what he said I wish to have laughed with him more I wish to have had heard one more story of his instead of leaving him nay them alone , such thoughts make me wonder of the regrets we hold , ''what if Cedric passes?'' ''what if Athena passes or perhaps Oscar? '' these thoughts are poison as I do not have it in me to forgive them, I do not have such forgiveness in my heart.