(Einar's POV)
"Fu*k! Fu*k! Fu*k! Fu*k! Fu*k!"
I was cursing my luck that was bad for the first time in my life.
I came near the tree were on the hill of Camlann where I used to come to relieve my stress.
"Sniff* I can't believe that she would treat me like that after what I have done for her for so many years!"
I wiped my tears that were falling again after 10 years. I thought she would have a little consideration for my feelings but she appeared to be just a heartless monster.
Want her body? She had the least sex appeal among all the girls I have met. Did she seriously think that I was just after her body for so long…? Okay, I admit that the ultimate goal of this kind of relationship was to taste the forbidden fruit but to hell with it. I would have done the deed with any girl if I was so interested in sex.
Even after so long, I had little hope that maybe she would show me some face- I mean some kind of sincerity but instead, she displayed such an ugly sight.
I then shook my head and stood up. It was finally enough for me.
"Let's leave this place forever."
"And run away?"
I heard a familiar voice and instantly identified the person who just spoke from behind. I turned around and saw a beautiful woman with blue hair.
"Mother?" I took some steps back as my heart was broken and didn't want to bear another breakdown by facing her.
"Ara~ so you do remember me and the first thing you think is to run?" She smiled but I was able to see a sense of disappointment on her face.
"W-who is going to run?"
"You."
I shook my head and sat on the grass with both hands on my face.
"I am tired, mother…" I was so disappointed in myself that I didn't even dare to look into her eyes.
She sighed and sat beside me and rubbed my hair.
"Mother knows very well sweetie but you do you think running away will solve every problem? Your another teacher, who was she again? Ah, Miss Scratch-"
"It's Scáthach and you just did that on purpose, didn't you?"
"Whatever she is, what would she think that you just ran away instead of facing problems, huh?"
I knew very well what I owe her and even prepared a gift for her but she would by no means accept my gift. Even though death was her biggest desire, she hates cowards more than anything and if she got even a gist of my cowardice, she would never forgive me.
"Then tell me, mother, what should I do? I tried to be positive in every possible way yet this is what I deserve? Do you think a person like me can forget for what she has done?"
She stared at me briefly before narrowing her eyes.
"Einar, it is indeed unforgivable for what she has done but let us face the facts. Who was the one leaving first without any kind of explanation? Who was the one arguing the king for his decisions and forcing your values?"
"Okay stop I get it!"
"Einar, you think you are the only one who has played fairly but did you forget who taught you swords skills and riding a horse? Don't you remember she was with you the whole time too?"
When she told me that, I remembered those days. It was indeed true that Artoria also had done so much for me and to be honest, if not for my cheat called Book of Chastiefol, the only skill I had was my cooking efficiency and knowledge from my past life.
On the other hand, Artoria learned everything from her sheer hard work and iron will. I remembered she used to practice sword all day long and then take lessons from Merlin at night.
I didn't question her forcing way up by considering her diligence since I was resistant to sleep too but that poor girl only had one to two hours to sleep at most.
Another part I noticed that how the hell Vivian knows all of this!? Was she stalking at me all this time? I then made my mind to use some evade magic to avoid her detection from then on.
"Einar, I know what you are going through isn't easy to accept but you have to understand Einar, lives of people like Artoria, Morgan le Fay, or any other person connected to legend."
"What do you mean, mother?"
"Let me ask you like this, why do you think that girl was able to pull Excalibur's full power but not you even if have better and more mana than her?"
"Isn't it because she was worthy of that sword?"
"Incorrect. 'King Arthur' is the one worthy not her."
I looked at her with confusion.
"Let me ask again, why do you think that Vortigern and Uther were following the script even after knowing what lies ahead was nothing but death?"
I then recalled this question again after so long.
I always felt weird what the hell is the thing that was stopping Uther and Vortigern from taking an independent action?
"It seems you do realize something weird, right? Now then I will ask a final question, why did stop from drawing Caliburn?"
When she asked this question, my heart came near my throat.
Wasn't Artoria supposed to be the one drawing the sword, right?
"Wasn't Artoria supposed to be the one drawing the sword, right? Is that what you are thinking?"
"Okay, I lose, mother? Tell me everything."
"Because I am the one who gave you the chance to become a king and write a new history. But after seeing what stars were indicating, I was also the one who instructed Merlin to hold marriage between King Arthur and Guinevere."
I widened my eyes. I can't believe that I was blaming the wrong people all along.
"Yup but do you know why I did this? It is because you were weak and would have killed the moment legend went in the wrong direction?"
"Legend? Weak?"
"Yes, if you had drawn that sword, you would have killed by the will of the world called Alaya. But since you didn't pull, the legend went correctly and King Arthur was born. And thanks to your luck, you left the capital at right time, or else she would never even consider marrying anyone and have revealed her gender, changing the history and called for a death scythe to your neck."
"I think I get it but what exactly is the reason behind this entire act?"
"Einar, people that appeared in the legends are just like puppets and stepping stones for the modern-day future where you came from."
I was shocked when she told me that.
"Einar, you have to understand that you are just an unwanted presence in this world from somewhere outside. If you had messed before, you would have killed a long time ago."
She then stated the same reason Elaine used to say. I have made a grand spell unknown to everyone to fight against Alaya that was at its completion. And what Elaine said appeared right. If not for my luck, I would have triggered Alaya and create a reason for it to act.
But I was now strong enough to face her. I didn't have any reason to fear. I don't care about the future if I have to save my ass, do I?
"But what should I do with her…?"
I was still reluctant to face her again. I was also ashamed that even after knowing my mistakes, I raised my hand to her. I forgot what kind of responsibility was hanging on her shoulders the moment she was born.
Unlike me, she was born for one purpose and I never truly hold her hand to take responsibility myself. All I did was watch from the sidelines while pushing her forward.
My heart started to throb again for her.
"Ah~"
Suddenly I moaned in the middle of my thought. When trying to identify the sudden rise of my spear hero, I saw Vivian's hand inside my pants and jerking my dragon.
"It seems like this is the real reason for your depression? Wow, your dick's height is better than yours. Let mother help you to relieve some stress." She said while rubbing my dick.
I then felt some kind of energy gathering at a single point and that was my dick. I immediately shook her hand away and jump backward. Then I cast some spells to calm my dragon.
"What the hell, mother?! What kind of mother jerks their own son's junk?!"
"Why else? Don't you know that masturbate could help you relieve some stress?"
I made a stiff face. Masturbate? It was only for losers! And besides, I had way more pride to waste my sperms in someone unworthy or wash it in the toilet.
Speaking of jerking off, I then realized that I had become a half saint for being a virgin if you add 33 years of this life with my previous 17 years.
"Einar, go and talk with her. And this time, talk properly and live the life that you want. Don't ever forget your vow to never running away." Vivian stood up and ordered like a true mother.
I smiled and gave her a deep hug and a quick kiss on the cheek before running away back.
Vivian's words opened my eyes and I won't make another mistake.
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(Vivian's POV)
"Shit, I should have forced him to bang me now. Which 17 years old looking boy has 9 inches long dick?"
I could only wave my hand at the departing figure of my son.
Finally, the time has come for him to face the biggest challenge of his life. At this moment, I was not able to see his future anymore.
Either he would be dead or this world was going to be destroyed. Either way, I can't do anything except pray for him and make a harem so that I could taste him a little.
"Like mother, like son, way troublesome. Yare Yare Daze." Tilting my nonexistent cap, I returned to my home.
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