And as I sit here in the dark of my room I realize,
No one is there to come to my house in the middle of the night to keep me from taking those pills.
No one is there to take the blade as I put it to my wrist.
No one is there for me to call in the middle of the night.
No one is there for to hug me after I wake up crying again.
Why can't I be strong enough to say I'm not okay?
Why can't they just say I know your not fine, even when I say I am?
Why can't they just hug me when my tears come falling like a river?
Why can't they sit with me in a corner holding me as I shake from anxiety?
Will you stay with me?
No matter how sad I am?
No matter what time it is I call or text will you answer?
If I said I wanted to die would you let me cry by your side?
Or would you leave me?
Say I'm just looking for attention?
Say I'm not good enough?
That I need to stop?
Would you leave me alone in the dark as I cry my heart out?