Jeremy wished it was her and he wished it was not her. If it was her, it means she has no self-preservation and he needed to give her some lessons. He can protect himself, but she cannot be involving herself in dangerous stunts like this.
But why do I want to see her there? Why do I wish that this clumsy attempt to "help" me was undertaken by her?
His legs started running towards the driver's side.
Am I dreaming?
From the distance, Gerard watched the woman he thought he knew well, rash driving towards a bunch of men. He couldn't fathom what she was planning to do. Because of the way she rushed forward, seemed like she'll kill a bunch of men to save that one guy.
Why? How did she change this much?