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"But remember, some fairytales starts at the end of the sad endings"
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There was once a servant who was being punished after stealing something from the kitchen that is placed upon my tray. I don't really mind though people in the palace thinks differently.
"That is the food of the Crown Princess! Why did you do such a thing?! ", I was just having my eyes on my plate as I continue to munch my foods, completely ignoring the stares of the other servants as the hand of the maid who dare to stole my 'golden steak' was having her hands lashed. Though she didn't cry nor say something. More like, she loose everything all of the sudden.
The next day, she hung herself and many servants come crying in her funeral saying how good she is, and her hunger is the one who provoke her to do such disgracing thing. I blink my eyes in there and realizes.
it is not the pain who make her loose the emotions on her face, it is the humiliation and the sense of betrayal, she have many friend yet none of them stand for her as she was being punished. They look at her as if she's a dirt with sense of humiliation all over her. I snickered by the thoughts of it in the middle of her funeral but no one dares to question why I did so, for in the first place, A crown Princess shouldn't be in there.
I only said, "Disgusting", before taking my leave, though my reputation immideately widens by my sound of it, I was even slapped by the Queen Mother because of the rumour I dashed and taint upon my name as the future daughter-in-law of her seat.
"What a shame have you done", that's where I realizes, a servant, a princess, a queen. We all have the same weaknesses.
Humiliation.
You have a job. Don't do anything to embarrass yourself infront of people.
You have a crown, don't say embarrassment in the name of your Kingdom.
You have honor, don't taint your reputation with such reputation.
It is simple as that. Humiliate yourself in embarrassment and everyone may forget but in your mind they in craved laughing and making fun of your faith. But in the end, sometimes, despair os our greatest ally.
'What is a princess?'
Walking along the way of muddy drenched in my barefoot as my haie was tied forcefully using a pice of stick as a holder in roll I keep my step in the middle of the rocky Mountain. Finding a way to live, finding a way to survive.
"Too bad for her, the prince find another woman",
"I heard her family didn't accept her".
"Duke Lamia proclaimed that her daughter is not associated with his family anymore".
"Uh-uh, though Duke Lamia was the one who introduced his daughter to his Majesty back then".
I continue my step as I keep on hoping a blessing will come upon my steps under the moonlight. Under the dim rhythm of the night. My body was full of scartch as I feel a long itch from my right cheeks and down to my neck.
"I'm sorry Hya",
"You are not a part of this family! Get out!",
"I'm sorry Hya, my father said I shouldn't be with you anymore",
"I won't accept a disgrace like you as a friend of my precious daughter! ",
In order to live, I survive these circumstances. As I was on my unknown step upon the slimy and foggy entangled way, I missed a step and stumbles a roll down as more pain gushes towards me. As bit my lower lips to stop myself from crying, completely abandoning the pain as I breath in and out as I stand once more.
The road is dark as I keep my pace with the moon as my light and the stars as my guide. Deep within the forest my senses was dull enough to feel anything other than my pain. I saw the flashes of crimson drops from my flesh as I then shook my head to continue my gaze forward.
I need to live,
"Live, Hyacinth, live with sincerity in your heart",
I need to live,
"It's alright to be tired Hya, mother is proud of you",
I need to fucking live!
"Hya, live until the end"…
I stop as I stumble upon a cliff right in front of me, the moon then looked like in front of me, gazing me it's full glory as it's children of stars continues to watch over my actions.
My eyes becomes blurry as tears was beaming down my cheeks. I tried to succeed. I find a way to survive but seriously,
"Mother, I'm tired",… I want to give my heart a pieces of peace already. I wanted to be happy for once.
"Mother, please tell me what should I do"…
"There she is!",
"Catch her! ",
"S-stop! ",
"Commander! She jumped down the cliff!",
"Check the perimeter! Catch her dead body if you see it! Bring me her head! His Majesty needs a confirmation! ",
"'Yes sir! ".
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'I just wanted to live and have peace'
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