Haru's lips trembled for a moment. {"So you…"} he said in disbelief. Can't go on anymore. Instead of pity, Renji actually approached at that time. He locked Haru against the wall and touched him without a second thought.
Haru who was too shocked turned into a log. He remained lifeless, only holding onto Renji's arm until he slumped down onto the floor.
Renji dipped it mercilessly there, right then and there. He had no intention of moving even once. He didn't even apologize when he saw Haru shed tears of pain. Thought it was better. Haru will definitely be traumatized like last year's girl. So that then disappear and no longer bother him.
Unfortunately, Renji was wrong.
Haru, who had just woken up after two days, headed for him even though he was struggling. He stumbled. Getting closer to Renji who was reading a book with his back to him. Hug him from behind. Then he said he didn't want to lose. {"I'm sorry,"} Haru said. It made Renji feel empty for a moment. {"I don't know anything about you, Ren. I mean, apart from your data on the student worksheets. So… I must have bothered you a lot."}
{"…"}
Who really should be apologizing?
{"I don't know why… but even this is fine,"} Haru said again. {"You know what? Seeing you alone is even more unacceptable to me—hahaha… I'm getting annoying right?" }
{"…"}
{"Can I still be your friend?"}
Since that day, Haru became the first friend who survived until now.
Even after he's been through a lot. Including having a small family that is not planned. The man's heart remained intact towards him.
{"Ren… I… I really don't know…"} Haru said. Right after Senior High's graduation, the man looked really, really stressed. His face was as pale as a dead fish. In his hand, a DNA test letter was barely traced in a single squeeze.
Because inside there is evidence of a match that he is the biological father of Sheila's newborn baby in a Tokyo public hospital. Rose, a woman who is three years older than Haru is still lying weakly in her ward.
Honestly Haru doesn't know anything.
All he remembered were short chunks of blurry memory. Back to when Renji had a big job. He is preparing to debut as a novelist with a real name in California. Leaving Haru for 3 days. Just then a friend invited him to attend a birthday party.
Haru thought it was an ordinary party. There are celebrations, meals, cake cutting and so on.
He suddenly felt dizzy after being given something to drink. He sat on the sofa and felt like he was flying into the sky. Shortly after, the blurry shadows of a group of men pulled at him. Take part in a very dark place.
Haru couldn't see or hear anything clearly except their exuberant laughter and the screams of a girl.
In the morning, Haru just woke up at 10. His head was dizzy. By his side was a beautiful blonde girl who was naked. Looking around, this was a hotel room somehow. And seeing how messy the place was, there were at least five other men who were here last night.
The large bed looked like it had just been hit by an earthquake. Blankets and sheets scattered. Sliding down along with a fallen bolster pillow.
Wet condoms splattered and various scents of perfume rolled into one.
No need to guess anymore. It's an orgy.
The victim was the girl next to Haru, but neither of the boys woke up with the two of them. They all are gone.
Confused, Haru cursed for not being able to contact the friend who had invited him. He didn't know what to do until he found the girl's ID card. Her name is Rosemary Elizabeth. Call her Rose. She is a student majoring in jurisprudence at the University of Tokyo who moved to Japan three months ago. The girl's future should be bright to be dragged into this orgy.
Haru was concerned, but he also didn't want to admit right away that Rose's pregnancy came from him. There are five men still to be found. Unfortunately, the submission of Rose's case to the police resulted in nothing.
The five men mysteriously disappeared. Gradually Rose's womb grew and after birth, Haru was only willing to do a DNA test. The baby was named Sheila. Apparently pretty with flaming blonde hair.
After Renji found out, the petite body felt his arms. He had a one-on-one conversation with Rose, while Haru sat outside the ward because it was still hard to accept.
{"I'm not going to restrain him,"} said Rose. The bottom of the woman's eyes were sunken, sunken, and black in shadow. {"Sheila just needs a father figure to acknowledge. Nothing more. So, there's no need to feel sorry for me. Haru's presence is enough, but he will still be yours."}
Rose's smile is very kind. Renji could only silently respond. He looked at the baby. His blue eyes gleamed clear though they were still hard to open. Her tiny hands were reaching out. Grabbing Renji's cheek as if trying to recognize the face. {"I won't restrain him either,"} Renji said. He knew Sheila needed Haru more than him. {"Sheila deserves a father figure. However, this is out of his control anyway. So whenever he wants to be with me , I won't stop him."}
Rose nodded. {"Thank you, Ren…"} she said. {"And please.. you must be the only one leading us to the altar…"}
{"Yes."}
And Renji really did. Haru is like an undead on the wedding day. His face was flat. His eyes are empty. His body was as fragile as a dandelion bud. Renji gave in and took care of the man. Starting from bathing and dressing. Picked out the best suit from his closet complete with a ribbon tie.
The man was not enthusiastic in the slightest even though last night had killed time with Renji. Maybe because he was too young. He was even 19 at the time, but he still had to face reality.