I stopped and order her a hot herbal tea at a drive thru cafe. Handing it to her, "It's for your throat babe, it'll help it okay?" cautiously, she sideways glanced me and nods, "Th..thanks" and takes a sip. Her voice sounds bad, I am really hoping that tea helps. We've been driving for about 5 minutes in silence. I was a bit worried about her, she hasn't said anything since we left the spa, "Are you okay sweetie?" I glance over at her before turning my attention back to the road. She looks conflicted, like she wants to answer me but doesn't know what to say. Her eyes keep darting between me then down to the floor like she's afraid to make eye contact. She seems terrified, her hands are trembling violently holding on to her cup of tea...
No, I'm not alright! My body hurts and he made me feel like this! I'm so hurt, mad, frustrated and scared all at the same time, but I don't want him mad at me. I don't wanna be... punished again! I'm never gonna lie to him so I just shake my head.
"Just never push me away again okay? That was really disrespectful and I didn't appreciate it at all, do you understand me?" he said in a very serious voice with his eyebrow raised, looking at me out the corner of his eye. And I was so frightened that my toes curled and I felt bolts of pain in my chest. The cup of tea was shaking so much in my trembling hands I had to sit it in a cupholder. I still couldn't look directly at him, nodding quickly, "Yes I understand and it will never happen again, please believe me." "Good" he nods. My voice sounds so small and far away, that I was surprised he heard me.
Looking down at my shaking hands I take some deep breaths to calm myself down. My throat hurts so damn bad, so I start drinking my tea and it really does help. I was silently praying that he wasn't still mad at me, because I don't think I can take anymore of this. This is just too much for me to deal with right now.
We arrive at the theater and they were waiting outside for us. As they were getting in the van Manny yells, "Put on your seat belts" he was firm but not rude. "We had sooo much fun Keya! Look what I won from the machine!" Qwan is grinning widely showing me his little monster stuffed animal, he puts on his seatbelt and stuffs the toy in with him. "Did you win that all by yourself?" I asked him hoarsely, my throat still raw. He nods his head happily "Yup! I did it all by myself." Seeing how happy he was, made me forget some of the pain I was in. "You are growing into such a big boy now Qwan, that's good!" I say and he grins.
I know how hard its been for him since he burned his feet. With therapy and lots of trips to the doctor and he also has really bad asthma. So I'm really worried about him having an asthma attack if he gets to worked up. He told me, one time when I had asked about his feet how he felt, and he said 'I thought I was dead, Keya!' So I've been overly protective of him since it happened, he was only 1 and a half when it happened. I never wanted him to feel like that ever again. He's my youngest brother I love him and I spoil him the most.
I'm grinning as they were getting in the van putting on their seat belts. When all at once they started telling me about the movie and arcade games they played. I'm remembering what they're asking so I can answer them. Grammy getting in last frowns asking, "Gurl whats wrong with you, have you been crying?!" I blinked, my smile fades. I quickly glanced over at Manny, 'gulp', I'm not sure if he's still mad at me. Turning around in my seat, I let down the overhead mirror to check my face out. It's red and my eyes puffy & red, I look terrible, "I'm okay now, Grammy" I'm sitting with my legs apart to try to relieve some of the pain in between them, I'll be better when my privates stop throbbing.. I need to go soak ASAP. I can see her in the mirror, she gave me a look like 'Yeah right!' I can't lie to her, she sees right through me! But I'll tell her later.. I always do. She looks pissed off over at Manny, lips pursed, "Mm hmph.." and narrows her eyes.
I began driving and noticed her Grandma glaring at me. I didn't feel like talking about anything right now so I diverted her attention to something else. "Do y'all have suitcases for tomorrow?" I asked ignoring her hard stare...
Yeah I'm gonna have to talk to his ass later, what the hell he done did to her now?! Didn't I tell him earlier not to be so damn rough! If he doesn't slow his roll I'm gonna have to separate them for awhile. He ain't gonna like it, but it might be necessary. "Naw we ain't got no damn suitcases, boy" I said slightly agitated. "Let's stop at this Target store over here" He can spend as much money as he wants, that don't mean he gets to treat my granddaughter like shit tho! We pull up and park at Target, "Come on Keya" I say, wanting to talk to her. Her eyes widen, "Oh, um I'm still sore from earlier Grammy, it really hurts to move around.." she said looking down, slowly shaking her head. WTH! But she was walking around fine earlier today. He must've done something to her recently, "Are you for fuckin real, you still hurting!?" she nods looking sad. Ok that's it! "Manny you gonna have to take a damn chill pill, you hear me! This shit ain't good for her, what if you damaged her to the point of no return? Where surgery can't help her, what the hell you gonna do then!?" I yelled at him. Tryna put the fear of GOD in him.
What..? Damaged to the point of no return..? I hadn't thought of that.. shit! I hadn't meant for it to go this far.., "I let my anger get to me and took it out on her.. I'm sorry y'all" I really was. Now that I think about, I was supposed to show her a good time today and ended up hurting her even more. I abruptly turned to face her and she jumped! Fuck now she thinks I'm gonna attack her! Oh GOD how did this happen..? I got to make it right. "Baby, I'm so, so sorry about earlier, today was meant to be a relaxing day at the spa and I ruined it... will you forgive me?" I asked her sincerely.
He looked at me like he did on Saturday night and I knew that he meant what he was saying, "I forgive you, Papi" We are at a red light. I touched his right arm, squeezing it gently with my left hand, he took it and gave it a kiss. Then pulled my head in close and we touched foreheads. It felt good to know he wasn't mad at me anymore. "I love you so much baby, you are the best" he says and we both smile. The light changed and a car behind us blew their horn. He gently let me go and started driving again.
"Manny I think y'all need a break from juicing right now until she's healed up fully, with her being swollen she is more susceptible to catching an infection and we don't want that ok boy?" I say truthfully, too many questions to answer from nosy ass doctors. "I understand Grammy and no we don't want that" he said.
Good we're on the same page, she's gonna need to get better before going to camp next week. "Keya you gonna need to soak yourself in that jacuzzi to help heal up ok?" she turned to me, "Ok, Grammy I will when I get home." "Good, now let's go in here and get these suitcases."
Everyone got out the vehicle except Keya, Qwan, Tez and Tey. And entered the store Grammy grabbed a cart and we headed towards the suitcases. "What happened Manny?" Grammy asked concerned. I sighed heavily, dragging a hand down my face, "When we were at Macy's today, before you broke us up from making out, she tried to push away from me and I didn't like that. I never want her to push me away!" I said stubbornly smh. I was really hurt by such a small action. I'll move heaven and earth for my chocolate princess, but I can't stand being rejected and I won't tolerate it from anyone especially not my future wife.
"I understand where you're coming from, but you're treating her like ya'll been together for a long time. She's never really been in a relationship before and don't really know what she's doing. You can't blame her for her inexperience, that's just wrong. Since you're her first you will have to teach her what you want and how you want it. She's a blank page, Manny and you hold the paint. Draw a masterpiece not a nightmare." I told him sincerely. We found the suitcases and picked out several of them.
She's right.. I do forget that its only been a few days that we've been together. I guess it seemed longer to me because I've wanted her since April. I take a breath, I need to get my shit together. "You're right Grammy" she turned to me looking smug, "Of course I'm right boy, I ain't get these grey hairs for nothing they come from having wisdom." She has a genuine smile on her face. "We she be alright?" I was worried about her. "She needs to heal up before y'all try to do anything else. Go get her a frozen bag of peas or corn, that'll help with the pain she's in. Until she gets home and can soak" he leaves and I go get her a few things for her bath.
I went to get my babygirl some frozen veggies for her swollen clit and some herbal tea, lemons, a mug and honey for her throat. I decided to also get her some coloring books and materials. I also got her some chocolates, a greeting card and some flowers. Then head back to look for Grammy. She was near the checkout counter looking around for me. I pay for everything and decide to go use the bathroom before I go back to the van. "I've got to go to the bathroom, I'll meet y'all outside" I tell Grammy. "I gotta go to Grammy" Trell says. Grammy nods and heads outside and Trell follows me to the bathroom.
"Mr. Manny is Keya gonna be okay?" he asks me looking worried. "Yes she will be okay in no time" I smiled at him. He grins at that, "Good because I don't know what we will do without her. I heard Grammy say she was damaged is that true?" he asked curiously. "She is a little bit but she will be all better soon I promise you that okay Trell?" he nods and smiles, then we wash our hands and head to the van.
Meanwhile back in the van, "Keya are you okay?" Tey asks me. I turned towards him wincing from the pain below. I sigh and take a breath, "Yeah Tey I'll be ok, thanks for asking tho." I smile at him. "Did Mr. Manny hurt you, is that why you were crying?" I grin Tey is very observant as usual. "Yes I made him mad earlier and I got in trouble for it but I'm good now cool?" he looked like he wasn't completely convinced but he didn't ask me anything else about it. "What's wrong with your voice Keya?" Tez asks me. Well I couldn't say that it was because I was screaming so I just said, "Because I was crying really hard and I guess my throat got sore from it" he looked confused but shrugged and resumed playing with his toys.
"Did y'all enjoy the movie and are y'all ready to go to Six Flags tomorrow?" I was super excited about going there. I've seen commercials for years about the theme park and can't wait till tomorrow! So they all began telling me how excited they were to go, the truth is none of us have really been anywhere except to the park or the beach. Our mom never really took us places before I thought sadly.
But Manny says he wants to take me lots of places and I'm looking forward to going everywhere with him! After awhile I see Grammy heading toward us. And she started putting the luggage in the back of the van. She gave Phat a bag and told her to give it to me, it was a bag of frozen peas..?? I looked at her curiously, "Grammy?" She said in an irritated tone, "Put it on your stuff to help with the pain gurl!" My eyes widened, "Oh!" I get it now, I did and it really did help. What a relief! A few minutes later Trell and Manny came out and we were on our way.
Finally we headed back home upon arriving there we took everything inside it took awhile. Manny asked me to check the mailbox, I was happy that I was able to walk again, those peas helped out a lot, the mailbox was empty. But when I went inside Manny gave me some flowers, chocolates and an 'I love you' card, awww he's so awesome! And also a bag full of coloring stuff woohoo!
We stayed on the first floor to get ready for Six Flags in the morning. We planned to stay till Saturday evening. Manny called and reserved our rooms at the Baymont Hotel, two rooms, one for us and one for Grammy and my siblings it had 2 queen beds. I was tired and sore from earlier, but I needed to make sure that my siblings had their stuff packed in their suitcases. After I was done I just wanted to take a bath. I just needed to be immersed in water. Grammy gave me a bag full of stuff for my bath and I went upstairs to our bathroom.
I turned on the water and added fresh aloe Vera gel, Epsom salt, apple cider vinegar, baking soda and a few drops of lavender essential oil like Grammy said to do. Turned on 4 Page Letter by Aaliyah in my radio putting it on repeat, lit a few candles and turned off the lights. I got in and turned on the bubble jets. It was sooo relaxing, thanks Grammy for telling me to do this. I was in there thinking about what to do about Manny... I need to know what he wants or needs me to do for him. I don't want to be in pain like this again. And the only thing I can think about is if I keep him happy, then maybe he won't do this to me again. I didn't even know that I had dozed off in the tub..
After talking to Grammy a bit and making sure that her brothers were sleep. I make my way upstairs to our room and Keya isn't in bed. I hear some music coming from the bathroom. And she's knocked out in the tub, I go back into the room and lock the door. Taking off my clothes, going back to her, just looking at her in the water got me hard as a rock! I get in with her sliding in between her legs, wrapping them around my waist, putting my arms around her waist and back cradling her neck. I start kissing her and she wakes up startled her arms waving around, splashing water everywhere. "AAAAAHHH!" her eyes wide, breathing hard, her beautiful wet chest rising and falling rapidly. "Babe it's me! Calm down.." I say trying to calm her, rubbing her back. I see the goosebumps forming on her dark skin, I'm filled with lust for her..
"Manny..!?" what the.. when did he get in here with me? He scared the shit outta my just now! He starts sucking on my neck and I can feel him in between my legs.. I start to panic, Oh no not again! I was just beginning to not hurt anymore. "Can.. can we please talk first?" she looked at me with pleading eyes. I stopped sucking on her. What? Talk? I sighed heavily, "Yes Mami, what's on your mind?" She timidly looks at me, "What.. what do you need me to do for you, so that you don't.. hurt me like this again?!" her voice breaks at the end and tears start rolling down her chubby, high cheekbones onto her wet chest. I sigh, I'm always making her cry, what the fuck is wrong with me smdh!?
I take a few deep breaths, it helps calm me down. I turn her so she's sitting her on my lap in the tub. I turn off her radio and pull her closer to me. She was sobbing quietly and I take a towel and dry her tears, she is so hurt and it's my fault. "I don't like being pushed away or being rejected babe, I can't stand it!" I tell her honestly. She looks shocked at first then with understanding so I continue, "I'll give you anything and everything in this world as long as you are loyal and obedient to me unconditionally." She smiles and nods, "I will do the same for you and I want you to be loyal to me as well Manny. I don't have any problem doing what you want me to do, but I have to know what it is THAT you want me to do." She cupped my face in her little hands and gave me such a beautiful, loving smile. I felt my heart jump and felt guilty for punishing her the way I did. The Father blessed with this angel on earth and I need to start appreciating her and doing right by her.
So I washed her body as I started telling her things that I'd like for her to do and not do, say and not say, go and not go, etc. We spent a good hour or so discussing our wants and needs in the tub before she couldn't keep her eyes open anymore. I turned off the jets, pulled the drain and got out the tub, wrapping her in a bath sheet. I gently dried her hair and face, her eyes fluttering sleepily while carrying her to our bed. I removed the towel and put the comforter around us, wrapped my arms around her and went to sleep smelling her lavender scented hair.. Thank you Father for My Keya.