I was staring at his emotionless eyes. Still unpredictable and hideously gorgeous. A grin formed my lips, not minding the wild crowd under this floor we are on.
"Is your service still available?" I was searching some kind of emotion in his eyes, but found nothing but this Icy stares he usually had.
"Always..." Hindi ko maiwasan ang pagngisi sa bawat pag-uusap namin. Kahit na sa loob loob ko, I can feel something that want me to just walked away from him.
"How much it cost now to bed you?" I can feel a sudden pinch on my heart because of that question which caught me off guard.
How much it cost huh? Funny.
"I want a new plane, private plane." I don't need his money, or any luxurious thing...but because I'm fucking hurt---he has to deal with it.
His jaw clenched before holding my wrist. Mabilis niya akong nahila palabas ng bar na 'yon at tinulak sa black mustang na pag-aari niya.
I don't want to complain, so I let him bring me wherever he want...like I am really a fucking stripper.
Isinandal ko ang sarili sa backrest at tinukod ang kamay sa ulo ko. I feel so dizzy, hindi ko maitatanggi na marami na ang nainom ko kanina, bago pa man kami magkita. I don't know how we met meet each earlier cause I'm with my cousins, ang alam ko nalang we're staring at each other and he asked me if my service is still available.
Tumigil kami sa harap ng malaking bahay, his house---of course. A private house that I knew, the same house we've done such things before.
"Let's go." Mabilis niya akong nahila palabas, hanggang sa makapasok kami sa bahay niya. It was dimmed, and he didn't bother to open his lights. Kinaladkad na niya ako paakyat at mabilis na tinulak papasok ng kwarto niya.
His scent lingers inside my nose. Kasabay ng pagsara niya ng pinto ay ang pagsakop niya sa mga labi ko. Mapusok niya akong hinalikan habang pinaglalakbay ang kaniyang mga kamay sa loob ng suot ko.
A sudden groan escape my lips when he squeezes my breast.
After years, muli ko nanamang nalasahan ang mga labi niya. Muli ko nanamang naramdaman ang init ng mga hawak niya. His tongue snake inside my mouth, tasting every bit of me.
I can even taste the liquors he drunk a while ago and I bet he could also taste mine.
"Ahh!" I moan when I felt his finger touch my fold. Hindi ko napaghandaan iyon, hindi ko namalayang nahubad na niya ang saplot ko sa ibaba.
"You're wet, so ready for me huh." He whispers on my ears and nibbled my earlobe. Napakapit ako sa balikat niya ng maramdaman ang unti-unting pagpasok ng daliri niya sa kaselanan ko. He inserted two of his fingers and started to push it in and out.
"Uhmm..." I moaned when his lips trailed down on my breast. He successfuly unhooked my bra and let it fall before he suckled on my mound.
I am always craving for this feiry encounter, the sensation I've missed for years. I didn't know I would still have a chance to experience all of these again in unexpected time.
I was so drowned of what he was to me, the last thing I know we are both naked when he pushed me off the bed. Muli akong bumangon at pinanood siyang isubo ang daliri niyang galing palamang sa loob ko.
My body fired up with that scene as he lowered down his face to capture my lips again for a feiry kisses. I could even taste my own self through his tongue. I propped my both hands beside me to support myself while he's still standing and bended infront of me, and in between my thighs.
He caress my leg of on my abdomen...my hand mimicked his movement, I've touched his abs up to his chest and wrap it on his nape to kiss in deeper.
Muli kong ibinalik ang kamay sa ibabang bahagi ng katawan niya until I reached for his bud. My hand covered it's length as I started to move my hand up and down.
"A-ahh fuck!" He cursed as his hand gripped on my hair. Ngumisi ako at dala narin siguro ng tama ng alak, I dipped down my head and stick out my tongue to lick his tip. Mas lalong humigpit ang pagkakakapit niya sa buhok ko at mas diniin ako sa kaniya.
Naramdaman ko ang paninigas ng katawan niya ng magsimula kong isubo iyon, reaching my throat with his length, carefully.
"F-fuck! That's good babe..." He guided my head and I do the honor. I move my head up and down, pleasuring him...mas lalo akong ginanahan ng marinig ang pag daing niya.
When I felt his body tensed mabilis niya akong tinulak pahiga...kinawit niya ang kamay sa binti ko at hinila ako para ayusin ang posisyon. He kneeled in front of me, spreading my legs widely and right before I could react, he dipped his head down and circled his tongue on my sensitive bud. Mas lalo akong binaliw ng mapaglaro niyang mga dila, I don't know what to do anymore. Humigpit ang kapit ko sa sheet, he hardened his tongue and penetrate my entrance. The way his tongue swirled, makes me crazy.
His hand gripped on my waist to keep me at place, still playing with my cl*t.
"D-dean..." I moaned his name when I felt my body tensed, inabot ko ang kamay niya at mariin iyong hinawakan. I arched my body and tried to narrow my legs when he stopped me.
Halos manghina ako when I felt my first release. He kneeled in front of me as he wrap my legs around his body. Muli niya akong hinalikan, from my jaw line, on my neck and on the valley of my shoulder.
Hinanap ng mga kamay ko ang buhok niya at mariing isinabunot iyon doon ng maramdaman ko ang ginagawa niya. He's teasing my entrance, stroking his hardness on it couple of times before he plunged its tip.
I winced on the sudden pain I felt. Tila napigilan ko ang paghinga at nanigas ang katawan ko. My eyes widened, natulala iyon sa kisame and he noticed it that's why he raised his head a little to see my reaction.
"What?"
"W-wait...please..." He stopped from pushing himself, confused.
"Why?"
"M-masakit..."
"You're not a virgin, Saffara ano bang inaarte mo?" Kumunot ang noo ko sa naging tanong niya. I pulled him for his length to finally plunged inside me. And I screamed in pain.
Tuloy tuloy na bumuhos ang luha ko, I bit my bottom lips to stop myself from crying! Cause he's right! Hindi na ako virgin! Pero masakit okay? Masakit kasi matagal na akong hindi nakikipag-sex!
"You okay now?" Noon ko lang napansin na natigilan pala siya kaya tumango tango na ako.
"Go on," He slowly lowered his face and claimed my lips again before moving above me.
Mabagal ang bawat pag-ulos niya ngunit mariin iyon kaya ramdam na ramdam ko.
I gripped on his hair and kisses hin with the same intensity. Ang kirot kanina'y unti-unting napalitan ng kakaibang pakiramdam. A pleasure and something that was filling me.
"Oh G-god F-faster Dean..."
"Gladly, babe." He reached for my hands and pinned it above the bed before he moved faster.
I can hear the sounds of our body, the bed and our breathing but who cares, we're chasing for something, we're reaching something and all I can do now is to met his thrust.
"Ahhh! Shit! Faster Dean ahhh!"
"Ah tangina! you're still tight Saff." He cursed on my ears as he thrusted deeply.
I bit the bottom of my lips when he let go of my hand and hold my thighs tightly. Ramdam ko ang pagpilipit ng tiyan ko, and right before my body tensed I gripped on the pillow and bed sheet before letting a loud and long moan.
Hinihingal kong binagsak ang sarili sa sa kama at hinayaan siyang palayain ang sarili.
"Ugh! I'm coming Saff."
His thrust becomes deep and slow, until I felt his orgasm inside me. Ilang beses pa siyang gumalaw bago binagsak ang sarili sa tabi ko.
That was all I can remember before, sleepiness eaten me.
Nagising ako ng sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam, umiikot ang paningin ko at parang pinokpok ng maso ang ulo. Mabilis akong bumangon only to find out myself naked. That's when memories of last night flooded my head.
God! Did we just---
Hindi ko natuloy ang pag-iisip ng makumpirma ko iyon dahil sa lalaking tulog na tulog na nakadapa sa tabi ko.
I groaned because of the sudden realization. What the fuck Saff?!
Kahit parang binugbog ang katawan ko'y nagawa ko paring pulutin isa isa ang mga damit ko at nagbihis narin doon mismo.
I was about to leave when I heard his morning voice which makes my body fired up.
Tangina Saff! Kontrolin mo yan!
"Where are you going?" Hinarap ko siya na parang wala lang sakin ang nangyari kagabi. Wala nanaman akong mabakas na kahit anong emosyon sa mukha niya. Para siyang yelo na tinubuan ng katawan.
"I'm going home, tapos na serbisyo ko sa'yo Mr. Sylvester, I will just wait for your payment."
Muli nanaman sana akong lalabas ng walang saplot niya akong nilapitan at pinigilan na kinaawang ng labi ko.
His length was so alive right now! Nakasaludo pa sa akin. Gosh! Yung mata ko! Pang madilim lang ito.
"Sa itaas na ulo ang tingin Saff, don't start."
I cleared my throat and slowly look up at him.
"W-what d-do you want? I-isang gabi lang ang usap n-natin Dean Sylvester."
"Yeah, so?"
"Uuwi na ako."
"Did I told you to leave already?" Napalunok ako dahil hindi na ako komportable na titigan ang gwapo niyang mukha.
"Ano pa bang kailangan mo sa'kin?"
"I still want your service, exclusively."
"Don't you have a girlfriend? Bakit hindi nalang 'yung syota mo ang gabi-gabihin mo. Sigurado namang exclusive siya diba?"
Nakipagtagisan ako ng titig sa kaniya bago ngunit hindi ako nanalo...kelan ba ako nanalo sa kaniya?
"She's not here, so I am contracting you. Just one month of yoyr service. I'll pay the cost."
He's going to use me as a rebound in bed? How pathetic.
"Sorry pero hindi ko kayang talagan ang mga may sabit na. Ayoko mag-mukhang third party." Mabilis kong inalis ang pagkakahawak niya sa
Braso ko at akmang pipigitin na sana ang door knob ng pigilan niya ako ulit.
"It was just a dirty little secret between us Saffara. If you accept my offer, I'll give you our house in Vigan, as one of the payment."
Para akong na-yelo na unti-unting napaharap sa kaniya. Ang emosyon ko kanina ay unti-unting nawala tulad sa kaniya. I stares at him blankly as my hand fisted. I clenced my teeth and pursed my lips with my chest tightened.
"Sige, pumapayag na ako." He knows that, that house is my weakness.
Dahil ang bahay na 'yon, ang nag-iisang bagay na naiiwang masasabi kong pag-aari ko na may kinalaman sa kaniya. The house I value most, because that is where we build memories, we made love and made it blooms like a flower on our favorite garden.
Doon ko unang nalaman na mahal ko na siya...doon nangyari ang lahat...doon rin ako umiyak...ng sobra pa sa sobra.
That's how I remembered who he is for me, before. He's not just a so-called-customer.
Dean is my ex-boyfriend. My first love and my first heart break.
And now he's treating me like someone he knew before.
Like we never had a relationship.
Like he never loved me.
Like he never hurt me.
Like he never broke me.