Jungkook enjoyed the warmth of Tae's chest, his calm voice, his arms and how they held him, tight and supporting. For once he wished he was smaller, to fit better into his arms.
He was so thankful that Taehyung gave him a chance to explain, to have said everything that was going on in his mind and for his brother, his friend, his .. his Taehyung, and that he didn't push him away.
He hugged him even tighter. His tears were leaving a slight burning trail when they slid down his cheeks.
He was so overwhelmed and didn't know what to do. Taehyung instead seemed to know exactly what he was doing. He calmly breathed in and out, patted Jungkooks shoulders and back.
For a few minutes the guys didn't move and there were no noises except Tae's calm breathing and Jungkook's quiet sobs. Taehyung carefully went backwards to let go of the younger. He dried the others tears with a tip of his pullover's sleeve.
"Okay?"
Jungkook nodded.
"I am a little disappointed in you right now. Yes. And a little angry too. But I won't push you away."
"Thank you."
"And the last thing, I wanted to ask you.."
Jungkook listened closely, "to get this clear once and for all. What are we? Because if something like this happens again, we need to think about an answer. And where we stand."
"I'm sorry that I said no earlier. I was scared. I didn't know what was going to happen and I was sure this way would be the quickest and easiest."
Tae nodded.
"What do you want to be?"
"Y-your boyfriend?", Jungkook gulped and looked down.
Taehyung smiled silently.
"I'd like that", he said.
Jungkook sighed in relief.
"But, we still need to figure out, if we will tell the members or not", Taehyung reminded.
"I- that's a lot of pressure, don't you think?"
"So you don't want them to know?"
Jungkook nibbled on his bottom lip. He knew that Tae wanted to share that information.
"We can tell Jimin."
The older agreed.
"Let's just ignore the fact that I'm still mad at you. Do you want to stay the night? Just as long for you to slip into your own room before the rest if the members wake up?"
Jungkook nodded.
They walked over to Taehyung's bed and sank into his mattress. The older quickly pulled the younger onto his chest.
Not to forget his arms which were slung around Jungkooks tiny waist and back so perfectly. Not too much pressure added of course, but enough for Jungkook to feel held. He still felt bad about everything that happened but was even more relieved that Taehyung was still so kind to him. He wanted for him to never let him go.
He really had to make it up to Taehyung somehow.
He breathed in and breathed out. It felt as if a giant knot had loosened inside his chest.
Tae's hand slowly started stroking his hair until Jungkook closed his eyes and fell asleep.
"Jungkook. Jungkookie."
Jungkook was soundly asleep.
"Jungkookah."
Tae blew some air onto the maknae's head but he didn't move.
He whistled. No reaction.
His hands patted his back and poked his shoulders. No reaction.
"Jungkook it's already five, you need to switch rooms."
Nothing.
Tae turned them around, so he was on top. He sat up and poked Jungkook's cheek.
"Wake up."
Taehyung sighed after he got no response.
He wasn't really that strong but they needed to hurry, so he just grabbed the younger under his knees and back to carry him to his own room. Jungkook's head fell onto Taehyung's shoulder which made him smile. He walked to the room with Jungkook in his arms and tried to oped the door as silent as possible.
It made some creaking noises and Taehyung prayed that no one woke up from that.
Of course a door at the end of the hall opened.
Jimin's head stuck outside.
"What are you doing?", he sleepily asked.
"Are you two okay?"
Tae nodded.
"Wait let me help you", he said and widened Jungkook's door, so Taehyung wouldn't struggle to walk through.
Jimin took the blanket from the bed and waited until Tae had laid the maknae into his bed to cover him with it.
"A good thing, he doesn't wake up from anything", Jimin said.
"So what's going on with you guys?"
Should he tell him now? Taehyung hesitated.
Wasn't that something to do with Jungkook together?
"We're dating."
Jimin rolled his eyes. "Duh. But what happened last night? Jungkook came into my room, his eyes empty, his mood down.."
"We might have had a little... disagreement with Namjoon hyung."
They simply sat down on Jungkook's bed, next to his body.
Taehyung then started talking.
He told him everything (obviously) and all Jimin did was listening and waiting until he was done.
He nodded in between and sometimes agreed and disagreed with Tae but he never interrupted.
"You know", Jimin said after a while, "I think the both of you have to get used to this. It's new, for the both of you and he apparently deals differently with it than you."
"I was just so disappointed and mad and sad at the same time, when he let me sit there alone with Namjoon, he made it my job to explain everything and take the blame."
"I don't think he knew that hyung was going to blame you."
Taehyung nodded.
"So what should I do? Should I act as if nothing happened? Should I be mad? I don't want to be mad at him."
Jimin shrugged his shoulders "then don't be", he said.
"But I thought we were a team you know? I thought we'd do this together!"
"Taehyung, you have to decide."
'I don't have to do anything' Tae wanted to say back but he didn't want to be so childish. He was 21 after all.
The young man looked down at the maknae, his head snuggling onto Taehyung's thigh.
He sighed and brushed a strand of hair out of his eyes.
"I'll lay down again for a few minutes", Jimin interrupted and Taehyung agreed and left the room with him.
A last look at Jungkook's face before he closed the door and sneaked back into his own room.
Now that he stood in his room he suddenly felt so... lonely?
He didn't feel like sleeping at all.
Taehyung decided to just get dressed. It had no use to stand around, he wouldn't get tired anyway.
But maybe he could already make some breakfast for the other members.
To get the tension to calm down? Between Namjoon and him?
—
Breakfast was prepared and tasted good. Tae had even tasted a little of the sauce to be sure.
As the rest of the members slowly entered the kitchen, the leader walked up to him and said "Taehyung, I'm sorry."
Taehyung was confused. What would he be sorry for?
"I was wrong. I shouldn't have blamed everything on you without even listening what you had to say. I still think you shouldn't have left without your bodyguards, but I was too rough on you and as a leader, I'm supposed to know when to stop."
He put his hand on Taehyung's shoulder.
"Can you forgive me?"
The younger nodded. Namjoon seemed to have a lot of mood swings recently. It almost looked as if he was arguing with himself.
"Are you okay?", he asked.
"Me? Yes I'm fine, thank you. And you?", he asked back, a grin on his face.
Taehyung grinned too. "Me too."
"Good, now let's go and eat that delicious food you cooked for us. Thank you for that by the way."
They had breakfast together but soon all of them got separated, Jungkook to finally finish his solo song, Taehyung to have vocal lessons, Jimin and Namjoon to have dance lessons and Jhope and Yoongi rap lessons.
It continued like that for weeks, of course the groups switched and changed so almost everyone has had some lessons with everyone.
Everyone except Jungkook and Taehyung. The times that they saw each other was in the hallway of the bighit building , when they just came back from whatever lesson or practice they had, or maybe in the apartment at night.
Very barely even in their studio but only to cross ways and brush against each others fingers for a quick second.
The only time that they actually exchanged some words, was at home, at night. Of course just if the other hadn't fallen asleep yet.
Yes, their schedule was very packed.
And Jungkook's birthday was coming up too in a few days. Which meant another Vlive in between all that chaos and trying not to forget to buy a cake on Taehyung's behalf.
They were now standing in a big room to practice the group choreography for the song Mic drop.
Of course Tae knew it would get the focus on them but he just had to get out of there, preferably with Jungkook by his side.
A short break made that possible.
The members were panting, some laying on the floor, some others joining them.
Perfect, Tae thought.
He walked up to the maknae and pulled his wrist to make him follow him.
Jungkook did without asking or arguing.
"What's up?", he asked as soon as they were alone.
Taehyung went into a hug without saying anything.
Jungkook just held him like that until he separated them after a little while and asked "are you okay?"
Taehyung nodded as a response and gulped.
"I miss you."
"I miss you too. But we have so much to do. We should go back before someone questions why we left."
"We'll say we had an important talk."
Jungkook raised an eyebrow and smirked.
"I don't know, okay? But I don't want to go back now. I want to stay here. With you. Alone", Tae pouted.
Jungkook sighed. "Come here." He pulled the older into a big hug again and Taehyung immediately slung his arms around Jungkook's body.
But that wasn't all he was thinking about.
Not knowing if Jungkook would approve he carefully slipped his hands underneath Jungkook's shirt to feel his skin tingle on his fingertips.
"Tae I'm sweaty", Jungkook breathed.
"So what, me too", he replied.
"Unless you don't like it, then I'll stop", Tae said and paused his hands.
"No, don't."
Tae nodded and let his hands travel around Jungkook's body before he got impatient and
pulled his shirt up.
Damn those abs.
He placed tiny kisses on them, which caused Jungkook to fasten his breathing.
What was he planning on doing? Did he want to-
Tae let his hands slide around Jungkook's butt as he kissed his belly button.
Sometimes his hands found other places to stroke, for example the inner of Jungkook's thigh.
"You have to at least show me somehow if you don't want this. I'm not gonna do anything if you don't like it."
Jungkook smiled. His hands around Tae's nape, pulling him closer to connect their lips.
It wasn't rough or quick, neither careless.
This kiss was so soft and slow, Jungkook felt himself melting in Taehyung's arms.
Who knew he'd get someone so good?
"Let's not rush", he said and gave a genuine smile away.
Tae nodded. It sounded like a wise idea.
If they would have done something now, it was definitely more likely for them to be caught.
Also... they wouldn't have much time now and to hurry into those kinds of things didn't seem like the smartest thing to do.
"You're just great, do you know that?", Tae mumbled, his pupils dilated, not realizing he was saying it out aloud.
"Thank you?", Jungkook chuckled and caught a flush of red sneak on Taehyung's cheeks.
They intervened their hands and Jungkook said "let's go back."
At first he thought they were going to walk in whilst holding hands, but Taehyung let go, a second before.
The maknae immediately missed the feeling of Taehyung's fingers slung around his.