Is this the end?
Am I really going to die?...
Life... my life is so short...
A few of the thousands of thought that crossed my mind while plenty of water fills up my lungs. I sadly closed my eyes when the gravity continued to pull me down towards the darkest pit of the lake. I regret, doing nothing for myself... for I don't have a single goal other than for the welfare of my siblings.
Why did I end this way?...
After celebrating my youngest sister's wedding, I went to my favorite spot, the steel bridge where the lake reflects the beautiful moon and the tiny silver stars of the Orion constellation. Every time I went here, I heard a song filled with loneliness and sadness, a cry of a man being carried by the northern wind. Strangely, his voice of longing eases my worries.
His songs are my medicine when I want to give up or have dreadful thoughts to leave the little ones behind.
All I did in my life was to take care of my siblings for the reason that we are abandoned by our bulls##t parents who knows where. I drop out of school and work day and night to sustain our daily needs and for them to continue studying. At such a young age, I act as their father and a parent. After years, they've successfully graduated and become professionals, have family and kids. At first, it was the twin Brylle and Zylle who'd settle down 2 years ago. Now, it was our youngest, Ailyn.
I was contented, I have done my part as their Eldest brother. But then I realized I never done anything for myself, I failed to find my own goal nor to meet love. Regrets keep eating my soul, I don't want to die... Not yet...
Foolish self! Why did you drunk bottles of alcohol? Went to this beautiful lake, and fall headfirst while vomiting. Do you know you can't swim? I want to punch myself 2 hours ago for drinking.
Bubbles of air left my nose as I slowly sink to the bottom. It hurts, I can't breathe. It's dark and cold. I don't want to die... a thought that repeated on my mind. I was about to change my life, find love and have a family of my own, but misfortune happened. If there's a second chance, I vowed to all the god of the universe that I, Rheymart Magsaysay will put myself first, live, and do things I want!
I desperately struggle to go to the surface but it's too late. My convention is not strong enough... I failed. When I lost my consciousness, weirdly the last thing I saw was the bright moon and the strange light that shone over me. And for the last time, I heard his saddest voice again, saying,
"Please... Don't die this time,..."
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When I wake up, I've possessed the body of a pretty young man. His thin figure, pale skin, distinct pink hair, and alluring red eyes are familiar to me. Isn't this Lahn Vanden? An omega in Ailyn's manhwa who've met a tragic end? Why was I transmigrated in 'Alpha's Love Affair?'
Oh God, who transmigrated me, I sincerely give my thanks. However, can I complain? Can you please transfer me to the world of swords and magic? Not this 'ABO' where I can be impregnated! @sghrghjkk I'm straight!