"Miss! Just one more push!"
My mother, who laboured, who let me out of this world, cried in happiness holding my tiny body. She held me dearly and gently, warm and kind.
"Look it's a boy Zedrick" My mom tells to father.
"I'm so happy" He smiled to me" His name will be Kie"my mother smiled to that name.
After years later I'm five years old, attending in a kindergarten, a friend of mine I'm playing with is sweet to me, we play everytime we met never knowing our names, we both sitting on a bench on this sunny weather, as kids who eat ice cream from the heat.
"Hey Kie your eyes are pretty" He smiled eating his ice cream.
"You too"licking my ice cream cheerfully.
" Look an ice cream"he leaned licking the sides of my lips, I flushed but hid it to myself, my heart on a heartbeat, he licked his lips, I widened my eyes and averted to his gaze.
"I'll be going" I hurriedly leaped from the bench"t-thank you for the ice cream "I stuttered running towards the direction of my house near to the shade we were on, my heart is unsteady, an emotion that I've never had, an unstoppable feeling, beating faster, remembering what he did. I stopped on a corner and sit, grabbing my chest tight, as if my ears are about to explode from the beat.
I came home, my mother giving me a hug, father opening the door, we ate together as a family, yet something was off father and mother didn't spoke a word, I was worried so I slept after. Upon hearing voices I woke up and listened, leaning my ear to door, it seems that my parents are in down stairs.
"Serah"
"H-honey? "
"Haaaaaa"he exhaled deeply, he looks at my mother seriously, his hands in prayer, both of them rather nervous "I'm sorry I can't accept that child" She stood as if in pity of her son, angry and mad.
"Why?! He's your child!"
He quickly put on his bag ready and packed, mom tried to stop him, I hid myself in question "does father hate me?, why is he leaving? Is there something wrong with me?" Father pushed her to stumble on the floor.
She cried in tears, trying again to halt father to move. He bluntly hit her hard to fall.
"He's not my son" He stared at her with a scowl, that was visible his hatred, his loathed his son all these years, I didn't realize at all.
I heard all of it, I cried inside my room trying to hold all my sadness.
Dawn has come, my mother woke me up, only the two of us eating, I didn't question her, because it would hurt her more than much.
Few days later she held my face preventing her tears to all.
"Mommy will work okay? So be a good boy in school hmmmm?" Kissing my forehead.
I knew what those meant, father will not come home, father doesn't love us, father left us and I that put into my mind, I will never hope for him.
He glances at me, wondering what was I spacing about, he holds my hand in worry, my heart again beats loud ,colliding with the ache that surrounds it, will be able to tell him my name?
"Are you okay? " He asks, I smiled to hide my truth, I smiled to let him know I'm happy, I want this smile to be imprinted to him.
"I'm fine"I said.
" Okay mom! Come take a picture of us!"
His mom had emerald hair, her aura seems calming, she approached us with a camera in her hand.
"Son Why not kiss him? " Coughs*
He widened his eyes in that surprising question, he flushed yet he holds my hand looking the other way pouting.
Click*
We played again to a different place, a playground, the pain I hid was replaced with happiness but will it last longer? I picked up a stick of wood and wrote my name on ground.
I left without being noticed, he saw my name on the ground having a relieved face.
" Kie"
I walked towards my house, I entered, I smelled a cooked food on the table, it was fresh, I called my mom yet she didn't answer, silence was there, I came to her and father's room, seeing her corpse hanging in a rope around her neck.
"M-mom?" I stuttered.
It hurts, like I'm ripped apart inside out, it was despair I felt in this life, why did she have to do that? Why do they both want to leave me? Am I that rubbish to be treated like a trash? Was all the love I accepted fake?
If so I wanna be soulless and emotionless.
And so grandfather and grandmother took me in their abode. They made my mother a funeral, in the last day I couldn't help but cry of my mother's warmth being taken away by death.
"Kie!" He shouted loud but to his call nobody answered.
Where is he? Did their family go to a trip? Well I guess school is nearly ending, should I prepare a welcome gift for Kie? Will my name would suffice? Oh how about a teddy bear! He would love it won't he?
Day - 2
"Kie!" He also shouted his name after,his luck has no effect at all the second time passed. He started at the ground seemingly sad.
Day - 3
"Uhmmm Kie! It's me your friend!"
Haha a friend who hadn't told his friends his own name, how ridiculous. When will he come back? It's lonely...
Day - 4
"Should I leave this or not? "
Wait someone might steal it, but if he comes back this day he will see this.
The door creaked, he looked up to this old man coming to open the gate, he took a step back.
"Who are you child?" Ask this old man.
He bowed, showing the teddy bear in his hand, nervous and shaking.
"I- I'm Kie's friend p-please give this gift of mine to him if you know him" He stuttered, it was a success, the old man took the teddy bear, a bundle of happiness through that boy's smile showed " Thank you! I really appreciate it"he ran off fast,the old man smiled.
"I'll give this to my grandchild" He sighed "I hope this will give some warmth to Kie"
Day - 5
"Kie! Really I want to play! "He reached out his voice, his mom seeing him with groceries on her hand.
" Dear? What are you doing? "She asks coming closer to her son.
" It's Kie" She raised her brows realizing something.
"Dear they might be away from here on a vacation or so" Taking the hand of her son almost crying.
"But I miss him" He mumbled.
She sighed "Look Dear it isn't always attention that will come to you when you expect it, I know you pay attention to your friend yet all things have a time for that, he must be solving things on his own, better leave him be until then you two can meet again"
He pleads to her mother with baby dog eyes, sniffling "Then When"
Seriously this child is like his father,oh well I kinda low key ships them both,
But let's take an action to give this boy of mine advice she thought.
"Dear let's just go for dinner the sun is setting soon, plus waiting for your friend is your only option in the least, listen you a child, not an adult okay? "she pats her son's head, he nodded.