IT'S SAY'S THAT IN HIGH SCHOOL IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL TIME FOR A PERSON ...
THE TIME WHERE YOU CAN FIND THE LITTLE THING'S THAT YOU LIKE, THE TIME WHERE YOU MAKE FRIENDS AND NICE MEMORIES WITH THEM, BUT THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN ALL THE TIME.
OR IS JUST ME ?....
MY WHOLE LIFE I WAS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE SOCIETY, IN LIFE EVERYWHERE THERE IS A TOP AND A BOTTOM. IN SCHOOL, AT WORK AND SO ON...
BUT MY WHOLE LIFE I WAS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE BOTTOM.
MY PARENTS DIED WHEN I WAS LITTLE, SO I WAS RAISED BY MY DAD STEPBROTHER AND HIS WIFE, AT THAT MOMENT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT MY LIFE WAS GOING TO BE HELL FROM THAT POINT ON
MY UNCLE WAS A DELICVENT AND A GOOD FOR NOTHING LIKE HIS WIFE WHO WAS MAYBE WORSE, AND BECAUSE OF THAT, HE HATED MY DAD WHO WAS A NICE MAN, WHIT A BRIGHT FUTURE AND WAS PRISED BY PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE, BUT THE REAL QUESTION COME'S NOW.
WHY DID HE TAKE ME?
THE ANSWER IS SIMPLE, TO TAKE ALL THE MONEY FROM MY PARENTS AND TO TAKE HIS FRUSTRATION ON ME. UNTIL I WAS 15 YEARS OLD HE BEAT ME AND DID HORRIBLE THINGS LIKE MAKE ME STARVE, HUMILIATE ME AND SO MANY MORE.
I ALWAYS STAYED IN A CORNER TRYING NOT TO GET INVOLVED IN HIS FIGHT'S WHIT HIS WIFE BUT SOMETIMES I ENDED UP GETTING INVOLVED JUST BECAUSE I EXISTED IN THAT HOUSE.
THEY QUITE OFTEN RELEASED THEIR STRESS ON ME EVERY TIME THEY HAD THE CHANCE.
WHEN I BECAME 15, HE FORCED ME TO WORK, HE SAID "IN THIS HOUSE EVERYONE NEEDS TO MAKE MONEY IF WE WANT TO HAVE A BREAD ON THE TABLE " BUT THAT WAS A BIG FAT LIE.
WITH ALL THE MONEY I WAS MAKING HE WAS TAKING AND BUYING DRUGS, ALCOHOL AND CIGARETTES. SO I WAS OFTEN CONSTRAINED TO SLEEP WHITEOUT TO EAT. NOT TO SAY ABOUT THE OTHER NORMAL THINGS A CHILD HAS BECAUSE I NEVER HAD THEM.
THE ONLY TIME I WAS ENABLE TO REST WAS AT NIGHT WHEN EVERYONE WAS ASLEEP. STAYING ON MY PHONE, LISTENING TO MUSIC. I DIDN'T WANT TO SLEEP SO THAT THE NIGHT DIDN'T END.
I WANTED TO STAY LIKE THAT FOREVER, THAT'S WHY I NEVER HAD ENOUGH SLEEP AND SOMETIMES JUST FELL ASLEEP WHITOAT REALIZING AT SCHOOL.
BUT THE SCHOOL WASN'T ANY BETTER EITHER , I WAS BULLIED EVERY DAY BECAUSE OF MY PERSONALITY AND SKINNY LOOK.
OFTEN I WAS HEARING THINGS LIKE:
-AHHH, THAT GUY ...
-WHY IS HE EVEN COMING TO SCHOOL?
-I DON'T KNOW, EVERYONE IS BULLYING HIM SO WHY?
-AHH, HE KINDA SMELL BAD...
IN THE CLASS WAS THE MOST QUIET TIME BUT THAT DIDN'T LAST.
-HEY, LOOK WHO IS HERE!
-WHAT'S UPP MAN, WHAT TOOK YOU SOO LONG, ARE YOU TRYING TO AVOID US ?.....
-AHH, NO NO. IT'S NOTHING LIKE THAT, I AM SORRY...
-HMMM? ANYWAY, TODAY YOU SMELL WORSE THAN USUAL. HOW ABOUT YOU TAKE BATH?
-HAA, A BATH...?
-HEY, COME WHIT THE WATER!
SOME GUY WAS COMING WHIT A BUCKET, IT WAS THE WATER THE CLEANING LADY HAD USED TO CLEAN THE BATHROOMS.
-HERE, TAKE THIS AND CLEAN YOURSELF.
I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING, I WAS JUST DISGUSTED LOOKING AT THE WATER
-WHAT'S THE MATTER? WE EVEN BROUGHT YOU, WATER MAN.
-EHH, I...I CANT ...
- WHAT? I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU
-I CANT USE THIS...
-OH MY GOD ... GUYS HE CAN DO IT ALONE, HOW ABOUT WE HELP HIM?
-SURE, WE ARE FRIENDS AFTER ALL HAHA
THEY THROW UP THE WATER ON ME WHITEOUT HESITATION.
-ISN'T IT BETTER NOW?
-IS ...
-IT'S BETTER, RIGHT ?!!
-YEA, IT'S DEFINITELY BETTER ...
-SURE? WELL, IT WAS A PLEASURE TO HELP YOU HA HA.
THAT WAS THE LIFE I HAVE, NO ONE HELPED ME AND I COULDN'T ESCAPE FROM THAT LIFE ...
I HATE EVERYONE AND I WISH THEY DIE BUT THE PEOPLE I HATE THE MOST ARE THE PEOPLE WHO SAY THAT YOU CAN DO EVERYTHING IF YOU WANT OR THE RELIGIOUS ONES.
ONCE I ASKED MY MOTHER IF GOD EXIST, AND SHE SAID "YES, IT EXIST", AND EVEN THO MY MOTHER ADMITTED THAT HE EXISTED, SHE OR MY FATHER EVER WERE RELIGIOUS. THEY NEVER PRAYED BECAUSE THEY SAID THAT IST NOT GOOD TO ASK FOR EVERYTHING OR GIVE PRISE TO SOMEONE ELSE FOR WHAT YOU DID. I TRUSTED HER MORE THAN ANYTHING, SHE WAS LIKE THE SUN.
SOO BRIGHT AND SO WARM, SOMETIMES I DREAM ABOUT HER, SEEING HER IN THE DISTANCE AND RUNNING AFTER HER. SCREAMING BUT I NEVER REACH HER,SOMETHIMES I SEE HER LOOKING AT ME AND SMILING.
THOSE DREAMS KEEP ME WARM IN THE COLD NIGHTS, SOMETHIMES I EVEN FEEL SOMEONE HUGING ME FROM THE BACK. IT FEELS SO GOOD THAT IT MAKES ME CRY.
SO WHY HE IS WATCHING ME BEING BULLIED?
WHY IS HE LETTING ME LIVE LIKE THIS?
WHY HE DOESN'T DESTROY THI DISGUSTING WORLD?
WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY,WHY,WHY,WHY,WHY,WHY...
MY MOTHER NEVER LIED TO ME SO I TRUSTED HER MORE THAN ANYTHING, SO KNOWING THAT THIS BASTARD GOD IS WATCHING ME AND IS DOING NOTHING IS MAKING ME SO ANGRY, I CURSE HIM IN MY THOUGHTS WHIT ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I HATE BUT
I HATE HIM MORE THAN ANYTHING .....
ONE DAY SOMETHING HAPPENED.
I WAS WALKING HOME FROM WORK.AND MY UNCLE WAS WAITING FOR ME.
-UNCLE...?
-DON'T STAY OUTSIDE AND COME IN BASTARD.
HE WAS NERVOUS AND AGITATED
-IS SOMETHING WRONG?
-LOOK, I WANT YOU TO TAKE THE SALARY FASTER,TOMORROW TELL YOUR BOSS TO GIVE YOU THE MONEY FASTER.
-BUT I ALREADY DID THIS LAST MONTH, HE SAID IT WAS THE LAST TIME...
HE SLAPPED MY FACE AND PUSHED ME AGAINST THE WALL
-I DONT FUCKIN CARE IF YOU NEED TO STEAL OR SELL YOURSELF, GIVE ME THE FUCKING MONEY TOMORROW. IF YOU CAN'T DO THAT, DONT FUCKING COME HOME ...
-Y...YES
-FUCKING HELL, WAS IT THAT HARD, DO I NEED TO SLAP YOU TO DO SOMETHING SO SIMPLE ?
-NO,I...I AM SORRY...
THE NEXT DAY I WAS VERY SCARED AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO GET THE MONEY BUT THAT WASN'T THE ONLY PROBLEM I HAD THAT DAY.
AFTER THE CLASS, THE BOYS WHO BULLYING ME CALLED ME.
-YOU CALLED ME ?....
-YEA! I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING SO COME HERE FASTER
-WHAT IS IT ?...
-MONEY.
-WHAT ARE YO...?
-I WANT YOU TO GIVE ME SOME MONEY, ARE YOU STUPID?
-BUT I DON'T HAVE ...
-STOP, BEFORE TELLING ME SOME STUPID LIE, ALRIGHT? SOME FRIEND OF MINE SAW THAT YOU WORK IN A DEPOSIT AND TOLD ME.
ONE OF MY NIGHTMARES, I KNEW THAT SOMETHING LIKE THIS MAY HAPPEN AT SOME POINT BUT NOW IS THE WORSE MOMENT EVER.
-NOW THAT WE CLARIFIED THAT , CAND YOU HELP ME AND GIVE ME SOME MONEY? WE ARE FRIENDS AFTER ALL
-SORRY BUT I DON'T HAVE ANY ...
-HEY HEY STOP IT, I AM NOT STUPID, DO I LOOK STUPID TO YOU ?
-NO, I NEVER SAID THAT!
-GOOD THEN , YOU CAN GIVE ME THE MONEY TOMORROW
-HOW MUCH D..DO YOU NEED ?
-HMMM, 500 FOR NOW WILL BE ENOUGH
-5OO !? I DON'T HAVE THAT MUCH MONEY!
-DONT LIE TO ME YOU BATARD! IF YOU DON'T COME WHIT THE MONEY THEN DON'T COME ANY MORE TO SCHOOL!
-PLEASE! I CAN'T DO THAT, I CANT...
-HHHH, SO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, WE DON'T CARE WHAT YOU CAN OR YOU DON'T. TODAY YOU PISSED ME OFF MORE THAN USUAL WHIT YOUR THONE MOTHERFUKER ...
THEY BEAT ME HARDER THAN USUAL BUT I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
AFTER THEY LEFT, I WOKE UP BLEEDING AND MY HEAD HURT SO BAD.
I LEFT TOO, IT WAS TOO LATE TO GO TO WORK WHEN I WOKE UP AND I DIDN'T HAVE THE MONEY, I HATED THIS WORLD SOO MUCH ...
-WHAT THE FUCK I AM GOING TO DO NOW...?
I WAS SCARED,AND WHILE I WAS WALKING SLOWLY ON THE STREET I FALLD BECAUSE OF MY BAD CONDITION ON THE ROAD WHILE I TRYED TO TRAVERSATE THE ROAD.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED FROM NOW ON BECAUSE I LIST MY CONSCIENCE
EVERYTHING WAS PITCH DARK...
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