Carried away by his thoughts, Enki realized he has changed a lot since the downfall of his homeland, which Unbearable for him to accept. Flashbacks of screams and bloodbaths often rejoin him during his sleep, plaguing nightmares, disoriented scums, he thought.
During the past millennia, He realized that war plagued the world for decades as well, way before the new world existed, way before he was born. History books told him about the miserable losses people have suffered because they joined troops.
The Gemstone of Cinnabar , brought back flashbacks that drove him to nightmares every time he closed his eyes to sleep. It is called the Nightmarish Gemstone for it curses its owner with dark thoughts to the point of suicide . Although he knew that , Enki accepted the consequences of his decisions , fought the darkness ,and lastly regained power over the Gem . yet he never dared to utter a word about this to a soul. He himself is a banquet of secrets .