Tonight had not gone in any way as I had anticipated. I simply wanted to understand the things I was feeling, the urge to open up about things that I knew could easily count as a betrayal to all the protectors, that could get him killed. When he had said that I was his mate, part of me didn't want to believe it was true. If I was with him, I would be stripped of everything that I was. Even if he was my mate, which a larger part of me had surely known all along, it was against everything I had ever been taught, to fall in love with him. But then, with his car against my back, his large muscled arms barring my sides, then his lips on mine, I simply couldn't resist.
My surprised gasp was all the invitation that he had needed to let his tongue into my mouth, meeting with my own starting a dance of passion and desire. He pulled back just enough to give a small bite on my lower lip, eliciting a moan from within me. He growled his approval, pulling me against his large chest. I didn't want to think anymore, letting my arms wrap around his neck and pulling myself as close against him as possible.
He stepped back from the car, easily pulling me with him, then reached behind me and opened a car door. I didn't even pause as he lowered us both into the back seat of the vehicle, his lips barely leaving my skin for more than an instant. I had broken a vital rule on the first day I'd met him, by applying the magic infused salve on him, and now I was breaking every other rule.
I could feel his rough hands moving up and down my body, never moving below the waist even though I could feel his rather obvious erection where we were already grinding our hips together.
A loud gasp came from me as I felt his fingers make direct contact with the skin at the hem of my shirt, and he pulled back just enough to look at me. His eyes went wide and it took me a moment to understand.
"So beautiful" he said, his voice breathy.
His hand left my side and his thumb brushed just underneath my right eye. His own eyes were glowing gold, but that didn't make my heart stop. What made me freeze was the purple glow that reflected in his eyes. My own eyes natural color visible and lit up.
"N-no..." I felt my panic rise as I tried to pull away.
He pulled me closer to him as I tried to push myself free. It was a pointless struggle without using the full force of my abilities.
"S-stop...Dante..."
He pulled back again, but still held me tight enough that I couldn't get away.
"You don't have to be afraid" he said, his voice deeper than normal, a husky tone to it.
"Dante...you seeing me like this...it means that I've lost control. It's a taboo..." I tried to say, panic making me unsteady.
"What part of it is taboo?" he asked, his glowing golden eyes looking deep, as if they could see right through me.
My breathing was becoming ragged as my desire to give into his touch began to fill me again "a-all of this."
He smiled down at me, his fangs showing with his perfect white teeth "you broke the rules to be with me?"
What he said shot through me, killing all of the good feelings I had just been feeling. He was right, I had just broken every rule simply because his touch excited a part of me that I hadn't known existed.
Tears burned at the corner of my eyes as I knew what I had to do. He had said that I was his mate, and I knew he was telling the truth. I felt it as if I were an animal in heat. But it was wrong.
"What's wrong?" he asked, his left hand brushing the tears from my eyes.
"P-please...forgive me..." I cried softly.
I moved my hands so my thumbs pressed into the sides of his temples. The power within me moved reluctantly, then finally moved through my body, flooding into his mind. I had to focus through the pain in my chest as I slowly pulled all of his memories of me from his mind. He didn't know what was happening at all, his eyes wide and empty, and I knew it would haunt my dreams for the rest of my life.
The power stopped as I felt the last of the images of me leave his mind, and he slumped on top of me, unconscious. He would wake up in a little while, not knowing why he was here or how long he had even been here for. He may have the vague image of being with someone, but he wouldn't know that it was me. Maybe he would think that he came with another wolf, a way to appease the loneliness of not knowing who his mate is. I would know the truth, but I was already preparing myself to leave this realm and never return.
I was no longer suppressing myself, and knew that I could easily move him off of me, but I still waited, taking a last moment to enjoy the contact between us. Amazingly he was still hard, and still pressing heavily against my groin. If it weren't for the sudden loss of my glamour and restraint, I would probably be feeling it directly, the thought earning a very unwelcome reaction at this point.
I forced my pulse to steady, knowing that I needed to move soon. If I stayed with him too much longer, he might wake up, from the mate pull, or maybe from just having quick recovery abilities.
I eased my hand just under his shoulder, using my unnatural strength to raise him only enough for slide out from under him. I opened the door above my head and squirmed my way out. Outside of the car, I looked back, feeling the hesitation within me, then closed the door and started walking away. I couldn't remain in such plain sight with my eyes and hair in their true color, so I tapped into more of my power. Distorting time and space, I was inside of my motel room in an instant.