It had been two weeks since my birthday and my Shay and Tana where still upset that I uploaded that picture and made them look bad for forgetting my birthday.
Which if they stopped and thought about it, they would have seen that I made them look good in front of our fans.
if they found out they would worry that we might be disbanding.
Today was going to be a good day after training for a month to perfect my singing I was going to go to a variety show, and sing my favorite song the diva dance from fifth element movie. Yeah, I know its a hard song but it was going to show off my singing abilities and help further my career. Than maybe I could get out of the dept. hole my parents keep trying to put me in put me in.
My manager has been helping me prepare for the on coming show by making sure I eat and sleep, but for the first time in my 20 years, I am excited this is something not even my family can destroy today, and they have tried many times.
My dad greeted me with another dept. note, my mom told me she maxed out her cards that I didn't even know she had, and my sister told me that she broke my high heels I was going to ware on stage. I knew that one was going to happen that's why I bought two pair exactly alike.
I am now waiting for the crew to tell me when to enter the stage, my nerves where working on overtime, and my hands where sweating too, that's when I looked in the audience and saw the large buff form of Jackson and RM his blonde hair a beacon in the sea of dark hair, my anxiety calmed down for a while. I knew that everything was going to go great I had my two favorite guys in the audience and I was going to meet some of my favorite comedians.
A crew members handed me a microphone my heart stilled this was going to be my first time on stage by myself singing, I took a deep breath and slowly let it out than took a step. The spot light hit me and followed me onto the mini stage which lit up as my foot touched the wooden Surface.
The music cued and I took a deep breath again to relax than another as it was time for me to start singing all eyes where on me it felt as if everyone was holding their breath in anticipation I closed my eyes and let out the first note of the night.
Jackson started to rub his arms as I sang I was hoping that it was a good sign. At the end of my song the crowd that was filming and that had gathered roared to life in cheers and applause. Jackson couldn't control his excitement again and dashed to the stage with a bunch of flower that he produced out of now where. His hug caught me off guard and we both almost stumbled but he caught me instead.
Everyone started to cheer louder I could feel the blush creep out onto my face so hurried out of his internal arms and I went to the dressing room.
My manager handed me an outfit blue and teal romper that was matched with a white T-shirt ,with white sparkle flats. My make up was touched up and my hair fixed into a fish tail braid for the look of innocence.
There was a sudden knock on the door it startled me, my heart started to race. my manger went and oopeed the door, it was my father and mother standing there with fake plastic smiles and a bouquet of my favorite yellow roses. My manager let them in and motioned for everyone to leave, leaving himself closing the door behind him.
Once everyone left my parents facade was erase and my mom threw the Roses onto the couch crushing the pedals. My mothers Betty White hair was fixed to perfection her light blue eyeshadow and red lipstick where her only indicators that she missed the 80'S, her white pumps made a clicking sound as she walked over to the couch she sat carefully down sofas not to wrinkle what I had to assume was another Valentino dress that she couldn't afford to pay for.
My father was right behind her in a high end suit his hair looked as if he just walked out of a salon his cold and meticulous eyes looking around the room to see if there was anything of value for him to plunder not caring that it would hurt my reputation not his if something got stolen.
Looking at the damaged flowers their parties fall off and being crushed made me sad I gave a heavy sigh than turned to them and asked "how much do you need this time?" my mothers face contorted to make her look as a clown she got up and slapped me hard enough to know I would need makeup to his a bruise that I could feel forming. She then stated "if it wasn't for the fact you are a whore no one would want you around, filthy little sluts like you are only good for being cum dumpsters."
I knew if I talked back or tried to defend myself it would be worse much worse my father would join in and he was the one that broke bones. My fear of my father wasn't something that was a figment of my imagination I truly believe he wants me dead.
Mom gave me a smirk and said "we want nothing as of today your no longer our problem. we just wanted you to know your new master is Mr. Park of I Entertainment. have fun being the whore we raised you to be. Don't bother going back to the house your shit is no longer there, Its at his home now or at your dorm. I honestly don't know or care where it is. If you try to have any contact with your sister or us your father will deal with you."
Their eyes were gleaming with malice, before they left my dad turned around and said," oh, by the way I found your money stash who knew you where capable of saving almost a million dollars in the little time you have been a Idol. Thanks for the money by the way we paid off all our depts. with it. Your such a stupid cow you could have let us be Dept. free this whole time. Your such a cheep little whore. Your bot worthy of our love or anyone else's."
My eyes prickled with unshed tears, I wanted to cry but I didn't I wouldn't give them the satisfaction of seeing my tears. So, I sucked it up and bowed to them and said, "thank you for giving me life and for making me strong. I hope you have a happy and loving life that you deserve."
They where taken aback and shocked that they looked nervous not knowing what to do or how to replied so my father punched me in the face knocking me to the floor than he started to kick me in the abdomen I felt like I was going to pass out he than spit on me and they left with out another word.
Once the door closed I curled into a ball and cried hard letting loose the hot and angry unshed tears. not because I just lost my family, but, because I finally felt free of the ever amounting responsibility of taking care of everyone. My parents just gave me a gift and I wasn't going to waste it.
My manager came in a few minutes later I tried to stop crying and he had a look of shock. My face was ruined and my eyes where swollen I had a cut lip and a bruise forming on my face and it felt like I might have cracked a rib He ran to me and hugged me not caring that I was getting make up on his white button up shirt. I flicked from the pain and the sudden act of skinship
He gave me some soothing words than looked me in the eyes and said" no matter what they do, you are stronger than them. You are a survivor and you determine if you will be happy or sad not them. Now lets fix your make up its almost time for your interview with , Yoo Jae- suk, and the rest of the cast"
The makeup crew did a perfect fast job of fixing my face hiding the still forming bruise's and the puffiness from crying I was grateful that they didn't ask questions the just kept their silence and judgements to themselves thankfully.
The interview was good I did a dance battle with Jackson, Haha and Kwanghee. Suho and I got along really well, then came the question that really was embarrassing.
Haha asked, "out of all the men in the room who would I most likely date." I turned into a tomato and than said, "it is a tie between Kwanghee and Suho, because they are both my ideal types."
The men in the room all awed at my blushing and than Yoo Jae-Suk ask "Why?" I giggled and said " Suho is funny hard working and a positive person he is also kind and cute like a teddy bear, so much so that I have to resist hugging him like one." I then shifted my gaze to Kwanghee and finished my answer, "Kwanghee he is the same he is funny hard working and a positive person and he is also kind and sweet. Though he isn't cute like a teddy bear, he has a kind of sexy charm that appeals to women he also has a vulnerable side like Soho, it makes me want to comfort him and make him fell better. I would also like to do a duet with Kwanghee my favorite episode of infinity challenge is when he did a collaboration with G-dragon and Taeyang of Big Bang, that is when I started to be a huge fan of his and make a duet with him. Plus I like men who can make me laugh sincerely."
The men just looked at me in awe once I was finished Haha broke the silence saying " you may be one of the most impressive and intuitive idols we have had on the show not only can you sing and dance but you are a deep person who really thinks about other people I wish my children will turn out just like you beautiful inside and out."
Suho and Kwanghee got up and came running to me pushing each other out of the way. They both wanted a hug but ended up not paying attention, and crashing into me with a group hug, it hurt a lot I knew I probably would have some more bruised ribs.I hugged them threw the pain anyways. Not wanting to embarrass them even further.
Kwanghee's Smith voice whispered in my ear "after shooting wait for me, I want to ask you something."
I just nodded and they finally let go after Yoo Jae- suk, Park Myeong-su, Jeong Jun-ha, and Haha pulled them off of me. They both got scolded for being unprofessional by Jae-suk like little boys.
Yang Se-hyung helped me up off the ground I was currently laying on, he used a little too much force and I ended up in his chest, I blushed than stepped away from him.
I blushed brighter and bowed to him saying "thank you Oppa." His face lit up like he won a million dollars because I used the Korean term of endearment for big brother on him.
he blushed with a wide smile, than pinched my cheeks and said, "omo, so cute" I flinched at this my face still hurt from the bruise he pretended that he didn't notice than let go of my face.
Looking down at me I was only 5'0 to his 5'5 he laughed and said, "Its nice having some one looking up to me for once" I hated people making fun of my height.
I Forced myself to blush again, it was still a little hectic around us, a staff member fixed my chair. Someone than noticed I was bleeding, he took my arm which had a sizable gash on it. I didn't realize I was hurt till he pointed at my arm, which was currently bleeding on the oak floor.
Everyone gasped in horror filming was stopped until I was patched up. Jackson and RM fretting over me like two old hens.
SoHo and Kwanghee kept apologizing, the on site medic interrupted us and said, "miss you need to go to the hospital and get stitches." I nodded and said, "for now just patch me up I will wear a sweater to hide it and we can finish filming than I will go to the hospital I don't want to be a bother to anyone here. Okay?" he gave me a doubtful look than did as I asked.
We finished filming after an hour, than all the men rushed towards me and started talking at once, asking if I was "Okay"
apparently I was getting pale, as SoHo said, the pain was getting to me and the room was spinning before me and I had black spots before my eyes. The last thing I saw and felt was, falling in a shocked Kwanghee's arms then, him picking me up bridal style with a concerned look on his face.
I was in and out of consciousness though out the car ride, as I was being held by strong arms the entire time. whom ever it was, was warm and smelled amazing, so I cuddled closer to whom ever it was not wanting them to let go. Jackson and RM where arguing in the back ground with each other, my manager asking if I was okay was on repeat.
I felt some one try and pull me away. From my comfy pillow, so I clung to it even harder herd adeep sigh, and some one than forced me away from the amazing body pillow.
Than I woke up completely a pretty Dr. Was inserting a if into my arm when I saw this I grabbed the first hand I could find others Kwanghee's he just smiled at me and held my hand back. I hated hospital's it where I always ended up after a beating from my father or mother they always made the excuse I was being bullied at school so social services wouldn't be involved.
My manger pulled Kwanghee out of the room once the Dr was done he was followed by Jackson and RM who had worried looks on their faces.,
Manager Park than said " I have never seen her actually get this close to someone, not even me you must have given her a great impression, or she feel safe with you. She has had a very hard life up until now, her family before they abandoned her, treated her like a cash cow and trash. she has been abused, and sold by her father for sex. This child needs someone she can trust, some one who will show her what real unconditional love is. I hope you may be the one she lets in threw all of the barriers, and guards. If she keeps going on like this I am afraid she might end up hurting herself, in the process of keeping everyone at an arms length, or worse."
I was too tired to listen to the rest of the conversation but thankfully the Dr came back in and asked me a series of questions that where routine. Than I told her that my ribs hurt also when she lifted up my shirt she let out a gasp and said, "this is from the fall to?" I just nodded not wanting to explain or get my parents in trouble. She ordered a series of X-ray's which showed I had a couple of bruised ribs only thankfully none of them were cracked Or broken.
Jackson and RM, Looked at the concerned, face of Kwanghee, they knew that their friend would be safe with him. They already knew about her situation from the background checks their company's gave them about her, before they started the show with her.
But the day of her birthday, they had first hand experience with her so called family, when they went to her home and asked them to celebrate her birthday with them. Her father looked at the boys and said, "Is that today? Huh." her mother even went as far as saying "why would I want to celebrate a whores birthday? I should have aborted her when I had the chance." her sister piped up with " why should we? we have never done it before, my parents and I are the only one around here that get birthdays. Unwanted bitch whores, don't deserve birthdays they deserve punishment for even being born, or better yet just go tell her to kill herself no one wants her here anyways." both of her parents nodded in agreement
If the cameras where not rolling and Jackson was not holding him back R would have tried to beat the Shit out of the three people in front of them. he noticed Cl holding Jackson back too. Cl's eyes where on fire and looked like she was going to murder these people but before anyone could say any thing the pd nim said," I got what I need and it is time to go kids."
Once outside of the well maintained Hanok every one let out a sigh of relief Jackson hit the side of the wall in anger his dark brown eyes ablaze with fire.
RM couldn't blame him he wanted to hit something also lash out in anger for his sweet friend who would go out of her way to me sure everybody was okay when she was around her big hazel eyes always boring into your soul willing to listen to all your problems.
Rap monster asked, "will you please not show that to anyone it will give a negative light to Anna. If you want show it to JYP he needs to see it if anyone dose." The crew man nodded and said "If I didn't get out of there, I would have killed them for treating that sweet girl like that. No, one deserves a family like that not even criminals. I am surprised she turned out so kind and gentile like she did. I am definitely going to show this to JYP than go home and kiss my daughters and tell them I love them."
Jackson was still fuming and CL went quiet which was scary as hell RM didn't want to be around when she exploded because there would be casualties and he didn't want to be one of them.
Jinyoung looked to be in deep thought his jaw flexing was the only indicators of his suppressed anger he was one to really look out for you could tell under all of his quiet demeanor laid a angry Beast waiting to lash out at anybody who can close.
They the started going their separate ways wanting to forget what just occurred their hearts heavy with sadness for their friend sweet friend. Hoping that one day someone's would have enough courage to take her away for the sadness and pain that her family inflicted on her.
No one knew that this moment where they stood by was the moment that would be a turning point in their friends life the video did eventually get into CEO's Jinyoung hands where he launched a investigation into his employees life using some of the best privet investigator's available in Seoul South Korea.