After what Tracy said. I lay on my bed with my eyes shut firmly for some hours as though I was shut out of life. Mediated deep about my life and crushed dreams. I've lived my last four years totally depending Jeremy. I mean he got me my current job with his connection with my boss, Ivan. We moved in together living like we were married and there was no boundaries between us. I was not even used to being alone without him.
I was accustomed sharing the bed with him in a tight hug every night. Now I was left with the decision to choose if I could still cope with that after he cheated or I want a break. It was not that simple after all.
First, everyone in my family and his loves us together and they are waiting patiently for us to announce a wedding date and start having children.
Second, Jeremy helped me to get over my trauma about the incident four years ago. So, I was to think about his bad side, I should think about his good side too.
