Singing every lyrics with my eyes closed, reminiscing on that night and regretting ever writing those lyrics... Although that was the state if my heart at that point in time yet I feel I shouldn't have admitted it or write it down... Now I am left alone, trying not to be depressed, not to be weighed down... My life is just a mystery... Mom left, Daniel came back... Isn't that "facinating"???...
I couldn't control myself any longer or battle with the demons within me...I cried silently, I could hear them say something but I couldn't process what it was... Opened my eye and saw Tonia staring at me with her mouth slightly opened, Daniel going through my lyrics note and Tony smiling sheeplessly....
"You wished you were a bird, WOW!!!....then you wouldn't have dreams nor the ability to talk and walk, but you're good man"
Tonia shook her head and said in a hoarsed tone which made me feel she was about to cry...
"Its a metaphorical statement dummy, me wishing to be a dog doesn't mean I want to... it only means I could posses sharp teeths to bite you harshly... Birds have the ability to fly and see beyond we humans, I refer to them as super animals to whom sky isn't their limit rather their beginning"....
Daniel stared at her and handed me a face towel from my bed....
"That's an intelligent speech sis, I didn't expect you to be soo good Anto, but why were you tearing up, the lyrics aren't that touching"....
I was definitely going to ignore that question cus I didn't want to get the pity card again but it seems Tonia read my mind while singing... Sh collected my lyrics note from him an d pointed to the date I wrote up there
"Here.. he wrote this the day his mom left, at exact 8:06 and his mom left by ten cus mom told me dad called her to arrange maids by this time... so definitely he feels the lyrics has something with her leaving
" Isn't that a little bit meaningless???... Why would she leave cus of mere lyrics to a song... it doesn't add up to me"
" Tonia day dreams alot.... so I am not surprised..."
" Y'all should seriously learn how to make use of instinct"
I know that conversation wasn't going to end anytime soon and I have to meet up with Kira in the next 30 minutes....
"I have fulfilled my promise already...so I have to hurry... I need to rush out...Y'all can continue arguing when am gone"
" Where are you going to, can we tag along??? "
The twin asked curiously... While Daniel gave my phone which was on the bed to me ... I noticed he was staring at it not quite long but I wasn't sure why???.
"Yh sure... why not??"
I said as the twin giggled happily... Took a look at my phone... there was a text from be tagging along also"
What was I gonna do???... I just said yes to their request and I wasn't going to do anything that would jeopardize my friendship with Troy and Kira... The Twins would always be around anyways...
"Hmmm... I don't think there is a need to come with me, I wanna meet up with an old friend and reminisce of the old moment"
That was good,.. at least I didnt tell a lie...
" Can't we come along and be the third and
fourth wheel"
" Am sorry... we've decided to come alone"
Tonia sat back and Tony waved at me
" Alright Darling, enjoy your night and say me well to your friend"...
" Okay Tonia, I promise to make it up to you"
Daniel handed me my jacket and I left the room... Watched out for Tina and ran out of the house and I could hear her scream
" Don't you dare come in after nine alright??? "
" Don't be dare lock me out, okay???...I muttered as I walk down the street... Floral park is just a walk away...
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"Am soo glad you came alone, thought you would show up with your "families"
Kira grinned as I approached her, she looks so beautiful than ever... dressed in a casual ,short flared ,dress...
I smiled at her statement... would've showed up with them if she hadn't sent a text tho
"Its my duty to keep my part of our agreement and moreso, I've missed our convo's and laughter together"....
I looked around for Troy but he is nowhere to be found...
"Troy said he won't be able to make it down here...his grandpa has a back pain and he can't leave him all by himself"...
That was strange, Troy would have called me directly and not her.... I decided to let it slide and text Troy later...
"Ok...Let's stroll round the park and enjoy the fresh air"....
I took her hands in mine and walk down the park silently, I was searching for words to say but I can't find any... It was getting weird untill she cleared her throat and aprubtly stopped walking...
"I set up this meeting to know our stand with you... I felt we've lost you since you no longer hang out with us anymore"
Surprised at her outburst, I knew I haven't been myself with them lately..
"Am soo sorry if I made you feel any typpa way... I have been going through a lot lately and I have to balance my mental state"
I've been going through a lot to be sincere, I just occupied my mind with my books and maybe listen to the twin argue or Daniel obnoxious talks which gives me great joy
"No...its fine, Troy had told me not to pester you claiming you'd come around some day but I thought i had to do this"...
Troy had been down this lane before, I could remember those days when he was restless and annoying but I think he is fine now..
"I promise to make it up to you KiKi... This isn't me and you know this!!!"
"I would say you say so...".
"Thank you for caring KiKi... I really appreciate having a Passionate and caring friend like you"
I meant every bit of my word to her... Days ago,I didn't care about anyone leaving but right now I am scared of losing anyone and be lonely again...
"You are an amazing friend also Tony... You've been there for me in my darkest moments...I can't stand losing you"
She hugged me and there we stood for minutes... I felt relieved in some kinda way like a sudden load of worry has been lifted from me...I felt glad to know someone is afarid of losing me...
"I need to get going...mom would skin me alive if she gets to know am not in my room"
Wow...she sneaked out just to see me???
I felt touched by this gesture of hers...
"Wasn't she aware you are coming out here???"
" She wasn't, she thinks I would be in my room as usual studying"
I was pleased by her response... someone actually cares about me!!!...
"Get going then...see you tomorrow"
We bade goodbye and went our separate ways... on the walk back home, I didn't want to get home when they would still be awake and bombard me with questions... I wasn't in the mood for that ...I needed to be alone...
I walked slowly, thinking of my convo with Kira...it seems I have found someone to stay with me till maybe eternity...she had always cared but I never knew it was to this extent... My mind wandered to Troy... Decided to give a call... He picked up on the first ring
"Hey man!!! Am sorry I couldn't make it.. my granny fell from the stairs and had a minor accident but I couldn't leave all by himself since his wife isn't home",
" Its okay bro... How is he now???"
" He is fine... resting in his room... I spoke to Kira not quite long, she explained all you said to me, I am glad you are coming around"
" I am sorry for been to insecure about your friendship... I messed up.. would make it up to you bro"
" It alright man, How about the twinny and Daniel"
"They should be fine ....I am now my way back home"
" Owk... talk to you later guy,I need to check what the old is up to."
"Alright say me well to him bro"
I hanged up....That convo was brief but I was overwhelmed that my bestie hasn't given up on me yet...I need to stop getting my mind on someone who doesn't care bout me... who has deserted me... and live my life with those who does....
I headed home, the door was still open... Definitely, they weren't going to lock me out...I tiptoed in and luckily they've all gone to bed....it has been a long day so they were probably tired and gave up on waiting for my arrival....
I decided to write, took off my jacket, sat on the study, picked up my note quietly and wrote down the lyrics which kept on flowing...Layed down on my bed and dozed off in seconds
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