'Aaaaahhhhhh' I screamed while slammed the door of the room shut. I didn't know how I got up here and wasn't the least bit worried about it. My rage was so much and I couldn't control it anymore. I wanted to smash things, I wanted to punch someone, so I started breaking everything in that room but it wasn't enough! I wanted to vent all my anger out but since I couldn't I asked the maid who kept asking me to calm down to prepare me a bath.
The bath was pretty refreshing, the calm silence and wonderful smell of roses made me calm down a bit. I was trying to recall everything, I didn't know how I still remember every single content in that book of mine since it's been a couple of years since I wrote it but then again, I am suddenly inside that book as the villainess in the the pretense of being god's blessed child and having to adjust his world. I am so mad at just the thought of it, I was finally getting done with college with all diplomas because I was a genius. I would finally expand my company and work on other areas, I was finally achieving all my dreams that I worked so hard for but because of this so called God I have to learn magic and save this damned world.
'Why didn't he choose someone else, why did it have to be me?'
I never fell in love since I was always busy with my company and school but that didn't mean I didn't want to fall in love. I wrote that novel when I was 15 and finally got a break from the world (it was basically forced on me but let's leave that for another day) it was summer and we were in the Bahamas which a lot of couples where showing their love. I wanted that, it's not like I was ugly I was actually considered a beauty with blonde hair, green eyes and soft skin, my body was enviable and I was talented. Still no one loved me in a romantic way, yeah I received some confessions but none was sincere, they only liked me because many desired me but none had me. I'm a bookworm so I have high standards but if at least one boy was actually in love with me and not my appearance and status I would gladly accepted him but none were.
I wrote golden roses because I wanted that type of romance. In the novel, Roseanne is just like me, smart, quick-witted, beautiful, and kind, the only difference is that she has powers which I kinda wish I had but now that I think about it I wish to undo that wish. The male lead was the crown Prince George Leopoldo Hesten, he is smart, handsome, he can be a devil on the battlefield but is definitely a good and just ruler, he loves the female lead with all his heart and doesn't want any harm to come to her. I was going to make Asten, the villainess's brother, the second male lead but I hated the idea of the second male lead syndrome, Asten is cold on the outside but actually a cinnamon roll when he gets comfortable with you and I would rather give him his own female lead who's going to love only him and choose only him.
The plot surrounds these 3 characters, the villainess Crystalline, being me, the heroine being Roseanne who's the daughter of a Marques, and the crown Prince George. It was the usual cliche romance story, the female lead and male lead going through many obstacles caused by the villainess and in the end defeating her and marrying afterwards living their happy ever after. It's really cringe now that I think about it but still that's how I wanted, I wanted that kind of love because I was obsessed with manga stories and fantasy novels.
The crown prince and Crystalline had been engage since they were five and they were both in love, child love, growing up the crown prince met Roseanne in his 10th birthday party and was mesmerized by her, and in truth she was way more beautiful than Crystalline, but Crystalline didn't lose to her either. Crystal had black hair that shined even in the dark, she had silver eyes and rosy lips, her face looked like it was carved by god, but because of her father's genes she had a cold face and cold aura. She automatically looked cold and mature, anyone who saw her would think she is a bitch and was cold because of the vibes that her appearance gave off, but she wasn't like that. She was actually a very warm person that just wanted to be loved, she kept on clinging onto the prince and bullied the heroine because he was the only one who was actually warm to her, she didn't want that to be gone and up until they were 11 she didn't do anything to Roseanne but she did start to feel threatened with her presence she saw how the prince was looking at her, it was the same look that once looked at her.
Crystalline and Roseanne coincidentally have the same birthday and that's what made Crystal even more mad because before the prince was going to her birthday party and everyone attend her party but now since the prince was going to Roseanne's party nobody went to Crystal's party. It was her 12 birthday and even her brother wasn't there to congratulate her, she was so angry and sad. Her father ignored her, her brother wasn't the sweet older brother who protected her anymore, the crown prince whom she loved so dearly now didn't even look at her, and that was all because of one person.
Roseanne DePont Halevohn
From that day forward she swore she would make her life miserable just like she made hers but just like any other villain she was destined to fail, her presence in this world is just to prove how strong the love between the prince and Roseanne was, and her fate was to die knowing she will never have what she wanted.
I was crying while remembering the sad truth behind Crystal's past. She was loved and cared for until she was six, when her mother suddenly died without a reason, at least that's what she believed. In fact, she was the one who killed her mother, she was 6 years old and was acting all spoiled and bratty because she couldn't play swords with her brother and father, her mother kept saying that she is too weak to be using swords or learning magic and when she grew up she would learn it but Crystal wasn't satisfied, she wanted to do it and was getting angry at her mother for not letting her. Crystal had very strong powers she had both light and dark magic and was basically controlled by her emotions. Her mother kept telling her to calm down but she wouldn't and suddenly her powers went out of control killing her mother and making her fall into a coma that was of a week and when she woke up she saw maids with her father and brother surrounding her bed. She was confused as to why they were there, they looked relieved but still had sadness in their eyes.
Her father asked her if she remembered what happened before she collapsed and she said that she was angry at her mother because she didn't let her play with her brother and father. That's when Asten snapped, his eyes were filled with anger and he was letting his mama out ready to attack Crystalline, he told Crystal the truth and said she killed their mother which made Crystal panic and have her emotions all affected again, the duke not wanting to loose his children erased their memories of their childhood and calmed them down. When they woke up it was all peaceful and they went to their mother's grave to say their goodbyes, the duke said she died of a sudden illness but he closed himself ever since and Asten always felt hatred for his sister without knowing why. The mansion they lived in grew cold, the once happy place was now a cold one.