[P.O.V. Riley Woods]
Ever since that day, I discovered my mate, and she rejected me. My heart has been broken. It has never felt like this before. Usually, because I do the heartbreaking, and this time, the role has changed, it feels like it's eating me alive. Even though I told her I would continue the normal way I act, it has been too hard. I can't get her out of my head. Even my wolf and dragon can't stop thinking about her. They also want me to reject her back for hurting us. But I made a promise I wouldn't do that to her. Honestly, it's been hard to keep that promise with the way I feel.
After getting up and getting dressed this morning, I went down to breakfast. I'm actually dreading it only because I know she will be in the dining room eating with the rest of the royals and high ranked. Taking a deep breath after gathering my emotions, I enter the dining room. Heading straight to the table that my mother and the rest of my family sat at before getting to that table, I passed hers. Even though I didn't look at her, I could feel her eyes on me, and it was messing with my emotions. After I passed her table, I took a small deep breath and let it out. Taking my seat, the servants give me my breakfast.
Looking at the food, I didn't want to eat it, not because of the food. But because the way I am feeling is affecting my eating habits. That's not going to stop me, though, from eating. I don't want anyone to see or know what's going on with me. Not until I can figure out what to do about my situation. Do I listen to my beasts and break my promise and leave her? or do I hang on to my promise and keep trying with her? It didn't take long for Jared to join the rest of the family for breakfast. I hoped that I would finish breakfast before he got here only because my twin knows how to read my emotions better than the others. I don't feel like sharing anything with my twin right now. Sometimes, I need to figure things out on my own.
"Hey, man, are you okay?" Jared asks through our twin bond mind link.
"Yea, I'm fine.." I tell him.
"No, your not. Tell me, what's going on?"
"It's really none of your business." Please drop it, Jared. I don't feel like talking about it right now.
"Since when? we tell each other everything." I know we do, but I need space.
"Back off, Jared." I was starting to feel a little irritated. It wasn't just me either but the other two souls that share my body.
"Was it something I said or did? "
"No..." I started to pick at my food with a fork, irritatedly. Why does he always think it's about him?
"Is it something to do with Karen?" Is he kidding me? Why would it have anything to do with Karen? Why would he even ask that? Does he really think just because she is his mate, I would have a problem with her?
"No..."
"It's my job as your twin and sibling to bother you about things. So tell me, what is going on?" Getting tired of him not leaving me alone. And all the emotions I have been feeling and bottling up, I snapped.
"I said to back the hell off!!" I snapped at him. When I did, I felt this emotion that I have never felt before. I felt in tune with my wolf and dragon. Because of it, the feelings I felt were even stronger than I ended up saying. "Why does everything have to be about you!? Just because your the golden boy out of us two doesn't always mean everything is about you!.."
I really need to calm down the feelings of anger and heartbreak were starting to take over me. If I'm not careful, I could blackout and hurt somebody. Closing my eyes, trying to calm myself and my beast down. As calm as I could get them and myself, the strong feeling died down a bit. Reopening my eyes, I give Jared a warning. "Stay the hell out of my head. And mind your own damn business." Trying to talk as nicely as I could right now.
Taking my leave, I head toward my and Jared's secret spot. It's the one place we can get away from everything and everyone. All I could think about is how I reacted and how Venessa saw. Even though I didn't look at her, I could feel her eyes on me, including everyone else in that room. I feel awful; I must of embarrass my mother with the way I reacted. Another thing that bothers me is the way my brother looked at me. His expression looked as he didn't recognize me.
Standing on the bank of the river that flowed underneath this bridge. I grabbed my hand full of rocks and threw them into the river, trying to clear my head. No matter how hard I tried to calm down, I still felt this anger and felt like it didn't want to go away. Throwing the last rock in my head hard into the water, I smelt that delicious scent. Looking to the left of me, there she stood.
"What you doing here?" Asking her rudely.
"I wanted to make sure you were okay," Venessa answers kind of sweetly and soft.
"Why? Since when do you care about how I feel?" Wow, I really sound like an ass right now.
"I kind of deserved that..." She looks down and starts twiddling with her thumbs.
"Kind of? You did deserve that!" I growl out at her. I could feel my wolf and dragon wanting to come out. My wolf wanted to make her his, but at the same time, he wanted her to feel hurt as we do. My dragon wanted to claim her and wanted to punish her for treating us like we're nothing but garbage to her. They both felt they wanted to reject her back so that our broken heart and ego could heal. "What gives you the right to check on me? Don't you remember you rejected me? You wouldn't even give me the chance to make you mine and to make you happy. Instead, you judged me and threw me away like was garbage to you."
"I know what I did was wrong, and I shouldn't have done it, but..." She tries to explain. She moves closer towards me. Even though she hurt me, I couldn't help but want to touch and hold her.
"But? there no, but about it." Please don't get any closer to me, for if you do, I won't be able to stop myself from making you mine. Even though you hurt me, I still want every part of you.
"Why are you so damn mad with me? I'm trying to apologize to you, dammit!" She yells back at me. Something snapped in me. My beast wasn't ready to give in to her just yet. Grabbing her arms, I shoved her up against the bridge, bricked the wall, and yelled in her face.
"I'm angry because you wounded me deeply!! I know it's childish and selfish to act this way, but dammit, I can't stand it!!.." I stared into her eyes for a few minutes. I could see she was scared. Taking a deep breath, I look down at the ground staring at our feet. I could feel tears brimming in my eyes, ready to fall. I couldn't let her see me this way, pathetic and weak, but I couldn't help it.
"The last couple of days have been hell for me. I want nothing more than to leave you heartbroken as you have done to me. I want nothing more than to punish you and reject you back. I want nothing more than to be done with you... No matter how much I feel this way, I also feel that no matter how hard I try to get back to my old self and habits, I just can't. The moment I see you in my head, all I can think is I wished that the girl I was touching was you. Every time I see you in my present, I want nothing more than to take you in my arms and kiss the hell out of you. I want to make you mine and mine alone..." I could feel a few tears slip. "I'm not too fond of the way you have made me feel. It feels unnatural to me, and I don't know how to deal with it. I feel like I'm being swallowed whole by the hole you left in my heart."
Taking a deep breath and swallowing the lump forming in my throat, and pushing the tears back. I look back up at her. She was crying too, but it wasn't because she was scared of me. It was something else. The thing is, a part of me cared that she was, but the biggest part of me didn't. By expressing my feelings to her, I know what to do about our situation.
"I Higher Prince Riley Woods reject you Princess Venessa Creely as my Mate, Queen, and Luna." I rejected her.
And after I did, a small weight lifted off my heart. I also felt the rest of our bond break into nothing. She looked shocked, and her tears flowed even more, but this time it was sadness. She pushes me off her and runs away. Sinking to the ground punching the ground really hard for the pain I felt was too great to handle. I punched the ground until my knuckles were cut deeply and bloody on both hands. I did it until I blacked out from the anger and heartbreak.