I guess I must have fallen asleep last night because when I woke up I was twenty minutes late for school. I grabbed my sweatshirt three on pants and socks. I grabbed my bag and slipped on my shoes while running to the front door I see a note on the counter. It's from my dad and it reads "Hey kiddo here's some money for gas or whatever you need. I'll see you later tonight for movie night. Love you love dad." He's always left me notes since I was a little girl and movie nights where always our thing until mom died a few years ago. She had stage four cancer and fought hard but eventually it took over. I still miss her but I know she's not in pain anymore. I looked at our family photo on the fridge before running out the door. I get to school right before the bell rings. I plop down in my seat next to Kate who's already ten chapters ahead of the class. "Late again?" She said laughing. I just laugh with her. I get through the first few classes then we have lunch. I grab my tray and look for Shey and Anna. I sit down at the table next to Kate who isn't even eating just studying for her test in math next period. Shey is eating her packed lunch while loudly chewing and complaining about being grounded. Anna is on a diet so the only thing she's eating is air and water. I tried to tell her that you can't live off of air and her response was "people do it all day everyday". Anna slides me a note that said I know you know. I can feel my face get hot and my heart start to pound. I excuse myself to the restroom. Does she know I saw Angel? Does she know I'm going to ask questions? What will she think? The bell rings and interrupts my thought. I get to class relieved it's the last class of the day. Anna is leaning against my car when I get to the parking lot. "Hurry up loser it's hot out here!" She yells. I unlock the car and drive to her house. Typical her parents still aren't home. We get inside and she cranks the A.C. I grab some orange juice from the fridge and sit on the couch as she turns on the newest teen shows. Anna breaks the silence telling me " I know you know I hooked up with Chaz the night of the party." I laugh a nervous laugh "Oh yeah I didn't want to say anything." Kates face gets red "Do you think I'm a slut now?" She asked "No I don't think your a slut! You are your own person and can do what you want" I tell her. Even though we both know she's gotten very slutty since being with Chaz. A few more minutes go by. I finally tell Anna "I saw a girl at the party that I haven't seen in school or at the mall before." Anna's eyes grow wide and then narrow. "What did she look like?" I'm nervous now and not ready to answer that. "Was it the girl Chaz was with at his other school?!" She's almost yelling now. "No.no. She was older and she kinda looked like Chaz" I said. Anna's face relaxes and she laughs. "Oh you mean Angel Chaz's sister." She said it so calm that it seems like she's known about her this whole time. Chaz has gone to our school since the eighth grade and he has never mentioned his sister. She's never gone to any games or school events. I look at her confused. " I didn't know Chaz had a sister" I said Anna looks at me concerned now " Chaz has always had a sister she just likes to hide away a lot." "Oh so why isn't she in school" I asked. Anna signed as if she was annoyed at this point "because she's homeschooled duh!" We sit in silence for a few more minutes. "Why are you so interested in Angel anyway?" Anna asked. "I'm not I just never saw her before so I was just curious" I said. I'm still questioning myself at this point. Am I into girls? Is this how it starts? How will I know for sure? I mean I've kissed boys but they have never made me feel the way I felt yesterday in Chaz's bathroom. Maybe I was gay. My phone rings and I realize I'm late for movie night with my dad. I tell Anna thank you for talking with me and that I'll see her tomorrow. I start to head home and I can't help but worry if Anna thinks I'm some huge lesbo now. But what if I am? Would my friends think of me any different? Would they still hang out with me? I pull in the driveway. As I walk tot he front door I can already smell the pizza and wings dad bought from the convenient store a couplet blocks over. Dad chose a zombi thriller movie because that's what kids are into these days. I guess I didn't do a good job at hiding my emotions because dad asked if everything was alright. "Dad have you ever had feelings you couldn't explain. Or thought things that weren't considered normal?"I asked. He took a minute to process my question then he replied "You know kiddo if we didn't have feelings or thoughts that weren't normal are we even really human." Dad always answers serious questions like that. Ever since mom he's tried his hardest not to hurt my feelings. I hug him goodnight and head to bed. I'm still confused about my feelings and thoughts about Angel. I guess I think more on it tomorrow because I need some sleep. I haven't had a good night sleep in days.