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Chapter 6 - バラバラ

I decided to ask Finch why she was there when it was my last day there.

She told me that her mother set the museum on fire, took the GoldFinch painting, and hid it in the basement. Finch said that her and her friends thought it was a blank of old wood, when they started to paint over it. Realising their mistake, they tried to wipe it off, but in return, the original painting went away too. I asked her why she was in here and her mom wasn't in jail or something.

She said "because when my mom found out I lost something that should have been immortal, she freaked.

and I killed her."

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I was awfully surprised when I opened the door to my room after much sitting on the floor and thinking.

It's been about 3 days since I first started renovating the house.

I expected my room to be the same, but my room had been completely striped, cleaned, and repainted.

Nothing looked the same.

I was so relieved.

I was just going to close the door and leave the house, but something caught my eye.

On the bed, there was a tape recorder.

I thought it was some saw type shit, but it had a note on it.

"to Sky"

I took a deep breath, grabbed the tape recorder and left the room.

I ended up finishing the house, including washing away years of cigarette smoke from the walls of a house I hated to call home.

I got into my car and immediately turned on the AC. It was so hot, but I was so relieved.

I started to wonder what happened to Finch, my father.

I started to drive without the radio on because I played that tape.

As soon as the tape began to play, I wanted to puke and cry.

The tears clinged to my eyes, and this time, I let them fall.

I hadn't heard my mother's voice in years.

They don't tell you how to handle the pain and anger of never knowing that your mother knew you were raped, that you had a golden haired friend, that your mother knew everything all along, and that there was so many secrets.

Her voice was shaky.

" Hi Sky, how are you doing? I know this came as a surprise, your room, your father.

Okay, let me explain. I knew all along, and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Skylar. I knew about your suicide notes, the self harm, the rape.

I could see it in your eyes, I could feel your anger when you saw me. I sat on the kitchen floor every night and sobbed into those letters.

I know, why didn't I hug you? why didn't I say anything? I was scared. I know it's selfish, but I was too young to understand, and I was afraid I was going to hurt your feelings more.

I know you were held in the same room as Finch, you guys were friends when you were younger. You'd call her Goldie Locks.

I just wanted to let you know that I love you, and I'm sorry. I know I should've held you close and told you I loved you sooner, but I was so deep into the alcohol and the drugs.

It's my fault.

I messed up everything because I was scared and confused. I'm so sorry, Sky.

Your father is in jail, he tried to run away after I found out he raped you. I'm smarter than him though.

Anyways.

Stay safe.

I love you."