We were sitting on the bed when he got a call, he got up and walked to the kitchen to talk, almost as if he didn't want me to hear it. I didn't want to seem like i cared a lot about the call so i just stayed in bed. He walked back in and told me he had to go somewhere, i was like, alright he has to go, no biggie.
"my friend is waiting for me at her house, we have a project due for tomorrow, i'll see you later, bye"
"oh okay, bye"
He what? I felt this stupid feeling in my stomach again, why did it come back? The more i thought about it the worse it got, eventually getting to my head. My head was warm and i felt butterflies in my stomach, after a while of thinking and judging my thoughts, i knew what it was. I was jealous that james was spending time with other girls. I was in denial because, what could i possible be jealous for, im jealous cause hes with another girl, but why? Its not like we're dating. Wait, he didn't even tell me his friends gender, he just said he needed to go to a friend's house, what if it's one of his homies, yes yes, its one of them. I didn't want to think about this any longer so I just put in my mind that he went to a boys house. I got a text, it was james! the text read: "im with my friend, he did most of the work before i got here, you still awake?" of course i was awake, it was just about 8pm.
After he got here we went back to watching videos. It was getting boring and i could tell by the look on his face. He said he had already eaten something at his friends house, I ate some biscuits here so i was good too. I wanted to feed my hunger for questions about his personal life, but i didn't want to seem too intriguing.
"So how many girlfriends have you had?"
"what?"
Of course, what other things could i ask, its not like his parents were the kind of people that shutted him out from society and forced him into antisocialism.
"I haven't had any yet, im going to waut for the right one"
"thats nice, i hope you find someone worthy one day"
Even though I wished him the best of luck ij relationships, i still kinda wanted to be the right one. Wait what? no, i dont want to be the right one, im not the right one, right?
"yea, i just want to find someone nice and cheerful, you know, someone that will never make me sad, someone that will trust me and will be smart about making choices with me"
"those are some great qualities you're looking for there, i hope you find a girl with all of them one day"
I don't mean to toot my own horn, but it almost sounded like he was describing me. I mean, there are a lot more girls like me so, maybe he wasn't? Well I don't know, I just want to get him off my mind.
"can i sleep here?"
"h-huh, what? u-uhh, y-yea"
My mind tried to say yes but my body didn't know how to project that onto him, it sounded as if i was having a stroke. He smiled and got comfy on my bed, I could tell he wasn't bothered by sleeping here. He started to fall asleep and i was scared for him to fall off the bed, so i turned off my computer and put it away. I got back in bed with him but i didn't know what to do. I wanted to hug him so bad but at the same time i didn't. I took the end decision and fell asleep next to him, i knew i couldn't control myself while asleep but i just let it be.