After yesterday what i said to Stefan.. he didn't give any answer to me.. or he didn't react at this.. i so didn't asked me after that more.. I stay more with he's gang.. and spent some more time with girl's.. I told Stefan that i have to go home.. he didn't say anything.. and he drop me to my dorm..
He didn't even said any word.. and leave me.. it's little strange.. but i leave it.. maybe I ask me more than he can do... But i just ask him to Dan's body.. I want revenge to him.. what he did with Janna.. I hate him.. they way he play with her and me..
He know that all the time.. and still show me that it's nothing.. I hate lier's.. now that Justin know it that i am here.. so I also have to give him this little suprise.. well I also know that Sam want to kill him and get revenge.. but still.. I wantore than message to Justin that what he's messing with me..
I still don't know that Stefan doing or not.. fulfill my wish.. I have to wait for this to perfect time when in happen..
Yesterday when I come home I grab pills drunk with water and than sleep.. I want to sleep more.. my body is buring with all bruise.. and i want to take rest and i know that I can't sleep so I have to use it pills..
Next day.. I wake up late.. and i don't mind it that.. my body little bit hurt.. but i Ignore the pain.. and I Walk to the tannic practice.. well the coach looking at me with surprise that I come.. i am keep excepting the practice.. he want me to play the match this weekend.. I told him that i can't do it.. he asked me why.. I know it's not cool to go to he's bad sides. But i just can't.. lots of happening and I don't know that i will focus on this match..
He little bit angry or mad at me.. but i on other hand Ignore it.. even jade also get surprise that how I just said no to him.. well what can i say.. I know that I can't concentrate with this game when lots of things are going on in my mind .
When my time up.. I grab my things and Walk to the dance studio. I told jade that i will meet her in lunch.. and she nodded.. I know in lunch time she ask me about it.. and I again want to lie about her.. or anything..
My dance practice are go well.. Janna said that there is continue two matches are coming this weekend so we have to practice about that.. and that time senior or junior both are playing but another University players are coming to challange to them.. and it's quite interesting.. to see them.. we do our routine.. and also she tell us who's going to cheer to which time..
In both match's.. Janna banned me.. didn't select me to cheer to our players.. and I know it she will do this like this. So I didn't question her.. all are quite suprise about her decision they want to ask about it but I just told them not too.. because I know she doing on this purposely..
After the little discuss about this.. we all are left for lunch.. and we are all our way to cafeteria.. we all hear some noises coming to the ground.. well I want to ignore it but that when I see that all are looking at them.. and lots of people are standing there and taking big circle that I can't see it what's going on there..
We girls are exchange glera to each other and than we finally thought that we can go and see what's going on..
We Walk there. And still can catch it what is happening.. and we just push some people.. they want to fight or yelled at me but than they saw me.. they back of.. whom I ignore there strange behavior.. when I push Al of them. And see that what it is.. I froze..
I don't have words to say anything.. or don't know what to think about it now.. I look at everyone and than my eyes land on Janna.. she also shock like I am.. so it is Happen.. he did what i want to.. but still i can't believe it.. it's real or not..
I walk to there. Ammy grab my arm to stop me but I just give look to that i am oky.. there is nothing going to happen.. whom she just nodded.. and I Walk to the body.. I look at he's face.. full of red with blood.. but still I can say that it's him.. lots of bruise and cuts in he's body and face.. I feel pain looking at he's life less body.. i want to touch he's face.. one last time but I just can't.. my body is frizz like I can't do it..
Than I hear footsteps come to opposite site and band to there knee and looking at him like the way i am looking at him.. I look at her.. she's crying.. she is crying.. I know it is going to happen.. no matter what.. she is love him.. I know that.. she touch he's hand.. and started to wake him up.. but i know he can't.. he's gone.. he's gone for good.. I don't want him die like this.. but he didn't give me other option.. I hate it.. doing it. I feel selfish hurt.. how I just told Steffen to kill him.. now i feel hurt..
No matter what once upon time he is my good friend.. he is help me for some time.. I see there something in he's other hand.. there is envelope in he's Pocket that half of it out that I can see it.. I look closely.. and grab that.. and see that what it is...
Janna look at me that what i am doing but she didn't said to me.. I get the envelope to he's Pocket.. and unfold it.. and there is the massage that no one can read it.. it's for only and only for me.. I know that.. I read it.. and I just take it in my bag.. i don't want to anyone see it.. I know that Janna see that.. and she get angry..
" You did this.. you kill him right.." she shouted at me.. and all are looking at her and than me.. and still confused that what's going on here..
" Yup kill Sam.. now you also kill him.. why... I already leave him.. than why you kill him.. how dare you to do this to him.. huh.. you are not girl.. and you are big bitch.. even all this happened you still here.. can't you have any shame.. i hate you.. before I said more things.. just get out for my side now.. if you don't that i am not hesitate to kill you.. now i am not scared of you.. you bitch... " She yelled at me.. and all are stund her out brush.. the same time Max come there.. and look at us.. me than Dan's dead body..
He shock.. what he see.. he come to me.. and grab me and pull me to he's arm.. and walk away.. all are stund.. Ammy also follow me.. angii want to come but Ammy stop her.. and told her that she will tell her everything later.. and than i see that Janna also shock what just happened.. I didn't said to Max.. i don't have energy to yelled at him or fight for him.. I just thinking about Dan.. I kill him...
Max pull me to he's passenger seat and lock my seatbelt and Ammy quite get in back whom Max didn't said to her anything.. he look at me. And our eyes meet. And he wipe my tears.. and than I realise that i was crying about what just happened to him... How can not I am cry about it.. he is something in my past life..
Max closth the door.. and get in the driver seat and he start the car.. i look at Ammy in view mirror that she's doing something in he's phone.. I know she will texting to Tom.. i didn't said to her anything.. I did talk with anyone..
I keep thinking about dan and Janna.. I hate myself.. that what i done.. Max call some of people and told them to get he's body and sand to the hospital and keep checking on him.. he's no more.. he's gone.. he's really gone.. I really want to talk about it for someone.. and tell them how I just use my power in wrong way and kill him.. I hate myself.. I am monster.. like Janna said to me.. because of me Ava dead.. and now it's Dan.. I am don't want fight.. I don't want this war.. where there is my people die.. I don't want this.. but it still happening..
I am scared what Happened when Justin come.. when i know he has long plan.. and how he is going to attack us.. I also want to tell this to Max but i just can't.. not now.. I am scared.. I am scared of this.. i want to runway.. I don't want to face them.. I just can't..
Max pull away to the parking lot.. and park the car.. and we all are get out to the car.. Ammy come to me. And hold me.. and comfort me.. saying me that all is going well but I know it's not.. I know that this will not going to be end well.. it's not going to be good in the end.. in the end I will lost my people.. and i don't want this..
We are enter the Max house. and seating in he's couch.. Sam come to me and hug me tightly.. and clam me down.. my whole body is shaking.. my mind keep thinking about he's dead face.. he's lifeless body.. I hate it looking at me.. but if i don't he will be do same with my people.. why he did it.. why can't he just stay out of it.. why I just leave Justin.. if i didn't do it it's nothing happened.. nothing happened.. i will be still the bitch to everyone.. and I never feel this feeling.. my sister don't murder and she is still with us her baby..
Because of me lots of people hurt.. die.. it's because of me.. my stupid wrong decision... Now I regret it.. and I hate myself for that.. I hate it to feeling this..
" Don't think to much princess.. " Sam said to me.. and I looking at him.. i am mad.. and I really want to punch someone or kill someone.. how can he think that I stop to do that.. and how can i do that.. it's easy for me to say.. bit not me..
I hear that Tom and Ray both are running to me.. and I look at them.. and than I broke down.. I broke down in there arm.. I cry.. I cry out loud.. my all anger my all feeling or pain.. i just come out in my tears.. I but it's still didn't feel that oky... I don't know what to do.. where to go...
I feel someone pull me to he's lap.. and he run my back to stop me to not to cry.. and I still crying and keep doing it..
" Shhh... We have to find out who did this.. " he said that I know look at him and he's concerned he wip my tears again with he's Thump and than pull my hair and take it back to in my ear.. so I can see him clearly..
" We can find out who did this.. whoever did it he's started the war.. " he said to me. And clam me.. I know he is angry and this death will be just not going to happen but i still did it.. I don't know what i am thinking and i tell Stefan for this.. but now it's not get well that i thought..
" Drink it.. it will be help it.." he said to me.. and give me to glass of water.. and I drink the whole glass of water.. and than I look at him.. he's looking at me when he look at me with love.. I know he care for me love me.. I see that I am still he's lap.. I push myself and get up on he's lap.. and I look at that whole gang is here.. and looking at us.. i little bit embarrassed that what i just did..
I see that Adam enter in same time and all are looking at him.. I also looking at him.. I don't know where he is.. or anything that he know..
" Well its Stefan.." he said.. and All are looking at him.. some are looking at with anger and some are looking at with shock.. and some are looking at him with confusion..
" Why he come on all of this.. did Dan had any business with him.. " Max ask him.. amd he just look at him with clueless..
" Who is he.. " Ammy ask.. and Tom and Ray are looking at her. And she looking at me.. that i just Ignore her..
" He has he's own gang.. and he also dangourse like Justin.. but most important think is what it has relationship with him to Dan.. " Tom explain him.. and I still ignor all of them..
" I think it's time to call him and arrange the meeting.. so we can get our answer.. " Max said to them.. and all are looking at him.. and Max grease on me.. but i didn't look at up...
" Boss ." One another voice come to us and it's little panicking.. and all are look at him..
" What happened.." Max ask him.. and he look little tans..
" She's here.. and she bagging to come here.. " he said to him.. and all are looking at him with question who's she..
" Who's she.." Ammy ask that man.. he look at Max and than Ammy and than he answer that we all are frizz one more time.. it's not that go this like this.. we never think about it..
" Janna madam.." he said Little loudly.. and same time Janna enter the house.. and looking at us.. and her eyes landed on Sam.. and she shock what what she see.. well I never think that still it's going to end like this.. now i don't know what will she do .. looking at Sam like this..