" I.. I.." i want to say but I can't. I don't know how to explain to me.
" You know this and you still didn't tell me why.. " he said to me before I answered him he again spoke.
" Yeahh right. You want me to feel the pain what you feel when I leave you.. you want me to experience it don't you.. " he said push me away to him. And stood up..
" And here i am come to you. How stupid I am.." he said to me..
" Stop.. " i tell him.
" And here you are fucking someone and enjoy your best night.. " he started again.
" And here I am hurting myself. But you care. No you don't.. you are to bussy to sleeping that guy.. " he said.
" I said stop Anthony.. " I yelled at him..
" Did you enjoy it. Did you have great time. Did I interrupt you guys.. did he give you that mark. Didn't he.. " he said and than i slap him hard. And stop him. Tears comes to my eyes.
" I said fucking stop Anthony. And yes I did fuck him. And I did enjoy it. And I did good have time with him. " I tell him. I don't care if I hurt him but he want to listen to me today.
" And I do know about Lily. Last week I did catch them one of Chase room making out. When I yelled at them you know what they tell me.. want you to hear it.. let me tell you what they said to .me.. " I tell him.
" They said that this is the fucking revange. To cheat on them. Yess. She did know that you are fucking me behind her. She tell me that in drunken state you spill all to her. And why Jacob. So tell you that. He did saw us. When I tell him I do want to know him and work this out. And after that he saw us getting in to your basement. So yes this is it they revenge it.. so how's you feel when your game your plan throw back to you again. Huhh.. " i tell him. And push him with my hand. And he back of.. he didn't say the word.
" How's you feeling knowing that your girl cheating on him. Like you did with her. Do you feel the pain. Than tell me how she feel that.. and tell me how you like it when you see me with Tyler. I did see how you broke that glass. Did you feel it.. that's you did with us.. and I am glad that everything is come out. If you didn't cheat on her. She never do that. You made her to do that. It's all your fault. " I give him loud message.
" I did feel peety on you. But my sake i can't.. I can't look at you like this.. broken. Sad. Hurt. But I know that you also did with us this. And never ever care to see that hows your action hurt people. " I tell him.
" You think kissing her front of me you want me to jealous of you.. you think that looking at me broke the glass with jealous. You think she didn't get it.. she did know that. And I think after this your reaction she did on purpose so because I know she did promise me that she will stop all this. " I tell him.
" And seriously Anthony. If you do it like this. I am telling you front of your face. You never have someone in your life whom you really want you to be spend time the whole life. Because of that you did hurt lots of people. Break there heart. I just want to request you please leave us alone. Don't hurt us more. Please I begged for you.. " i tell him and tocuh my both hand like Indian namste we do. Like this. He look at me and I know hearing this he will hurt more. And broke down more. But I don't want to be give him chance. Or do anything.
I walk to my bed. And grab my phone. And than started to one person who can I call. Who can take care of him. And I diel he's numb. And after three or four ring he pick up.
" Lee.. everything is fine. You are calling me 3 in night.." i didn't know that.. it's that late. but I ignore he's concern.
" Lee you there.. " he said again.
" I want you to come my house now.." i tell him. And before he said anything. I hang-up.
I look at Anthony. He still here. But lost in thought. I stop crying. But I know that looking Lily and Jacob together broke him down badly.
I seat in my bed. And look at him. He didn't care. He didn't even said or talk. Stood there like lifeless. I do want to go to him and hug him but I can't. I didn't dare to do that for him.
After 15 minute. I hear the car. And I know he is come. And than I walk to the downstairs and open the door for him. And than started to walk to my room again. We didn't talk. He follow me and when we reach my room he look at my whole mess up room. He did want to talk but that he's eyes landed to him. He walk to him and stood front of him .
" What happened to you ." He ask him. But Tony didn't said anything to him.
" He catch Lily to kissing Jacob.." i tell him. And he look at me and than he got angry.
" I will kill that bastard.. " he said. And look hold to Anthony. And we both see than Tony fall to he's knee. And I run to him to help him. But Chase hold him. He grab him. Both arm and again help him to stoop up. But he can't. He don't have that energy to do that.
I help Chase. And we both are help him with he's arm. And we both are left my room. And than after that I help Chase to get him in he's car. And after that when we done. Chase getting he's car. He wants to talk. To say somthing. But than again. I nodded with my head. And walk to my house. After that he started the car. And drive away.
I reach my house. And than I clean all mess. Clean all blood. I feel hurt. I am thinking about him I hope he can move on. And don't do things that make himself hurt.
Somewhere in my heart. I do care about him. I know what he did to me. But still I can't look at him like this. I want him to be fine happy. Even looking at him with Lily. I know it is make me hurt but than I see he's smily face. I forget about my pain.
Sometimes seeing that person who is not going to be yours. Happy with that person who make him happy. Than we have to leave them not to make more complicated that person's life. We have to let go that person. And accept the truth. And I did accept that. But than again I see him hurt. Broken. I feel like crying. I hope he is fine. I hope Chase will take good care of him. And make him to forget about everything.
Thinking all of this. I close my eyes and sleep..
but didn't know that after this night my life will be change that fast..