" Anthony.." I whisper him. After making each other to love to us. Show us that how much we both mean to be. And I will never forget that. I am happy that he also feel the same I feel about him. He humm me when he hear my voice. He pull me closer to him and Hugging me tight. He is sleeping.
" We have to stop this. " I tell him. And than he snap he's thought and open the eyes. And looking at me. Waiting for me to further.
" I can't do this anymore. I don't like it all this. Hiding to everyone. Hiding to Lily. She loves you. And I know that she will take care of you in your whole life. And stick by your side life time. We both know that we don't want to know this to her. Or hurt her. You are is everything to her. She have only you. And she is happy with that. She just want from you to loyal to her. And don't hurt her. And knowing her. She is perfect girl to you. And I don't want that you guys part us away because of me. And i don't want to be reason to your breakup. " I tell him. He look at me. And he understand me.
" Is that is the reason or there is somthing you want to tell me.. " he ask me. And I look at him. Yes there is. I fall for you hard. And it's hurting me. I can't do it. When I know that you are not even mine. When we both already know it will be end one day but I still fall for you and I can't stop myself to stay away from you any more.. I want to say to him. But I can't. I shake my head and said no to him. I don't want him to hold back.
" I can't do that.. " he said to me.. before I said somthing. He again spoke.
" I do giving her World everything what she want. But I don't feel about her what i feel about you. I know we made deal. But I also know that you are the one who handled me perfectly. I understand that the way you both are friends and get closer to each other. And you don't want to lose her friendship I known she is the cute girl. I still can't believe that she is fall for guy like me. I don't deserve her. She deserve more but not me." He said to me.
" No Anthony. You also deserve more than this. And I know once I am get out to from this. You will see that how much she loves you. And you love her that why you guys dated don't you.. " i told him. I don't want to cry this time I have to be strong.
" I do know she loves me and I did make her happy can't you see. Can't you hear that what I said. You make me happy.. " he want to argue with me ignoring what I told him and i know this is not going to end bad. Not like I thought that it will go..
" Anthony.." i said he's name. And he look at him. And I look at him. I kiss him. To know him that he also make me happy. I feel the same the way he feel about me. But I can't do it anymore.
" I can't.." i said. " I can't do it anymore. I can't share you with her. I can't see you with her kissing touching. I know that she is your girl. But I don't like it. And I don't want to hurt. And like we made deal. If we got our partners we can stop this. And we can continue our life with them. And forget out this. " I tell him.
" And I think. There is someone who wanted to make me happy. Who wanted to take care of me. And i want to give him chance. I want to try this. " I tell him. He look hurt. And Angry at me. he want to fight with me. But he do understand that. There is not future of us. And one day we will be part away. And there is no way we can be do. We have to accept this. And go on with our life's.
" So it's about him. Right. And I thought you genuinely care about Lily." Now the old Tony is back. And I sigh.
" I know that. I know it that you will leave me when you get good.." before he complete he's sentance and we ended dirty. I cut him of.
" You and me both know that what we are. What we feel for each other. Don't said anything that you will regret this later. When you know the truth. I Don't want to end this dirty. I want to end this to maturely. Because we both now in same group and same friend's. And I don't want them part away because of us. " I tell him. And he control he Angry. I am waiting for him. To say somthing that I stop. And change my mind.
" Fine. Fine. You want to end it. Let's end it. And get the hell out of my life. Never ever try to interfere my business. I want you to stay far away for me do you understand. And if I see that you and than your lover boy. Front of me doing something that i don't like it. I swear I will kill that bastard. Now get out before I said somthing that you can't handle.. " he said to my angrily. I don't want to go. But he push me away from him.
" Get the hell out from here Medelline. After that week. I don't want you see you near me.. you understand that.. " he said to me and I nodded with my head.
" Do you understand that.." he again said.
" Yes.." I said and than I grab my clothes.
" Now get out.." he said. And than I did what he told me. I am still nake. When I get out from there. I stand there. And wear my clothes. And walk to the kitchen. Grab glass of water and drink it.
I clam myself. And than left the kitchen and want to our bed. When I get in Jacob pull me into him. He still sleeping. I didn't say anything or do but try to sleep. But I can't.
After this week. I will maintain my distance with him. No one know about this. I don't want to know this.
Next day we go to school. And than I again tell guys that I am going to library. And this time in real I spend my time to library. Doing my homework. Try to forget about our conversation what happen between us.
Now there is nothing going to be happen Between us. No more secrets. No nothing. And that make me worry free.
After that lunch girls do tell me about pool party. Which I am finding reason to ditch them. And I know the perfect reason.
After school. I tell Jacob that I want some my things to get. Which I forget. And I will be come by myself. So they don't have to worry about it. And girl's are looking at me suspensivly. But they agree with me. They know sometimes I forget things.
When I reach home. I take long bath.. which I needed it now. It make me relax. Clam myself down. I forgot all this things all this worry. Just enjoy this peaceful silent.
After enjoying my great bath. I change into my comfortable cloths. And than I started to cook. To kill the time my friends are text me and call me. I tell them I will be there. Plus I do tell them you start the party I will be there on time and they did started there pool party. I told them enjoy. I will be join soon assure them that I really want that. And enjoy with them. I really do. But I don't want to spoil he's mood. I am ready to sacrifice everything for him. I want him to be happy. I want him to be forget me and live he's life with Lily.
After making pasta for me I started to search best colleges for me. And who are away to my home. I want to get out from this. Now or later I do have to think about it. Why not now. I apply best colleges. And than close my laptop.
I check time it's 10 o'clock. I think it's time to go there. I grab some of food. And drinks. So i can apologize to them. I do have there couple of calls and messages which I still didn't see it. When I reach he's mantion. I grab all stuff. And get in the house.
The whole house is empty. But I do hear some laughter to pool side. I didn't west my time and walk there.
" Look who's finally come. Where the hell are you Maddi.." Becca said. And i look at everyone. They all are happily enjoy there time Jacob run to me when he saw me. And I smile at him. He hug me and give me pack of my lips.
" Finally I getting bored when they all are started to makeout. Ughhh it's gross." He said making face. And I laugh.
" Sorry. When I am on my way. My car punctured. So that's why i am late. And I don't want to guy's to worry about it so that why I didn't pick up anyone calls. Hope you understand that.. after that for make up I brought food for us.. so we all can eat it together together. " I tell them.
" At least tell me once. I did pick you up you know.. " Jacob said.
" It's oky Jacob see I am here now. " I tell him. Chase come to me and hug me.
Jacobs grab all this things. And than all are come out to the pool..
" My little lier sister. " He said to my ear. Which I ignore him and broke the hug.
" At least you come. I thought you are not going to come." He said to me. And I look at him and give him smile.
" If anything happen. Or anything you need you know i am always here for you." He said to me I hug him again.
" I know.." i tell him broke the hug. And kiss he's cheecks.
" Meddi you can't kiss my man.." Becca come to us. And joke around.
" It's your man Becca. And Seriously he is not even my type.. " i tell her. And she rolle her eyes.
" Come on guys let's grab the food." Zoe said and we all are walk there and enjoy our time.
" I can't wait to tomorrow. By the way. Anyone decide that who's going to sing which song.. " jake said. And I totally forgot about it.
" I don't know. But it's karoke. We will be get this. " Lily said. And I agree with her.
" The whole school going to show up. And I hope that you guys have good test in song. And not to bore me.. " Becca said.
" Right. I can't wait for tomorrow. By the why guys who's going to stay home for help to decorate this house. It's Halloween guys " Chase said.
" Ohh yeahh I forgot that part. But I am totally in. I am the queen of this type of stuff I like to arrange and decorating. You know every Christmas i am the only one in charge of decorate to tree. And everyone llike it. " Becca said. And we agree on this.
" I am out. I don't ditch. Plus my mom will be kill me." I tell them.
" Ohh yeahh. We have nerd in our group.. " Jake said.
" Ohh shut up at least i am not dumbo like you.. " I snap back.
" Okky guys now I don't want my boyfriend and my best friend fight with each other are we... " Zoe said. And we all stop eating food.
" What.. " me and Becca yelled in shock..
" You hear me or should I repeat it again." She siad and give us smile and nodded with her head.
" Ohh my god.. I can't believe this.. finally.. " i tell her. And broke the hug and run to Jake and jump on him.
" You idiot basterd you didn't even tell me this. I fucking kill you. You fucker. I am you best friend" I tell him and punch him to he's arm
" But one this is that. If you hurt her I will kick you ass.. also we both know you have small ass. " I joke at him. And he glance at me.
" Stop there. I will push you in pool." He threaten me. And I don't want that. So I hug him and kiss he's cheeck. And than like this we talk talk and joke around and soend our time. And than quickly said our good night to each other. And than leave our room. One day more..