She felt kinda cold, but then it became warm. It feels so harsh then it becomes gentle. It seems rushing but she also feels like it's savoring the moment. She felt a pang of pain then afterwards it was ecstasy.
What is this? Is this what it feels to die? Do you really need to feel all kinds of contradictory feelings before dying? She doesn't know, anyway this would be the first time she would die huh? Would there be a second death? Tsk, until the end she's really an idiot.
After like forever, she felt so tired, she's now losing her consciousness, this is it. Finally, everything will end. Goodbye to the only man I loved, goodbye to the boy whom I was not able to give my whole heart with. I hope my life would be enough to gain their forgiveness, she thought before being succumbed by the darkness.
Pain, that's all she's feeling right now, maybe she's in hell now, who told her to kill herself? Then suddenly she felt difficulty in breathing, it seems like something heavy is on top of her chest, huh?! Breathing?! How come?! Can dead people still breathe? Maybe it's another punishment for killing herself, God might have given her the ability to breathe even if she's dead so she would feel sorry for what she did.
After convincing herself that it was normal for dead people to breathe she felt so cold, hell should feel extremely hot right? Then why is she feeling cold on her upper body? Then like a cold water that woke her up, she heard a groan, she opened her eyes. Where is she? What place is this?
She was sure that she's dead, she shot herself when she "kidnapped" the new mom of her son. So what is this now? Where is she?
Then like a cue, she felt a splitting headache, then there was like a video that ran on her mind, the fudge?! Is this for real? She transmigrated?! The body belongs to a girl named Nina Montenegro, really? They both have the same name and surname, what the f*ck is happening? Then she tried to get up but she felt that there's a heavy object that stops her from moving, then she remembered the reason why she suddenly woke up, it's hard to breathe and it's kinda cold. Then she tried to move the heavy object away from her body but she realized that it wasn't an ordinary object. It was a motherf*cking arm! It was a little dark but she's sure that this is an arm! She turned her head on the other side of the bed, f*ck, not again! There's a man beside her, she can't see the face due to darkness so she doesn't know if the man is handsome or ugly but this is not the point! So the feeling of pain and pleasure and all the other stuff wasn't a punishment from hell but a real life situation, and why is she always caught up with this kind of incident?! No, no, no, she destroyed her previous life because of the same situation, she won't destroy herself the second time around.
So she carefully moved outside of the bed, picked up her clothes on the floor then dressed up as quietly as she could then she tiptoed on her way out. She tried to cover her face using her jacket's hood so no one would see her face.
While walking, she's trying to sort out the previous owner's memory, her parents died in a car crash when she was 10 leaving her, the only child alone. She doesn't have any close relatives who would adopt her so she was sent to an orphanage. Although her parents are not that rich, they made sure that their only daughter would be able to have an easier life through their life savings but she would only be able to get a hand on these savings when she turned 18 and this was the reason why "she" went out yesterday because yesterday was her 18th birthday. She wanted to tell her childhood sweetheart, Phillip, that she can now help him finish his studies so she hurriedly went to his apartment only to see him making out with another woman, she still heard the woman saying that they shouldn't do what they are doing because he already has a girlfriend but her sweetheart just said that he doesn't love her, he was just with her because "she" was too clingy and he just pitied her. This broke the previous owner who was already feeling so inferior, so instead of hitting the faces of the adulterous pair she just went to a bar. It was her first time to drink alcohol so with just two drinks, she already felt dizzy, and even though she still feels sad, she's still afraid of getting drunk outside so she hurriedly went out of the bar but she feels more unsafe to ride a taxi home then she saw the hotel in front of the bar so she booked a room then she remembered going inside her designated room after that she hurried to the bathroom then vomited until all she can taste was acid she then took a bath and cleaned her body because she can't stand her smell, and because she felt hot due to the alcohol that she drank, she didn't bother to put clothes, she just threw all her clothes and laid on the bed she didn't know how long she was lying when somebody got on her bed and did all those mosaic scenes.
Stupid previous owner! From the reaction of the body from alcohol Nina is sure that when the previous owner laid on the bed the body which was alcohol free for 18 years developed alcohol allergy which caused the owner to be breathless thus causing death then she doesn't know what kind of miracle happened which made her take over this supposedly dead body.
She followed the memory of the previous owner when she told the taxi driver the address of the previous owner's house she was then sent to a 30 square meter house. This house was bought using the money she received every birthday she had since her parents died. Her parents made an arrangement to the bank to send her certain amount of money on each of her birthdays so she can have a little pocket money but because the original owner was considered to be a stupid genius nerd, she didn't need money for tuition, scholarships came to her and when she reached her 16th birthday she was already a computer engineer graduate. But because she was not yet on legal age to work, she continued studying for her masters degree.
So, as a gift for herself, she bought this house and left the orphanage. It was not hard for her to leave that place because she doesn't feel welcomed there. The kids there didn't like her that much, maybe because she was silent all the time, the caretakers didn't bother about her because they felt like she would not be able to be adopted by any rich family due to her silent cowardly attitude.
The only person she was reluctant to leave in that orphanage was Phillip, the only light on her dark days. She knew him ever since she stayed at that orphanage. Like her, he lost his parents in a car crash. His mom used her body as a cushion for him but even though her mom caught the impact for him, he still received a two inches scar across the corner of his left eye. The original owner didn't find that wound unsightly; instead, she found it manly. That was the reason why he became close to her. Other kids were afraid of him, only she had the guts to say that the scar wasn't ugly. That was the start of their friendship and when she turned 16,they became lovers. He was the only one who was willing to be with her even though she was introverted making her give whatever she had to him. Part of what she receives on her birthdays would go to Phillip, the original owner doesn't feel wrong giving Phillip that money because she felt that as lovers, whatever she had belonged to her boyfriend but as a bystander, Nina can see that Phillip used the vulnerability of the owner. She wasn't sure when Phillip changed his mind to use the owner because somehow, Nina was sure that the first encounter of the two were pure.
Anyway, Phillip will no longer be part of her life, and as a respect for the original owner's life, Nina will not hurt Phillip unless he jumps in front of her to annoy her, this would be her bottom line for this matter.
She then went inside the house and she must say that this house is a typical nerd house that you can imagine. Dark curtains, packs of chips and take-out food can be seen on the table, piles of books and a highly calibrated computer, there is no other room aside from the bathroom. Although there are a lot of things around, everything is neat and in order. The piles of books were neatly sorted, the packs of chips were sorted according to color, the take-out food is piled into a stack. The pillows on the couch were neatly arranged, the blanket was folded into cute tofu form the small kitchen is also clean, the plates and cups were sorted according to size. Well, all in all this is a nice little house.
The first thing she wanted to do is to take a bath because like the previous owner, she can't stand the smell of alcohol so she hurriedly went to the bathroom and peeled off her clothes and took a shower. While washing, she saw all the marks left due to the original owner's craziness, anyway, she can't blame the owner for acting that way because she too became crazy because of the man she loved…
She just shrugged that empty feelings away then looked at the mirror, she was slightly startled to see the face on the mirror, it was almost exactly her face before transmigration aside from the fact that this body is 6 years younger than her previous one, the eyes are slightly bigger than her previous ones making her appear innocent and delicate everything is almost the same just don't look at the skin complexion right now because she is sure that the yellowish color was due to lack of proper nutrients. Anyway, since she took over this body, she will make sure to keep it healthy.
After she took a bath, she took clothes from the closet and was no longer shocked to see that even the clothes here are sorted according to type and color, now Nina is sure that the previous owner has a mild Obsessive Compulsive disorder just like her.