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LUCIA'S POV
I was in my room looking at the ceiling while holding my tummy. After I got discharged we moved to a new apartment and start the new living. I informed my dad that I was pregnant and had no husband beside me.
At first, I thought he'll get mad but he understands what just happened to me. I was blessed because I have very lovable and good parents. Though they left me in Batanes alone they still don't forget how I was to them and been loved by the same.
Every morning was the same scene I did just like before. This was my routine every day I woke up every day vomiting and went to sleep feeling the pain in my chest. Before it was a struggle for me and sometimes I cried when I felt that it was a tiring doing. I can't help but have hopes sometimes,
that what if Leo and I didn't break up, are we still gonna have this baby?
What if I forgive him that time, am I not gonna felt this way? am I not gonna suffer this?
Instead of thinking about everything even if I know it won't gonna happened again. I spend my whole day cooking for food and sell it online.
While I was pregnant I used to do this because it helps me to earn my own money for preparation for giving birth to my baby.
I know it's hard, but I'll do my best to be a perfect mother for my child.
I know that one day this child I have right now will make my dreams come true and we will conquer it together.
I just hope Leo is doing fine and I wish that he'll forgive me for not telling him that we have an unborn baby. For him...I love you but the pain was unbearable.
Months passed so fast and everyone in the house was all excited. This is my last month and by anytime I'll give birth to a beautiful girl. She will complete and give color in my whole life.
Yes, she's a girl and I know how much I wish that she won't have the same history in her life.
I can and I will assure her that her mother will always guide her no matter what.
"Lucia come!" my best friend Keanna called. I walk slowly because my tummy is too heavy and I can't sit properly. Sometimes it hurts and I just felt that she wanted to see the world.
"King, what is it?" I asked her when I reach the door to my room. I saw her on the sofa holding three boxes of unknown things.
The one was covered by red velvet wrappers and the two boxes were covered in pink. I gave her a confused face and tried to hold the three boxes. She smiled at me full of excitement and admiration.
"What are those Keang?" I ask while unwrapping the first red velvet box. She just smiled at me still blinking her eyes cutely.
"Just take a look at it. I know you'll like it, Lucy." Keanna said while clapping her hands in the air.
When I opened the box I was shocked and speechless. I look at her with sad eyes because it's too beautiful.
"Hey! why? what? what happened? you don't like it?" Keanna said while full of worries in her face. I smiled at her at swallowing my head to answered her that I'm okay.
"No, I'm fine its just that... Keang it's too beautiful." I said while still looking at the red velvet baby's dress.
"That isn't too much because your baby deserves that dress." She said, I smiled at her and small teardrops slowly falling into my eyes. She automatically hugs me and caresses my back for me to calm.
"Your daughter is lucky. She's lucky to have a mother like you Lucia, she'll grow the same as you." she continues
"I'm also lucky to have a best friend like. Without you and my family, I won't survive in this situation." I said while still thanking her for being a good and supportive best friend to me.
"Ohh god Lucia, what are bestfriends for hu? I'm here with you to fulfill what Leo's missed. I'll be here if you'll need anything despite everything that happened." she answered while laughing.
Weeks passed and I'm now waiting for my little angel to come out and see how God's creation is beautiful.
I was in the dining area when I felt something in my lower part. At first, I thought it was just a usual feeling but in a few seconds, it hurts more and more.
"Ahh!" I shouted while still holding the walls to have the force and not to fall. When I was about to fall on the floor my mother with my best friend run towards me with the eyes of panicking.
"Lucia! Oh my god!" My mom uttered while helping me to stand and trying to calm me down.
"Hello? Yea, Yes I need help here in room 0467. Yes! My best friend is going to give birth and we don't know what to do... Yea, may okay we'll wait." I heard Keanna's voice while talking to someone on his phone.
Before my gaze turns into black I saw 3 people who were running towards us and tried to put me in a mini bed. I only remembered leaving our unit and going inside the ambulance.
"She'll be awake in any second." I heard someone said it, I think it was the doctor who said those words.
I woke up because of the pain I felt in my thighs and it became more painful when I felt something falling in my legs.
Jesus...
"Ahh!" I shouted and they were all shocked and panicking again. My mom held my hand to give me support and force.
"Bring her in the labor room." the doctor declares to her nurses. I was still in the bed while they're pushing the bed and bring me to the labor room. I saw a couple of nurses and two OB doctors.
"Mrs. Diaz you need to calm before you push the baby." the doctor advised me while I'm still adjusting from the pain it caused.
"Can my best friend assist me here?" I ask them weakly. I'm losing my force and I can't breathe properly.
"Yes, Mrs. Diaz we can allow that. Call her best friend and tell her to enter this room," she commands the other nurses.
About 20 seconds my Keanna was beside me helping me to push the baby and deliver her safely.
"Push!" the doctor shouted
"Ahh!!!!" I screamed when I felt the baby's head coming out. "I-I-I ca-can't do it," I uttered weakly and can't speak properly. Keanna held my hand tight to give me more power to push the baby.
"Lucia! You can do it!" She shouted to cheer me up and give me some force to push it.
"Ahhhhhhhhh!!!" I shouted at last and slowly I lay down my head. I felt Keanna's smile while looking at the baby who now crying loudly. The pain was worth it when you already saw your daughter and held her with your open arms.
"You're now a mother Mrs. Diaz, congratulations." the doctor declared while wrapping the baby in the towel and slowly she put it on my chest. I cried because of happiness that even if someone slapped me I won't felt pain.
"Baby, mommy Keanna is here," she said in a small tone while caressing my daughter's small face. I smiled and the doctor gets my baby because they need to stitch mine.
I woke up because of the noise, I heard my mom said: "Lucia is awake". I held my tummy to feel its normal shape.
When I opened my eyes I saw my mom and dad smiling while daddy was holding my little angel. Dad went closer to me and slowly he put my baby in my right chest.
"Oh my god, oh my god!.." Lourie shouted when she entered the room. I laughed because of her reaction and she kissed my forehead before she turned her eyes into my baby.
"What is her name?" she asked.
"Jael Felyn" I answered while playing with my daughters' tiny fingers. I saw how they're happy to see me having now the child that I've been carrying for almost 9 months. The struggles are real but at the same time, it was all worth it.
"Beautiful name. Thank you for giving her birth safety, Lucia." My Dad uttered and held my hand for the third time. Mom also went closer to me to kiss my baby's forehead.
"She'll be like you when she grows up. Jael will grow beautiful and kind just like you darling." my mom said. I just smiled at them and tried to talk to my little Jael.
After a small talk with them, mom and dad went out to buy me some food for dinner. Keanna went to the registration area for the newborn babies to fill up some forms.
Lourie also went home because she needs to study for the last exams they'll have tomorrow. She took up law and by this year she'll graduate and by next month she will take the bar exams for lawyers.
Lourie wasn't there when I give birth because she was busy completing her projects in their last sem. They all need to complete it before their graduation.
I was happy because she was able to conquer her dreams when she finally graduated. While me, I'll just need to become more careful and patient because I have now a child.
When I was still pregnant I already told them that I'll continue college a month after I give birth to my angel. I know it would be hard for me to wake up and feed Jael while I'm studying.
Everything will be okay when you trust God's will. I always have the thoughts of being strong and don't let problems pull me down.