She was standing on her patio after having breakfast with Jacob. She saw Jacob's concern when he noticed that she barely touched her food. He refused to leave her, but she managed to convince him that she would be fine.
The sun was already up, but she did not see the beauty of it. The sky was clear and the ocean was calm, but she was beyond acknowledging it. The wind was picking up, blowing the short tendrils of her hair, but she barely felt it.
She was blinded and numbed by the thoughts that were going through her mind. She had played several scenarios on how she was going to confess to him. Trying to find the best one that would make him forgave her for her deceits, but none seemed to be good enough.
For almost half an hour of just staring at nothing in particular, she still felt that all her plans were doomed to fail. Apologizing or even groveling at his feet would never be enough. Thinking about it, she could not even forgive herself for doing it.
