Chapter 38
RAE KELLER
As I settled behind the counter, watching this man with a wicked face but a very loving heart walk around, trying to make whatever he had in mind for us, I kept wondering if I could be happy, if I was allowed to smile and laugh, if my heart was allowed to beat fast with happiness and shock and lust and every other overwhelming feeling that I seemed to always get whenever I was near him.
Could I let myself be happy? Even if it was just for tonight? Could I allow myself that happiness even while my daughter was stuck in an orphanage?
Gods, I really wanted to smile tonight, even if it was all for him. He had tried so hard for me and it would kill me if I did not react in the way I would normally.
