Seeing that his past where in the grave and holding on to the past won't bring him to a closure with anyone.
He watch the rain pour down. Looking at a cross on the ground and ten graves that he dig for those who was still there.
When John pick up the bodies. He felt that there bodies was cold and wet. Seeing if there eyes have any life in it.
They didn't. It freighting him and seeing this even bring him more pain.
Wilfer at the time couldn't say anything to him. Watching as if he said anything. John couldn't hear him.
"I may not know you, but I will speak because you may was afraid of dying. Who isn't afraid of dying even without doing anything to change the situation. But even if you didn't you try to live and that is good enough to do in this world. Because, you feed your families and make sure that they live happy lives and that is spreading kindness, and that I thank you for doing that."