I spent a while thinking about Nathan's friends.
I couldn't help but jerk off before going to sleep at night imagining myself getting used by the three of them. The thought of them giving into their secret fantasies and finally getting to do something to me after lusting after me for years… God, it was so hot to think about.
After taking about a good week to do my own thing and think about what I wanted to do, I finally decided to take my plans into action.
I flopped backwards on my bed and composed a draft message in my phone, and set it to send to Kyle, Farid, and Eric individually.
"Hey, my parents aren't home Saturday night," I wrote out. I decided to be forward and get to the point. "Maybe you would want to come over for a quick hookup at around 8pm?"
I was a bit hesitant to send it, wondering if maybe it was too forward. But I decided to hit send before I could think twice about it, and immediately felt my heart begin to beat faster in my chest.
I took a deep breath and just stared at the ceiling, trying not to overthink it. C'mon, you're not the prude and pure pretty virgin people think you are, I tried to tell myself. Yeah! You're a whore who likes being used, a camboy who likes to be watched and admired, a dirty slut who loves being passed around like a toy.
I heard my phone chime and vibrate in my hand, and I saw a reply from Eric. "Sure, I'm not doing anything then. :) I would love to come over. Should I bring anything?"
I smiled as I typed out a reply. "No, don't worry about that. Just keep an open mind, I want to try something a bit different." I hit send and sighed before staring up at the ceiling. Eric's pretty vanilla… Maybe he wouldn't be into trying anything new, I thought to myself.
After waiting for a few minutes, I got a reply from Eric. "Something different? I hope I'll be able to keep up… As long as you teach me, right? :) I'll be there. See you then."
I smiled to myself. Okay, we got one in. Now I just have to wait for the other two.
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I had a bit of time before I had to get ready for work. I decided to make a simple plain sandwich for lunch and watch some television. There was some kind of big fashion show in France happening at the moment. I wonder what it would be like to be a model, I thought to myself, taking a bite of my dry sandwich. A slender man walked down the runway in avant-garde fashion with makeup to match. I think I'd probably make a good model…
I suddenly heard my phone chime and felt it vibrate, seeing a new message from Farid. I went into the app to see the message. "Sounds great to me, pretty boy. I had to fit you into my busy schedule, so you should feel flattered. You live a bit far, but I'll drive all the way down just for you. ;) Have you thought about what I suggested about making a movie together? ;)"
"No, it's not like that, but it is something kind of unorthodox. I want you to keep an open mind about it," I typed out before sending.
I took another bite of my sandwich, watching a beautiful woman walk down the runway in a high fashion gown on the television before feeling my phone vibrate again. "I'm curious as to what you have planned. You're a bit kinky, aren't you? I like that about you. You're quiet, but full of surprises. See you Saturday. ;)"
Okay, so I have Farid and Eric confirmed… Now I just have to wait for Kyle, I thought to myself. I wonder what their reactions will be when they all see each other. Thinking about it made me snicker out loud.
I finished my sandwich as I continued to watch television before cleaning up and getting ready for work.
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I was at work, performing as usual, waiting for the time to slowly count down. I didn't have a shift with Wyatt or Katelyn that day, so I didn't have much to keep me entertained. I just tried to muscle through the first half of my shift before I could finally go on break.
I finally got to clock out for my break, and I immediately headed to the bathroom. I checked my phone that I hadn't checked since before my shift started. It was a reply from Kyle, and it seemed that he attached a photo.
I opened the messaging app to see the message stream with Kyle, blinking when I saw that he sent me a photo of him holding his erect cock, along with the message; "U want this so bad, dont u, little whore"
I couldn't help but roll my eyes at his response. The photo was taken with flash on, so it had that snuff film quality to it that made me grit my teeth. "That doesn't answer my question," I typed out before sending it.
I put my phone back in my pocket before washing my hands and drying them, heading to the back room so I could sit down and relax for a bit. I checked my phone again, seeing another response from Kyle. "I'll be there. What R we doing?"
I typed out my answer. "It's a surprise. Just keep an open mind," I finished typing before sending.
Kyle responded almost immediately. "As long as I get my dick down ur throat," is all he said, which made me roll my eyes again.
I deleted the dick pic from Kyle, as I didn't want to have to be greeted with that each time I opened our message stream. I opened up my ebook app so I could continue reading Boy Cupid. At this point in the book, the main character had slept with around fourteen different girls all in a span of a month, in what he believed to be taking away the pain of heartbreak.
I took a moment to think about myself. Well, it's not fourteen, but I fooled around with all three of Nathan's best friends in a matter of only a few weeks, so I guess that counts for something. I felt proud of myself. There's nothing wrong with some temporary sexy fun, right? I can get any man to lust over me without barely doing a thing. I'm no longer the innocent pretty boy everyone thinks is some kind of angel.
I snickered to myself. I'm just a sexy boy succubus. And I love it.
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The day had finally come. I was lounging on the couch in the living room, dressed in a loose T-shirt and shorts, scrolling through social media on my phone as I waited until eight. I was so excited for the boys to come over…
I hummed quietly as I mindlessly kept liking posts on my feed. I heard the sounds of cars pulling up outside, and I looked through the blinds to see three cars parking along the curb. The three men emerged from each car, all seemingly confused as to why each other were here. It seemed to lead into a bit of a bicker between them in the middle of the street, which made me smirk to myself.
They all came walking up to the porch of my house, in which I quickly moved away from the window and heard the sound of the doorbell being repeatedly rung. I walked over to the front door to open it with a smile. "Hey," is all I said, seeing a mix of confusion, irritability, and disappointment on the faces of all three men.
"You better have a good explanation for why you brought all of us here," Kyle said as he crossed his arms and gave me an annoyed look. I stepped back and gestured for them to come in. "Yeah, yeah. Just come in and follow me," I said, leaving the door open for them. They took their shoes off in the foyer before I led them down the hallway and to my bedroom.
"So, you're gonna tell us why the hell you invited us all over?" Farid asked. He didn't seem upset, but he seemed rather curious. I closed the door and sat on my bed while the three men only looked at me, awaiting an answer.
I smiled at them, crossing my legs. "Why do you think?" I asked them, raising a brow. "You're all here for one thing, yeah?"
The three took a moment to figure out what was going on. Farid widened his eyes and gasped when he figured it out, while Eric just blushed and shyly rubbed the back of his neck as he looked down at the floor. Kyle sat in my desk chair and had to take a bit longer to think, and his brows knit in anger when he put the pieces together. "I'm not having a foursome with these two idiots," he coldly spat.
I almost wanted to laugh, since Kyle was clearly the biggest idiot out of all of them. "I wasn't planning on that… I actually wanted the three of you to share me."
The three of them seemed to be confused as to what I meant by that. "Does that mean no foursome?" Farid asked, seeming to be slightly disappointed as Kyle shook his head and rolled his eyes. "Only in your dreams."
"Come on, you know you want a piece of this," Farid teased him, winking as Kyle pretended to vomit. "Fuck you, bro. I'm not into that gay shit."
Farid's face twisted in confusion. "Then why did you come here?"
"Cody's different, he's basically a girl."
"Are you idiots done? I didn't invite you all over here to argue," I said in an annoyed tone. Kyle and Farid shut up, while Eric was seemingly quiet, still awkwardly standing there twiddling his thumbs.
"Why are you doing this?" Eric shyly asked. "N-not that there's anything wrong with it, I respect your hustle and all… But I'm really curious."
I tapped my chin in thought. "Well… In the words of Kyle himself, nineteen is the age of experimentation, isn't it?" I quoted, winking at Kyle.
"The fuck are you talking about?" Kyle asked, looking at me as if I had three heads. "Can we get to the part where you're sucking my dick already?"
I rolled my eyes and ignored him. "Anyway, you all probably figured out by now that I've hooked up with all of you, so I decided it would be fun if I invited you all over," I explained. "Don't worry. You won't be touching each other, you'll just all be touching me. That sound good?"
The three looked at each other in question, and they all seemed to shrug or nod. I smiled. "No objections? Good." I reached for the bottom of my shirt before slipping it off over my head. "But before we get to that, how about if I get you all nice and aroused with a bit of a show?"
I bit my lip as I looked at the three of them, my hand slowly sliding down my body as I groped myself through my shorts. They seemed to become interested now, watching me attentively while I rubbed myself and let out soft sighs.
I slowly slid my shorts down my legs, letting them drop to the floor as I rubbed my dick through my underwear with one hand while I held myself up on the bed with the other arm. I parted my lips and let out little whimpers and moans as the three men seemed very much interested, as if watching a porn movie right in front of their eyes.
I continued to tease myself with my hand, feeling myself getting harder from knowing the men were watching me, wanting me, needing me. Farid licked his lips and I could see himself growing hard in his pants, Eric was blushing wildly as he just watched with curious wide-eyes, while Kyle leaned back in the chair and was smirking, openly palming himself through his sweatpants. "Take it off already, bitch," he muttered to me, the other two men looking at him questioningly.
I softly chuckled. "So eager. You're really a pervert, Mr. Bridges," I teased, slowly pulling down the waistband of my briefs before letting my cock free, tossing my underwear aside. I pulled my knees up and spread my legs, exposing my ass, balls, and dick all for their viewing pleasure.
"Fuck yeah," Kyle said, groping himself harder through his pants. "You're so fucking cute, and I fucking love those freckles on your ass. God, I want to fuck you until you're screaming my name."
"You're really verbal, aren't you?" Farid asked with a bit of amusement in his voice. "Never knew you were like that."
"Shut up. Just look at him, he's fucking gorgeous," Kyle insisted, as I stuck my tongue out playfully at them.
Farid smirked, lightly groping himself. "You're definitely right about that. I swear, I'd pay just to get one night to do whatever I want with him. Don't you agree, Eric?"
Eric was taken aback by the sudden question. "D-definitely," is all he could muster to say, blushing and smiling to himself.
I spat into my hand before grabbing my dick with a whimper, slowly stroking myself as the three watched me with lust in their gazes. It felt so good to touch myself like this with three handsome men watching me, I really felt like such a whore. I felt powerful.
Kyle undid the drawstring of his pants before pulling them down his hips along with his underwear, pulling out his cock as he began to jerk himself off while watching me. I was surprised he would really just whip it out like that, but it didn't really matter to me—all I wanted was to get them going, anyway.
I let out sighs and moans the more I tugged and squeezed my hard cock, my other hand moving down to cup my balls as I bit my lip and hummed wantonly in pleasure. Though Kyle was openly jerking himself, Farid seemed to only fondle himself through his pants, while Eric seemed much too embarrassed to touch himself even a little bit—but I could tell he was getting hard.
Poor boys, they want to get off so badly, I thought to myself as I moved my hand further downward, spreading my hole open, showing off the inside of my boy pussy as I felt my face heat up.
I took the fingers of my other hand into my mouth, sucking on them and getting them nice and wet before bringing them down my body, probing my fingers at my entrance as I gasped and shut my eyes, slowly pushing my fingers inside. I softly moaned as I felt myself clench around my moist fingers.
I began to finger myself, thrusting my fingers within myself as I kept letting sweet whimpers slip from my mouth while my other hand went back to jerking my cock. "Nnn… You all want me so badly," I whined out, arching my back off the bed with a sigh as I moved my hand that was jerking me faster. "I'm so pretty, you all want to take me, use me, fuck me…"
I was fully erect now, feeling both so shy but so damn naughty at the same time. I pulled my fingers from me and let go of my erection, shifting my body as I positioned myself on my knees. "Alright, all of you come here," I directed, pointing at the edge of my bed as the men followed. Farid excitedly stood on the left of me, Kyle stood in the middle as was still jerking himself off, and Eric shyly shuffled his way to my right side.
I beckoned them to come closer as they moved in. "Okay… Whose cock will I be sucking?" I asked, looking up at all of them.
"Mine, of course," Kyle said before the other two could say anything. I raised a brow. "Well, only if that's okay with the other two," I said.
Farid shrugged. "It would be nice to get sucked off, but seeing how excited Kyle is… He can have this one," he said with a nod.
I looked at Eric for his answer as well. He just awkwardly rubbed his arm and smiled nervously. "I'm fine with anything, I don't mind."
I smiled. "Okay… So take out your cocks," I said to them, before they obliged and undid their pants, pulling their erections out. I took Kyle's cock and rubbed my cheek against it as I looked up at him innocently. "You just want me all to yourself, don't you?" I asked him.
"Fuck yeah. I wish we could get rid of these two so I can rail you on this bed until you can't walk for weeks," Kyle muttered, grabbing a fistful of my hair as he rubbed his cock on my face.
I smiled. "Don't be like that, I'm gonna suck your dick, aren't I? You should feel lucky," I said before taking his hard member into my mouth, slowly sliding it down my throat. I was getting a lot better at deepthroating, practicing on vegetables for my stream viewers must have helped.
I grabbed the cocks of the other two in each hand, slowly stroking the both of them at the same time as they both let out moans at the contact. I let Kyle set the pace in my mouth, as he moved my head on him with his grip in my hair. He began to slowly move my mouth back and forth on him before picking up the pace, eager to get as much pleasure from me as possible.
I looked up at the men while I continued to work them with my mouth and my hands. They all looked so sexy with their different expressions—Farid was lost in his pleasure as he would bite down on his lip or moan and close his eyes with each squeeze I gave his cock, Kyle had a smug look on his face as he continued to sloppily fuck my mouth, while Eric was completely flushed and was sputtering out curses as I twisted my wrist and continued pleasing him with my hand.
Kyle pulled out his phone, turning it sideways before I heard the sound of the beginning of a recording. "I gotta film this shit. It's so fucking hot," he said as he pointed the phone camera down at me. I looked up into the camera, deciding to play it up as I fluttered my lashes and took Kyle's dick like a champ as he kept thrusting into my mouth. "Yeah, Cody's a good little bitch," he said with a chuckle. "Taking my dick down his throat like a whore."
"Don't get my cock into the shot, I'm shy," Farid teased, but Kyle shifted his eyes at him. "Hey, I'm the only one who's supposed to be talking while filming. Hearing your voice watching this later is gonna instantly kill my climax."
"Why are you filming, anyway? Weird as hell for that," Farid said in an annoyed tone.
"'Cause I fucking want to. I like taking pics and vids of whatever bitch I'm fucking. Makes nice fap material for later," Kyle said as he continued to thrust into my mouth, making me hum around his cock. He let me pull my mouth off of him, and I spat on it again. I opened my mouth and let my tongue lick the underside of his cock, up to the head before smiling and winking at the camera, going back to take him in my mouth again.
"Fuck…" Kyle muttered out. "You're really something else."
I continued to jerk the two boys quicker, stroking and tugging on their cocks. I could see pre-cum pooling at the tip of Eric's dick, while Farid was running a hand through his hair as he thrusted up into my hand. Kyle kept filming me as I continued moving my mouth back and forth on him as he kept thrusting into me, feeling the tip of his cock hitting the back of my throat with each heave. I could tell they were all getting close to their orgasm.
I let go of their cocks and moved my mouth off of Kyle's dick, as they all looked at me in disappointment. I gestured for Kyle to move back as he took a step back, and I shifted myself to move off of the bed and get down on my knees on the floor. "I want you all to cum on my face," I said sweetly.
"I admit, I've always wanted to do a group facial," Farid said with a smile as the other two men gave him a strange look. "What?" He asked them.
I shook my head before smiling at them again. I looked up at them with the cutest gaze I could give them, opening my mouth as they all moved in closer, pointing their cocks at my face as they all quickly jerked themselves while panting.
I watched them all, amazed at these beautiful men with gorgeous cocks jerking off to me, waiting for them to reach their climax and release their seed on my beautiful face. I began stroking myself as well, jerking myself quickly with my hand along with them.
And just like that, the three of them came—starting with the shy and vanilla Eric, who cried loudly in pleasure as he squeezed his cock as his cum splattered on my face as I shut my eyes, then the charming and handsome Farid, who let out a low 'fuck' as he ejaculated onto my face next, and lastly, the horny douchebag Kyle, who spurt out a heavy load that painted over most of my face and landed in my mouth. I came right along with them, feeling my body tremble as my mind went blank and my cock erupted with semen onto my hand.
I took a moment to catch my breath as I slowly opened my eyes, seeing Kyle snapping photos of me. "Fucking stunning. Like a work of art," he muttered lowly as he licked his lips, continuing to snap pictures, the other boys agreeing as they admired how gorgeous I looked with my face covered in their seed. I couldn't tell whose cum was whose, but the feeling and taste of the mixture of all the men's semen was amazing.
"Do I look pretty like this?" I asked the men, looking up at them with doe eyes and pouting my lip.
"Hell yeah, prettier than any fucking girl. Wish I could keep you and use your body whenever I want," Kyle commented with a smirk. Even though he would always say shit like that, it still made me feel good inside that he liked me so much to say something like that.
"You're beautiful, Cody. Seriously. I'm gonna be honest, out of all the men and women I've hooked up with, you're probably my favourite," Farid said, showing off his bright smile. "I still would love to collaborate with you again…"
I looked at Eric and he shyly scratched his head as his face flushed red. "Of course, Cody… I never thought I'd get to see you like this, but you've really awakened something within me, and taught me a lot about how fun sex can be."
I smiled at them before getting up, walking over to my clothes hamper to reach for a dirty T-shirt to wipe myself clean with. I tossed it back into the hamper before looking at the men. "Um… I didn't really plan this far ahead when I invited you all here," I admitted, sheepishly rubbing the back of my neck. "I don't really know what to do now. I don't have any food to offer, sorry."
"I was gonna leave anyway," Kyle said with a shrug, walking by me as he slapped my ass, making me yelp. "See you around, pretty boy. I'll show myself out. Make sure you see me again sometime," he said before walking out of my room.
I blushed before looking at the other two. Farid checked his phone and sighed. "I should probably get going, too. I just got a booty call text from one of my co-workers," he said as he winked at me. I raised a brow at him. "So… You're hopping from one hook-up straight to another?"
Farid ran a hand through his hair. "Hey, don't knock the hustle, am I right? You know how it is, Cody. Hit me up if you ever want to play around again," he said as he blew me a kiss, walking out of my room. I didn't really have the right to say anything about that, 'cause I was probably worse.
I shyly looked down before looking back at Eric, a moment of silence between us. "Are you going to head out, too?"
"I'd really love to stay, Cody…" He rubbed his arm and looked away, sighing. "But unfortunately, I still have a lot of paperwork to do for work waiting for me at home that I need to submit by tomorrow morning. I'm really sorry," he said in a sincere voice, as if he really did want to stay.
I shook my head and smiled. "Don't worry about it, Eric. Um…" I blushed deeper. "You guys won't tell Nathan about any of this, right?"
"I won't," Eric said with a nod. "I'll make sure the others won't either."
"Thank you," I said with a smile. I began to quickly dress back up before I walked Eric back to the front door of my house. He turned and smiled at me. "Th-thank you for inviting me, Cody. I had fun."
"I did too," I said with a nod. "I'll see you around."
Eric nodded back at me. "Yeah. See you, Cody," he said before I opened the door and let him out, closing the door behind him as I turned around and leaned back on the door with a deep exhale.
So… All that just happened. I smiled to myself. Now that I've got Nathan's friends under my spell, I wonder what will be next for me…
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I was definitely not ready for what was next for me.
I spent the next few weeks after my not-foursome with the boys doing my own thing and focusing on myself. Honestly, that sexual encounter with them lasted me for a good while, and I needed a break to just chill out and stay in my lane. I was an introvert after all, and I needed to recharge my social and sexual batteries.
I was feeling okay, spending my time focusing on my two jobs. It seemed that Wyatt and Katelyn may have begun dating, as I'd always see them flirting in their own way with each other whenever I had shifts with them.
Life was pretty okay, and I decided that soon I would have to make plans for what I would do after I was done recharging. Would I continue to see Nathan's friends? Should I try downloading an app to meet and hook up with new guys? Whatever I decide to do, I just want some fun. I don't want to get attached to anyone and end up heartbroken again.
It wasn't until I received a phone call one night that things in my life had definitely begun to change. It was an evening when I came home straight from working at the store, and I saw that I had a missed call from Nathan.
Nathan never called me, or even texted me for that matter. I gulped and began to feel a nervous buildup in my stomach, hoping that he didn't find out about what I didn't want him to know about.
I called him back, taking a deep breath as I heard the sound of two rings before he picked up. "Cody, hey," he said in a soft tone.
"Nathan, did you mean to call me earlier?" I asked him, laying down on my bed as I nervously played with the collar of my uniform shirt.
"Yeah, yeah I did," he said. A silent pause. "I wanted to talk to you about something, but not over the phone. It's… something I'd prefer to talk to you about in person. And not with mom and dad, just with you."
I closed my eyes for a moment and took a deep inhale. "Okay, so… Come over when you're free and we'll talk. Is it serious?"
He was silent for a little while before answering. "Yeah, a little bit. Look, I'll come over this weekend, if you're not working or anything. It's really important that I talk to you about this."
"Alright. This weekend it is," I said.
"Okay. See you then," is all Nathan said before he hung up. I sighed deeply and clapped my hands together, closing my eyes. Dear God… If you're listening, please don't let whatever Nathan wants to talk about be about the sinful acts I've committed with his friends. Amen. I did the sign of the cross in hopes that the lord would hear me.
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The day had finally come when Nathan and I would have our talk. I was pretty nervous, because he didn't tell me what he wanted to discuss other than that it was a topic much too serious to talk about over the phone.
The doorbell rang, and I took a deep breath before standing up from the living room couch and heading to the door to answer it. It was Nathan, standing there with a somewhat troubled look on his face. "Hey."
"Hey," I said back with a nod. "Who is it?" Our mother called out from the kitchen and I sighed. "It's Nathan, ma," I called back, and she quickly came over to the door and smiled when she saw him. "Nathan! What a lovely surprise."
"Hey, ma," Nathan greeted, the two taking a moment to hug each other. "What's got you dropping by?" She asked him.
"I'm gonna take Cody for a drive," Nathan said, gesturing to his car that was parked in our driveway. "There's something I wanna talk about with him."
"Oh? Well, drive safely," is all she said before nodding to both of us and returning to the kitchen as she hummed a happy tune.
I looked at Nathan. "A drive?"
He nodded. "Yeah. That way mom or dad don't eavesdrop or walk in on what we're going to be talking about," he said. "Now, let's go."
He began to walk off the porch and to his car as I sighed and followed. Why do I have a feeling that this talk isn't going to be a good one…
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Both of us were silent as Nathan drove. Nothing but the sound of the noisy pop music coming from the radio station that was on could be heard. I wanted to change it, but Nathan was probably into this kind of music.
I was just watching out the window as he drove along, my heart beating quickly in my chest out of anxiety.
"So," he finally said, stopping at a red light. "How have you been doing?"
"Okay," is all I said, propping my elbow up against the car door as I leaned my head on my hand.
"I see. That's good," he said with a nod, proceeding after the light turned green. "You're working at the grocery store near our high school, right?"
I sighed deeply. "Can we cut to the chase? I'm gonna go nuts over this useless smalltalk when there's clearly an elephant in the room."
Nathan sighed as well as he continued to drive along. "I'm just… Scared to ask about it."
"Well, you're scaring me by making it seem so ominous," I replied.
We both went silent again before Nathan pulled up to a parking spot in a plaza parking lot. "Alright, I'm going to ask," Nathan said before taking a deep breath, turning down the radio. "Did you… Have sex with Kyle, Farid, and Eric?"
I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my gut, as if I had been stabbed. I felt my body go numb as my head became dizzy. My worst fear became reality.
My silence must have answered for me, because Nathan continued. "Look, I just want to make sure they didn't force you to do anything that you didn't want to do, because if so, I'm definitely going to have some real issues with them."
"No, they didn't force me to do anything," I said, which was a little bit of a lie considering Kyle practically blackmailed me back at Nathan's party. "It was all consensual."
I tried not to look at Nathan and rather just stared out the window, but I could tell he was concerned. I felt extremely uncomfortable talking about this with him.
"Why?" He quietly asked, which immediately pissed me off. "'Why?' I don't know, because it's fun to fuck guys who've been admiring me for years, letting them have their way with me and making me feel like I'm special," I snapped. "And I know! I know maybe it's wrong to get attention that way, but god! I just want to be a slut!" I yelled it all out, letting out a deep sigh at the end as I felt my eyes tear up.
Nathan was silent for a while. "Cody…" He exhaled deeply. "I don't care about whatever lifestyle you choose. But are you happy living your life like this?"
"Of course I am," I said, yet I was beginning to cry. "Daniel and Julian only gave me heartbreak. That's what happens when I fall in love," I said, tears streaming down my face as I sniffled. "I just… Don't want to be the perfect little angel people expect me to be. I want to live life and have fun, because life's too short not to indulge in temporary bliss."
Nathan slowly nodded. "I see," is all he said before silence fell on us again. "Cody, I hope you know that I'll always support whatever you do. No matter what it is. I just want you to be happy," he said, placing a hand on my shoulder as I wiped my face with my sleeves.
"You don't care that I'm gay?"
He shook his head. "You're my little brother. I'll always love you no matter what," he said with a small smile. "I just don't want you to hurt yourself, physically or emotionally. But if this is what you want, it's not my place to tell you what you should or shouldn't do."
I took a moment to close my eyes and take a deep breath in before slowly exhaling. "How did you find out about me and your friends?"
Nathan took his hand away and sighed. "Last weekend I went out to a bar with them. We had some shots," he said. "I went to the bathroom, and when I came back, I overheard them talking about the… sexual encounter the four of you had, and how they would want to…" He cleared his throat. "'Fuck you again,'" he finished with air quotations before he shook his head. "I assumed that they had done something to you against your will. I cussed them out before walking out on them. I had to ask you myself first, because I would have done much worse to them if that was the case."
"Really?" I asked, genuinely surprised by his answer. He nodded. "Of course. They may be my best friends since elementary school, but if they ever laid a hand on you without your consent…" He clenched his fist. "Well, let's just say you'd never see them ever again."
I gave him a small smile. "Thank you, Nathan," I said. "We weren't really that close growing up, so I just assumed that you didn't care about me."
"Of course I care about you. I didn't mean to make you feel that way, it's just… I was really introverted. But ever since I went to university and met wonderful friends who helped me open up and see life differently… I've become a lot more social and learned to express myself more. I hope that it isn't too late to build a relationship with you, Cody."
"Definitely not," I said with a smile. The two of us leaned in to share a hug, and it felt so nice to know that Nathan was on my side and would support me no matter what.
The two of us pulled away and Nathan smiled at me. "How about we get some burgers or something? On me. And you can tell me all about this 'Daniel' and 'Julian' you speak of."
I nodded. "Yeah. But can we keep it between us? I'm not really ready for mom and dad to know about everything yet…"
"Yeah, no problem. Your secret's safe with me, I promise."
I just smiled back at him before Nathan started the car again and turned up the radio before he pulled out of the parking spot, and we headed out to go get some grub.
"And Cody?"
I looked at him. "Yeah?"
Nathan continued driving down the road, tapping his thumbs on the steering wheel along with the rhythm of the music playing from the radio. "I hope you know that you'll find your true love one day. As cheesy as that sounds, it's true. Falling in love doesn't always lead to heartbreak. One day, you'll find someone that will love you unconditionally. You just have to be patient."
I went back to watching the view out the window. For once, I felt genuine brotherly love for Nathan. I felt so much better letting all that out, and having him accept me despite it all. It made me truly grateful to have him in my life.
And I really hoped that he was right.
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Over half a year had passed since that talk with Nathan. Nothing really eventful had happened in those months, but Nathan and I spent more time together which was mostly just us playing video games in his old bedroom at home. I wasn't into video games before, and I wasn't very good at them either—but it was nice that we had something to do together while we talked. I found that we had become a lot closer as brothers since then, and it made me happy. I'm sure our parents were very happy seeing us bonding, too.
Other than that, life was just how it usually was. I would work my silly little shifts at the grocery store, do my silly little thing on Flumblr and LiveDream, and read my silly little books. I had finally finished Boy Cupid, in which the protagonist finally gave up his bachelor ways and came out, then settled down with his best friend. It was a cute and happy ending, and it made me think a lot about what Nathan said about 'true love.'
I hadn't hooked up with Nathan's friends since that one time, I guess they felt scared to hit me up again after Nathan found out. And to me, it just felt weird to continue seeing them after Nathan knew. I didn't really know how to describe it other than it being weird. So I just stuck to focusing on my grind and getting my rocks off to either my imagination or to some saucy erotic fiction.
Before I knew it, 2018 came around and I was already twenty years old. It felt weird to be reaching my twenties already—It felt like just yesterday I was a fourteen year old starting high school for the first time. Nia wasn't able to make it for my twentieth birthday, but she sent me a funny e-card with a meaningful message and a gift card for a department store.
Other than that, everything was just business as usual. It wasn't until that one fated day sometime in April while I was working on one of my shifts down at the grocery store where everything changed.
It was a very busy day. I was one of the few cash register lanes that were open, for God knows why. I didn't care about my quality of service on that shift—all I would do was quickly scan and bag groceries before waiting for the customer to pay, then rip their receipt out of the machine and hand them their bags before they were on their way, and then repeat with the next person in line.
I went through this mindless process, completely doing everything off automatic routine instinct—until a somewhat familiar voice called out my name.
"Cody? Cody Vale?"
It snapped me out of my robotic mode, completely catching me off guard. I looked up, feeling my heart completely drop inside of me, my eyes widening as I swore that I had probably dropped whatever was in my hands at the moment as time completely froze. I felt like I either wanted to vomit or run away.
Because the next person in line was the first boy I ever loved. His name could barely leave my lips as I looked into his eyes.
"D-Daniel…?"