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Chapter 12 - Memories

Ella laid in a bed in an unfamiliar room. Though it was a hospital room, it was different from her own. Next to her laid a boy whose breathing was shallow and his face was pale but sweaty at the same time. She saw that this boy reminded her of someone as his brown hair ruffled when he moved his head roughly on the pillow. She barely had her eyes open when she saw a woman walk into the room, bathing the room with more sunlight. She went and gently touched his forehead to check his temperature.

However, her face immediately goes pale after checking his temperature and heart rate. When the woman rushed out of the room again Ella closed her eyes again as if out of exhaustion.

The next moment, when she woke up, she was standing near a hospital bed. The same boy laid there unconscious, not moving an inch. She stared at him for a few minutes then noticed that he was holding the star pendant she had tightly in his arms as if to protect it.

After one blink it was as if she disappeared and another little girl came to fill her space. She was smiling at the now awake young boy who held the pendent out to her with a warm smile. The boy held the pendent out to this girl and she gladly accepted it. The boy placed it around her neck, they then shared a hug which lasted as if for a lifetime.

The boy's face became blurry as the girl began to cry. Ella looked at the girl then back at the boy who is now sleeping soundly on the bed with a life support system next to him. The woman from before was there too and so was a man next to her. Ella saw this display before with an addition to the little girl.

In a split second, it was just the girl alone, crying in the rain in the middle of a graveyard. She was knelt down in front of a gravestone. Her tears never stopped flowing and eventually. The girl grew up but it didn't take long for her to end up in an ambulance on her way to the hospital.

She left the pendent there as if to leave her mark on it. She was never asleep, actually, she seemed to be always talking to someone when nobody was there. She would always joke around and laugh, but what she was talking about was inaudible for Ella to hear.

It happened so fast as if a time skip, at the dead of night, the girl, a little older now walked towards the roof of the hospital. she had dead eyes, only looking straight forward. She was at the top of the roof now hanging by a thread. She never stopped walking until...

"Ah!" Ella shrieked as she woke up from the dream, a cold sweat running down her neck. She looked around rapidly to see that she was still in the room. She heaved a huge sigh before jumping up again.

"Yo, have you calmed down yet?" Otto asked, half his body through the wall the other still on the other side.

"P-probably. Were you watching me sleep?" Ella asked rubbing her head.

"Like a papa hawk." He said with a smile but then saw the unamused face Ella was making. "Actually I just came back, and saw you were awake from your nap." He said.

"I-I see..." She said awkwardly. "Hey Otto," She began.

"You're not gonna interrogate me again are you?" He asked with a tired look.

"I just have one question. D-did I try... did I try to... kill myself?" She asked reluctantly with a pained and awkward face, squeezing the words out of her mouth.

Otto immediately stared at her with round eyes and a shocked expression. He didn't know how to answer. He moved closer to her and sat in front of her.

"Well, I would lend you my shoulder at this point but... you know." He said awkwardly.

"Mmhmm..." She nodded, tears streaming down her face.

"And I don't want to lie to you. Not anymore..." He said with a frosty gaze. He took a few minutes before answering. "Yeah... you did try to kill yourself, because of me." He added with an ashamed gaze. Ella looked up at him slowly with wide, red eyes. "You were right... I am your older brother. I'm sorry... that I...that I kept that from you." He said with a weak smile, staring at the ground.

"Why didn't you tell me from the beginning?" Ella asked with a bit of frost in her voice.

"Because I didn't want to remind you. It was easier for me, and you if you just had amnesia. Maybe not for mum, but if you stayed here, you might not remember anything before you were hospitalised. Sometimes ignorance is bliss, and I didn't want you going through that pain again!" Otto said with a desperate voice.