I covered my mouth with my hand as I collapsed in my bed. "No way..." I whispered as the memories from earlier came rushing into my mind. "No way!" I yelled as I took my pillow and covered my face with it so I could scream less loudly.
I sat up as various scenarios popped into my head. "What if I actually get pregnant? What should I do? What if he runs away from me? That is a possibility. We don't even know each other. We're practically strangers who had sex! This is not good. Not good at all. Although I haven't been marked, a knot is just as bad as a mark. Ah! No, it isn't. But if I were to get pregnant because of it... do I have to abort the baby? But the poor baby... I was the one who threw myself onto him as if I was an omega in heat. Oh, I am in heat. But the baby!!!" I muttered to myself while staring at the floor blankly.
This is bad. Really bad.
I put my hands on top of my head and pulled my hair. "This is not happening!" I yelled. Someone suddenly barged into the room. It was Daryl.
"Why? What's wrong? Did something happen to you?" He asked as he hurriedly walked to my bed. "Dar..." I suddenly felt the color draining from my face as I felt cold. No way. If I tell Daryl about the knot, then I'm sure he'd tell my parents about it right away. And who knows? Daryl is pretty scary when he's mad, so I can't cross out the possibility that he might come after Tristan's head. "I... I forgot that I still have to apply for an internship," I said, making up an excuse.
I'm a good liar so he probably won't know.
He sighed as he put his hand over his head and he ran his fingers through his hair while closing his eyes tightly. "I thought something bad happened to you." He sat next to me as he stared at me with worried eyes. "You know you're very important to me, right?" He said as his eyes trembled. I avoided his eyes and nodded gently as a sense of guilt crept into my heart. "Hey, look at me," he said as he held my chin and moved my face so I could meet his eyes.
Even though we were facing at each other, my eyes weren't looking at his. "Answer me honestly. I won't get mad at you, okay? Did you meet with that alpha today? I can smell his pheromones on you. Did you do it with him? Is that why you got home late?" He asked in a calm tone. I hesitated for a bit whether I should tell him or not. I wasn't certain if telling him that I had sex with Tristan was the right choice, but I wanted to be honest with my best friend even just about this and leaving the knot out of the story. "Yes." He sighed and cupped my cheek. "I... I'm just worried about you, Jus. You can make your own decisions. You can have sex with whoever you want. I'm just really concerned about you since you just had your heat recently. You look so anxious and guilty, I can tell from the look in your face. Don't be," he said calmly. I wanted to tell him that I was in heat again earlier when I was with him, but I know he'd get mad at me if he knows that I did it with him while I was in heat. I could get pregnant.
I clenched my jaw, trying to stop myself from crying. I don't even know why I wanted to cry. My chest suddenly felt tight as if it was being squeezed. Maybe I'm scared.
This isn't the first time that I've seen Daryl act like this, but every time that this happens, I always feel guilty because I think it's my fault why he feels that way.
I nodded gently, and I felt his arms wrap around me. He felt... warm.
"It's okay. You did not do anything wrong. It's alright... It's alright..." He said, trying to make me feel better.
Maybe because I felt bad for making Daryl act like this, or maybe because I was worried about getting pregnant, but as soon as I heard those words from his mouth, the tears that I have been holding back were continuously rolling down my cheeks like an endless river.
*****
"Pasta!" Daryl said as he raised the plates he was holding while walking to the table. He cooked a meal for the two of us as soon as I had calmed down. He placed the plates on the table, and I was drooling as I looked at the food in front of me. "Dig in," he said as he lifted his chin up proudly. I did as he said and the food tastes heavenly.
"Is it good?" He said as he looked at me as I ate. I just nodded and raised my thumbs up. He chuckled and started eating too.
After our meal, he told me to rest and that he will take care of the chores for the meantime since I was still in heat. I laid on my bed and thought about what happened earlier again.
I sighed and put my palms over my face. "Let's just think positive..." I whispered to myself. As I lay on my bed, I closed my eyes and slowly fell asleep.
My usual alarm did not ring. I stood up and went out of my room to brush my teeth. After brushing my teeth, I saw that Daryl had already prepared breakfast for me and there was a bottle of suppressants next to it. There was note next to the food and bottle so I took the note to read what it says.
'Good morning! Eat this and don't forget to take suppressants. I know you had another heat yesterday. Don't worry, I'm not mad. Stay at home too :)'
I smiled at the note. He knows that I had another heat yesterday, but he didn't say anything about it until now and I'm thankful for that. I checked the food and it has already gone cold, so I took it to the microwave. When I was done heating it up, I started eating. After I ate, I took the suppressants and headed back to my room.
I feel drowsy. I guess I should go back to sleep.