I don't know where am I now, I don't where I will go, there are no tears in my eye but the pain is still here.
Now I feel the pain in my feet, I just wear slippers, and it's hurt because I'm just walking, building lights give me light to see the road, I walk until I saw a bridge, and the vehicles pass in the bridge give me light, I sat down at the corner of the bridge, and moon gave me more calm mood, I let my feet hanging at the bridge as I sat down. I took a deep sigh, and I hold the iron that part of the bridge, I look at the moon, it is a full moon and the cold breeze I feel is more giving me calmness mood.
"Are you fine?" I was stopped by the voice from enjoying the breeze, I look at my right side, there is someone who also sat down and his elbow was in the iron that I holding, I knitted my forehead and make my eyes small trying to recognize who he is. I can't see his face I just see his lips and chin, I can't answer with him, because of shock.
"I'm already here, before you come here, did you ever noticed me that I'm here?" he asked with a calm voice.
'i didn't know that there's another person here'
I shook my head, for the response, I look away and turn it to the moon again, I feel he took breath same of mine.
Silence runs up with us because vehicles that pass by the bridge are few.
"What are you doing here?" I took the silence off, I see in my peripheral view that he looks at me, but he looks again at nowhere.
"I'm always here, every night to feel peace I guess," he said, and he smiled bitterly "How about you? I'm always alone here then you just show up, is there any problem?" He asked.
I look at him, and I smiled before I look back at the moon.
"This is my first here, actually I agree with you, to feel peace," I said, and not even look back.
"So, what's your problem, you can share with me" He sincerely said.
"Family problem" I shrugged
"Mm, that's why you are here? did not they searching you?" He asked
"They will, but for now let me, because I heard all" I smiled bitterly.
"So you're in a broken Family?" I looked at him and shook my head.
"not yet... but I'm sure that we're going to that stage... my dad had a child to his mistress," I said directly into his eyes.
"Oh, sorry," He said, I smiled at him.
"It's okay, you?"
"Broken Family?" He asked I nod "No, my family are happy we don't have any problem"
"Then why are you here, always?" I asked, confused.
"As I said, to have peace, I like peace, I don't know what my problem. is, but I know that I am not okay" He smiled awkwardly.
I stare at him. waiting for his next words, but nothing came up.
"Do you have a girlfriend? or many girlfriends?" I teased, he laughs and looked away.
"yeah, 1 year" he simply said, I smiled.
"Stay strong"
"Love is the way to protect ourselves from sadness," He said out of nowhere he is not looking at me. "but sometimes love is the reason why we experience sadness a deep deep sadness" His words are full of pain.
It is like that there are huge wounds in his heart that he can make me feel his pain, even I can't see his eyes I just feel it by his aura.
"It's hurt being betrayed, it is hurt to be left by someone you want to spend life with, it's hurt when you expect that someone will choose you, but it did nor" I am still staring at him. "They said, it is a lesson, but you know?" He looks at me "It ks not if it is a lesson then why is always happen? It means, we failed to that lesson, that is why the pain we feel before, it is now getting more pain to us?" He said it clearly and you can say, he is hurt, I feel the pain that he was pointing out. It feels like I am him who experiencing those things. And I feel how my mother feels now.
" My father said that the person he loves, is back"I started" I feel pity with my mom, because, daddy said he learn to love my mother, but still his love for his mistress is stronger," I said bitterly
"They have arranged marriage, and now daddy chooses his child with his. mistress, I am cannot stop my father and his other girl, if they love each other, but my mom?.. she will be hurt, she loves my dad" I felt my tears are going to flow from my eyes" I knitted my forehead to stop my tears
"We can't force someone to stay if they are not happy with us" I finished my drama. and smiled at him.
"Yeah right, sometimes people used us to be their temporary happiness then they leave because they found the person that their permanent"
Were been this peace of atmosphere, I did not know how many hours we stay without any word, we're just enjoying the peace. I felt my cellphone vibrate, I took it, it's mom.
"Excuse me," I said before answering the call.
"Alona, where are you? I'm going to pick you up, were now worry about you" Mom said in the other line
I took a heavy breath and feel my self if I am ready to see daddy.
"Ahm, mom, I'm on a bridge" I looking around while answering, and my eyes stop with the guy I'm with.
"They will pick you up?" He asked suddenly.
"Mm.."I nod" you? aren't you going home, it late already, "I asked.
"I am, but I will wait for you to leave," He said, I can't see his face because it's dark. I just nod for my answer.
It's been 30 minutes we stay without any conversation, I heard a car stop with our back, I look at it, and see my mother walking towards me, I feel that the guy stood up, I look at him but he starts to walk while his hands inside his pocket. He is wearing a white shirt and jeans who look so fine by his posture even I can't see his face, I know he is handsome.
"Thank you" I whispered.
"Alona, let's go home," My mom said, before holding my hands and accompany me inside the car, I did not say a word while were arriving and even look at my dad, I can't.
When we're home, I go to my room and lay in my bed, and the guy I'm with earlier is now bothering me, I did not ask his name, I did not know his name.
I look at the ceiling and smiled out of nowhere. I hope to see you soon.