Dylan narrates:
I look for the hundredth time at my gold watch, which is on my left wrist. I'm very restless and also my inner wolf, maybe it's because I'm feeling myself ..., no ..., I don't think she's close to her. She does not leave her castle ..., you will wonder what do I mean?
Well I mean my eternal companion, my Mate, my wolf growls in anger and pain, I mean the white queen, if she is my eternal companion. The least I want is to meet her, it's not that I hate her, well yes ..., I hate her a lot, but that's not the main reason why I don't want to be with her again. I have a big scar on my heart, which I don't think will go away over the years, rather it gets bigger and more painful that it is difficult to bear, every day I feel like my soul is torn apart, leaving me with painful scars .
I hate to think about her, I don't want to know anything about her, they will wonder, how on earth, can you be alive without her? Well that's difficult to explain, which I still don't fully understand. I rejected her when she was begging me, with tears in her eyes, with empty eyes without any life. From that day until today, I can not forget the pain I felt and what I suffered for her, for all that I lived for her, I thought we were thinking about the same thing, being together for eternity, but I was wrong, she did not She wanted me by her side, so I tell myself, begging her to reject her as my eternal companion, I did it because it hurt when she was telling me at that moment.
I did it because I still love her like a complete idiot, she does not remember anything that she lived with me, nobody knows because she does not remember everything she lived, there are rumors that she was dying for the lack of her mate, that for That is why they had to call witches, sorcerers and fairies, to erase all her memories that she had with me and of the people that she knew at that time that she was with me and they also had to remove the mark that I made, when I claimed her Like mine, they also had to remove the mark that she left on me when she claimed me as hers, the mark that she left me was the most difficult that the sorcerers, fairies, witches, elves had to make, I remember that more came supernatural beings, to remove the mark. I never imagined agreeing to have the dunk mark removed, because we were both dying from the separation and from the rejection she asked me to do. That was what was killing me, my mother no longer knew what to do, so she asked all her contacts for help to help me remove the mark from my partner.
- Alpha - someone interrupts my thoughts, I look at him - we're just going to get to the border.
I feel a lot of restlessness inside, my wolf is tearing me inside and growls with anger, I close my eyes and make a connection with my inner wolf.
- What's wrong? - I ask my inner wolf, my voice was heard angry and sore from the scratches that my inner wolf is giving me.
-She is in the pack- I speak hurt, with anger and despair, she stopped scratching, started screaming and curling up, she does it to bear the pain.
- We're not going to the pack - I speak as I close the connection with my inner wolf, I wince at the proximity of my Mate.
Dereck looks at me confused and concerned, but he doesn't ask anything, he stays silent, he just nods his head, talks to Connor with the connection we have as friends and as leaders of the same pack.
Connor drives away from the pack, I'm still tense from the pain of my Mate's closeness, I hope she didn't smell me or felt me there.
- He did not - Alan speaks calmer, leaving me relieved by the news, I let out a sigh full of pain and frustration, which I still feel, I still want to run away and go to the address where my Mate is, but I hold back not to. I don't want any more pain because of her.
I feel my eyes itch and burn, I want to cry for all the emotions that came together and I don't let them out, but I control myself very calmly and carefully as I always do, like, for example: like when I'm in the same place that she is for the reunion of all the werewolf packs, if I do it with desperation, I start to cry and that's not what I want, I don't want someone to see me in that state, it's as if I'm showing my weakness to my enemies.
I close my eyes to rest a bit, I hear in the distance the voices of my best friends, Dereck, the beta of the pack and Connor, the omega of the pack, I don't know what I would do without them. I keep hearing his voices to forget my eternal companion, the empress of the werewolves, known as "The White Queen"
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I open my eyes carefully for the light that enters the car, I look around me with great care.
- Where are we? he asked hoarsely, yawning.
I see Dereck turn around and look at me calmly -In the Cold Light pack- he answers me calmly, as if nothing bothered him at that moment.
I do not mention anything and we get out of the car, I am very sleepy and tired, for all that trip we made, we had to go out to make agreements with other packs and with other supernatural beings, so that my pack has peace of mind. We got out of the car, I look around me, the herd is large and striking. This herd is very different from my herd, in many ways that I am going to mention later, this herd is the closest to my herd. I walk alongside Dereck and Connor. We entered one of the unexpected guest houses, which was founded by the ancient Moon that had this herd. I walk firm and safe, although I am really sleepy, I feel tired and my emotions are very altered, I no longer want to meet my mate, even though I reject her as my mate many years ago, she is still my destiny, the other soul that complements me to my soul, before we marked ourselves, she was afraid and desperate, I did not understand why she was like this at that moment I did not ask her and so little did she tell me what she was going through at that moment. I have thought for years that my Mate knew what was going to happen to us in our future, she did not mention it to me and it occurred to me so little to ask her, it was my mistake, as it was also her mistake.
I always hated that my partner kept secrets from me that hurt our marriage, that this would affect our relationship as a couple, I breathe calmly, I need to calm down, because if I don't calm down, I don't want to put this herd on alert and that my people are affected by my lack of control of my emotions and that is what I least want for my people. From the day she said to reject her, that very moment I wished with all my might that it was a nightmare, that that never happened, when I woke up, I had her by my side as my Mate and the mother of my son that I lost in That war, my beautiful son, he was not to blame for our mistake that his parents made, I continue to blame myself for my wrong decisions that I made and that affected my son. I can't forgive myself for that, I feel pain in my heart, it's horrible to remember something you don't want to remember. I calm down and listen to the person.
- Welcome ... alpha, beta and omega of the Blood of Moon pack - makes a small bow, grunt in disagreement, she straightens up and looks at me with fear for her lack of respect, I see my friends who are serious already at the same time angry, they are the only ones who know my true story, I don't look at other people, I don't care.
I always hated that they made reverence towards me, I know that I am the mate of the supreme empress, that is the reason that I hate that they make me reverence, I want to forget it, but I cannot ... I cannot forget it, I feel oppression in my chest, I put my hand on my chest. I wince a little in pain, I glance at my best friends, they felt my pain, they speak for me.
- Don't do it again - Connor sentence with a cold voice towards the girl.
- Sorry Alpha - bows his head in shame.
- Don't worry - I speak normally, as if nothing happened.
But inside I'm a mess, Alan, my inner wolf is crying internally, but his pride is stronger than his pain, he shows no emotion and I have my own pride, I make myself strong in front of people like right now I show seriousness.
- We have to be strong Dylan - Alan speaks, his voice cracking, but his gaze neutral.
"I know," I whisper to my inner wolf.
"Her rooms are always ready," mentions the red-haired girl, with freckles on her face and blue eyes like the color of the crystalline sea.
"Thank you" the three of us talked at the same time, we followed her to the rooms, the three rooms are on the same floor and are close to her.
I go into my room, I leave the door open, I know those two idiots are going to come in, she smiled herself. I sit on the bed in the middle of the room, I see the red-haired girl leave, I close my eyes and I calm down. It's horrible to be this bad almost all day, just to know that your former lover was in the same place you are going to enter. It's like feeling like my heart is going to stop, without me realizing it.
I hear the footsteps of my two idiotic friends, I hear how they move like lightning, I keep calming myself down very carefully not to cry. I have to be stronger and control myself more.
I listen as they leave their rooms and close the doors to enter my room, I know that they want me to give explanations, although they already realized everything, it is because of the connection of Alpha to Beta and from Alpha to Omega. It is the gift that the goddess the Moon gave us, to hers, her children, the werewolves.
- Now tell us everything - I hear Dereck's hoarse and serious voice, I hear that they close the door to my room.
I open my eyes suddenly - Okay - I answer getting tired.
- It was her? - Connor asks.
I look at him - Yes, she was in our pack, I don't know what the hell she was doing there, Alan told me, before entering the border ... - I feel my throat burn, I paused a bit - being near her hurts and those memories return that with effort I want to forget.
I feel water on my cheeks, I see my sad friends, I let out a sigh between cuts, I can no longer control the tears, the lump in my throat and the burning. My two friends come over, rub my back, to calm me down. I try to do it, but I can't, it was sudden, to know that she was very close to her.
- I hate her so much - breathy whisper - I ruin my life and my future - I whisper again, it is hard for me to breathe, they say nothing and so little has moved in their places, they are still by my sides, they have been like brothers, that, if I have, but they are not like them, my brothers are different and distant with the family. My friends have always been there for me and my family.
- I hate feeling like this, I hate these feelings, I hate knowing that I still love her, I hate knowing that she exists, I hate knowing that she is an empress and I hate knowing that she is the goddess of the Moon ... - the last thing comes out my hatred towards her.
Nobody says anything, little by little I am calming down, there are days that give me episodes, worse than this, that in reality they have to put me on an oxygen mask and very powerful sedatives, which can sleep an adult elephant.
Sometimes my inner wolf and I get out of control, we start hitting like crazy, at that moment we don't care who it is.
They hand me roll paper, I wipe my cheeks and eyes, wipe my nose with the piece of roll paper. I get out of bed and go straight to throw the roll papers in the trash can. I leave the bathroom, I go into my room, I look at the floor, while I am still standing in front of my friends.
- Are you more relaxed? - Dereck asks somewhat unsure.
-Yes, I'm better-he spoke and looked up, they soften their expressions, they look at me more relaxed.
"I'm glad this wasn't more dangerous," Connor spoke with relief.
- Me too - I whisper calm and serene.
-You two ...- he points out to us and gets up from the bed-go to sleep ...
He demands and leaves my room, Connor gets out of bed and leaves without telling me first.
-Everything will be fine Dylan, I promise you-he will leave me alone in this room.
I release the bitter sigh, from the bottom of my heart.
I take off my shoes and go to bed, to continue with my dream, tomorrow I have to get up early. I close my eyes and fall into a deep sleep.
Luna narrates:
- Everything is ready, Your Highness - speaks one of the silver knights.
He stopped meditating and opened my eyes, looked at the silver knight, nod.
- Let's go! - He gives the order, the cars are started, I close my eyes again and continue meditating.
A few hours ago I felt uneasy, as if someone were calling me, at that moment I felt empty, as if something was missing, I feel that half of my soul is missing, I feel incomplete and very empty. And I don't know what it is, but I know that something or someone is missing, I can't understand what it is ... well I forget that for a moment, I need to concentrate, to be connected with the heavens.
I need to meditate, I need to recover from that emptiness and that feeling of restlessness. I look around me, it is a very beautiful and spacious place, I do not see the end of this place, it is extremely beautiful, beautiful flowers, I feel that I have already seen this place and a hundred warmth, something that fills me in my heart.
I look to my left side and I see a figure of a woman, I approach where there is an arch of flowers next to the glass door that has an ornament of stars with silver, I get closer to that person and I see them more clearly She is a very young woman as if she were fifteen years old, which by the way is very pretty, her beauty is similar to mine, but younger and fresher and more innocent, she does not have any hint of evil in her eyes.
She looks at me surprised - Luna? - She asks, I look at her confused, it is not the first time that they speak to me as if they miss me - sister?
I see that she cries with joy - are you alive? You were finally able to come here, I missed you big sister - she hugs me with great joy and with great strength too - we miss you, goddess the Moon ...
- Wait to?! - I scream surprised, he pulled her away from me, she looks at me terrified.
- Are you crazy! I'm a goddess? And more, the goddess of the Moon? - I sigh angrily - you're very wrong and also insane.
I push her away from me roughly and walk back confused, she looked at her as if she were a horrible and disgusting monster, she looks at me with great sadness.
- Your Highness - I hear distant voices, I looked where those voices came from, I see many beautiful people running in the direction of that girl, I turn to where she is, with her tears in her eyes and wetting her cheeks, I realize that her tears they seem like stars, bright and unique. Her tears become familiar to me, as if my memory wants to remember where I have seen those tears, which are unique and at the same time beautiful.
- Then you are going to tell me everything, - I talk to the girl, she stops crying and half smiles, her smile is not of happiness, her smile is of sadness and loss - about what you mentioned that I am the goddess. Luna - I look at her seriously and run away from that place, to get to where my body is and where my people are who always support me.
I come out of meditation and open my eyes very carefully. He looked with difficulty, he Beta Emperor.
- What's going on? he asked in a hoarse, dry voice.
"We thought something had happened to him," I look at them and they have concern on their faces, I close my eyes and listen, "we were worried, because he didn't answer," he speaks with relief and his face relaxes a bit.
- I'm fine, don't worry - I speak, I look around me disoriented.
- We are here, Your Highness - mentions the Omega Emperor.
- Okay - I speak, we all get out of the cars, the cold air hits my body wildly, it makes me cold and I no longer feel that warmth that I felt when I arrived at that place so beautiful, but at the same time so familiar.
It gives me the creeps, I shake my head to remove those thoughts that my precious time is not worth wasting. We walked straight to the castle of the supreme emperor of the werewolves, we walked through the huge corridor that leads to the stairs at the entrance of the castle, there are forty steps, they form as if they were a pyramid and above it is the great castle of the supreme emperor, it is It looks very old, but inside it is divided into several sections, the first section which is the first floor to the third floor is decorated in the old way, the fourth floor to the sixth floor is decorated from another era, this is how all floors are decorated , the herd "the descendants of the Moon" out of respect and gratitude, they build from time to time the castle of the supreme emperor floors, it depends on what the emperor or empress who is ruling at that time did, it is the number of floors they make, they also decorate it, with things from that time.
- I'm going to sleep, you also go to sleep - I order and go up the stairs, without looking at anyone.
- Yes Your Highness - they speak in chorus, I continue in my walk towards.
I go up to the second floor, I walk straight to my second room, I go in and close the door, I let out the sigh that I didn't know was stuck in my throat. I walk heavily, I go straight to my bed, untipping the bed and get into it, I look at the ceiling of the room, I close my eyes and I fall asleep.
- Moon awake - I open my eyes carefully, so as not to be hurt by the sun's rays, I turn to see who is the owner of that sweet voice and at the same time very warm, the owner of that voice is a tall and robust man, his gaze It is difficult to bear, he is very passionate and very bright, the color of his eyes does not suit his body, it is a yellowish gold color, it is rare to see that color of eyes, but that color, his skin, makes me very curious He is light brown, with a touch of tan, his clothes are of an orange-red warrior, his clothes are for someone who is in summer, his shorts that reach below the knees, his shirt is white and transparent that you can see everything his chest, his long and wavy hair, of fiery red color, his hair is tied, forming a ponytail, in his ears there are small earrings, his feet wears sandals, he is dressed as if he were on the beach but with red armor golden and with swords on his back, he gives me a full smile, I say Edio smiled.
- How do you know my middle name? - I speak as I get up from the bed, he did not pay attention to the bed and I keep my gaze on that robust man.
- If they took away your memories - it was not a question, it was a statement, as if he had known me for a long, long time.
- And what do you care - I speak furiously.
- I care, because you are my sister - I speak calmly, I look at him furious and incredulous - I know, you don't believe me.
- You're right, I don't believe you - I answer with poison in my voice - I don't know what you're talking about, - I sigh and get out of bed - Where am I?
-You are in the chambers of the sun god - said that man, he raised his eyebrows.
- And who are you? - I ask, he looks at me and smiles.
-I am the sun god or as some call me sun god - he smiles showing his white and well aligned teeth - and you are the goddess of the Moon, Selene Olivia Luna.
- So I'm the goddess - I whisper as I look at the ground, I can't believe it, but there are already many people who tell me - and you have a name, well apart from your title as god.
- It is not a title, it is who we really are, - sighs - My name is Dagoberto Eleodoro Helio.
Say hi, he looked at him weird, like he was a freak - okay? Why did you bring me? - I ask.
- It is the moment for you to remember and to find your Mate - I raise my eyebrows, he raises his left hand to the direction of my forehead - I am not going to give you all your memories, only the memories that are necessary - I interrupt him.
- Why are you going to give me my memories now? - I ask confused.
- Our brother, the god of destiny - sighs - he was kidnapped and nobody knows about him, or so I want to believe, - look at nothing - the one who is staying in charge of the post is the third in command.
- And the second? - I ask, I know that everywhere you will always see two who are in charge of everything, when the leader is not there.
"That's the weird thing," she draws her eyebrows at him. "They have seen so little of it.
He answers me with a bit of concern in his voice - already - whisper, I take out the air I was holding - I'm not going to ask any more, just do it, I know you have your reason.
He raised his hands, -forward - I speak and he with his finger on my forehead comes out a golden and red smoke, invades me in my field of vision.
The memories come to me like waves, they hit strong and hard, it is a lot for my mind and for my heart, in the distance I hear her voice - it is time for Selene Olivia Luna to remember a little of her past, for everything that comes to her, her and the werewolves - I feel my mind going black, I am inside a bubble of memories, which is floating, I feel headaches and eyes, that I want to tear my eyes out, out of pure desperation.
In those memories, something catches my attention, it is a figure of a tall man with broad and muscular shoulders, with a look of hatred and sadness, I feel my wolf uncomfortable for the man.
- Can not be? - She expresses with anger - Don't come back! - he yells at me - I don't want to see you anymore - I feel my tears running down my cheeks - I will never forget your rejection of me ... - he cries - I hate you, I hate you, I hate you so much that it burns me, I feel like I die when I see you and when I feel your disgusting presence.
- I want to know, who are you? - I ask.
- I do not want you to remember me - said that I leave the memory bubble, I fall, awake with heavy breathing.
- He is my ... Mate ... - I speak between cut.
I look around and see my room, I close my eyes tightly, the tears keep falling like waterfalls.