Being in the same room with him is not what I was expecting, even when I was telling myself am ready for all of this, I would be lying if I said am prepared to face it all, my face and my emotions are totally different from each other, John is here, in the same place as me, after months of not seeing him, and now his here and I don't know how to handle all of this.
So as a coward I walk away from him, running inside to control my emotions and anger, there to much to face, I wish that I can be like my kids so forgiven, hugging him as if he was on a vacation and his back, but am not his kids am his wife it two different situations.
I wish that I could say seeing him standing there in front of me those not bring some kind of relief and comfort, but when I think about what happened and what lead us in this situation my heart breaks more deeply than before.
Dinner was the most uncomfortable moment in my life, I was never a quiet person when it comes to family dinners, so sitting here with my family without convert with them is the most boring thing ever, I eat dinner as fast I can to get out of here, Jaz make small talk mostly with the kids, am glad for it all, because seeing the kids happy at this moment I wouldn't trade it for anything at all.
Because once you a parents, you need to learn to put your priorities on hold, your kids come first as always.
And seeing Linda and especially Damian speak that much, bring me so much peace, because as long as I am here everyone try all they can to make them happy and eat it was a wasteful way, and now with their dad being here they joyful matter is back and I couldn't be more proud of him then I have right now, because when I didn't expect him, he somehow make himself present and be there for the kids when they needed him the most.
Daddy why ain't you eating my little girl question her daddy, Linda has always been a daddy princess so her eyes always wary about his well being, she always protective of him, even though my eyes did catch him not eating I feel like it wasn't my place to question him about his well being's anymore, so hearing my kids questioning their father about his well being I couldn't help but drop in their conversation, he look so pale and his handsome face is cover with a beard that need to come off, but that none of my business anymore, I mean he is still handsome as ever, can't lie he really rocking that fucking beard, the type of activity I want to do with it is making me sweeting like crazy.
Jeez Sammy get a grip, you slut, he CHEATED on you.
My mind went back to their conversation, out of no where John started to cry, and everyone at the table stop doing everything all at once, as if we couldn't believe our eyes, John Patrov is crying, that a day I never see coming, because sometime I be wondering if along the line I pass away will he even shades a tears for me, because as long as I know John nothing faze him to the point of crying, even when my pop pull out a gun on him trying to chase him away from me, he stand there like a robot, so you have to understand the shock of it all.
Babies can you guys go hangout with your cousins, I want to have a conversation with your mother and aunt for a minute, and when am done we can do what ever you guys want, John tell the kids has he put them on the floor, yay Damian and Linda scream, you staying here with us daddy Linda question, not today, daddy have to get permission from mommy first, go on, your cousin's are waiting outside on the porch, he kiss them on their forehead and the kids run toward the front porch.
A silence filled out the room, for a brief moment no one say nothing, I was about to get up and walk away, when John pulled me down, I look over to him, question him about his actions, look there something I need to say, I know it won't fix anything but I guess it time to finally come clean and tell the truth.
Am a Mafia King.
What, I laughed you a what now, Mafia, John stop playing with me, I laughed more than I should, this dude is something special, instead of owning up to his mistakes, his fabric stories, when I thought he was standing up for his mistakes he pull that shit, fuck it am done.
I get up this time, and he didn't stop me, out of nowhere his phone start ringing, is he calling someone, I stop on my track and turn around to look at him, Jaz eyes widen, no fucking way, I see shit like that on movies, I heard of it but I never believed it, John is a what.
Hello, Big boss you calling, it either you dying or you fuck up, or you kidnap, Shut up Parker, John snarled at the person on the phone, his voice cold as ice, tell them, tell them who am I, he ask more coldly and deadlier, this side of John is different from what I know, tell them, he ask, John what the fuck is going on, tell me you not at the Italian houses again, I thought you own this empire long ago, or is it the Spanish houses, I mean you already kill the head of this mafia what else needed to happen, Parker his roar say it.
You John Patrov, the devil of the night, who am I saying that to, the Parker guy's question, John cold eyes stared right at me, and say my wife, and close the phone.
What the Fuck, I run straight to my room and lock the door, shit Jasmine I can't leave her with that monster is that a prank, did I murder someone in my past life, I don't know what to do, calling my brother hoping he could answer as fast as he can, please Mike answer, I will never bothered you again.
Hello he answer, while I was about to answer him back, my phone was taking out my hand, John eyes stared right at me and close the phone.
How did you get in, I whispered pushing my self toward the bed, am shaking of fright, who is this man, it was easy he said, looking at me like I am his prey, he stand there not saying anything, I could make a move and run.
Don't even think about it, he tell me his green eyes staring right at me, I know what you thinking, don't make me lock you in here with me.
Look Sammy, don't call me that you don't ever call me that anymore, I don't think you ever love me, fuck do you even cared about me, why would you play with my heart and emotions like that, am that gullible, man I laughed you really are a monster, I hate you so much.
There so much about me that you don't know Samantha, I was trying to protect you and the kids, oh really I question him, so fucking that bitch was part of the protection team also, am sorry ok, I was holding myself back from you and I cause way to much pain for you to consume so I make the worst decisions of my life, but don't you ever question my feelings and love for you.
I fuck up, I know that you grown up with love I don't, I won't blame you for my misfortune, but I was trying to protect you from myself, I don't grown up with love, I grown up with hate, killing and isolation, I never had any kind of love, until you and the kids walked in my life, I feel love but when Kathy walk in she fuck me up and play with my emotions differently, I got to face my fears all over again, and on the process I lost you, my past is my parents mistake but my present and my future are my own.
He walk closer toward me, sitting down on the bed next to me holding my hand, I love you Sammy I love you and you only, I fuck up a lot , I know and am ready to grovel for it all, I want to be whom ever you desire, I want to be your slave if that you want, whatever you desire I will make it happen, princess I love you so fucking much.
I pull him closer his face so close to my own, I kiss him so greedily, my tongue dancing inside his mouth savoring his sweet taste, a groan leave his mouth, shaking my body to the core, my pussy tingle from his reaction, baby he whispered when we both pull away from each other, we need to talk, please don't start I don't think I will be able to stop.
I get up from the bed walk toward the door and lock it, I pull of my clothes off me, I hear John hiss, my little panties and bra was all I have on, I walk towards him, sit on his lap facing him, rubbing my aching pussy on his jeans I was wet, I could feel my wetness dripping down from my legs, so I know his crotch area have to be wet also.
Fuck Sammy, he kiss my neck pulling me closer, I want to do so much dirty deeds with that body of yours, I don't think you are capable of dealing with that kind of activity, I pull his face closer to me and swallow his mouth, letting my tongue explore his mouth, it feel so dirty and rough but I don't care, I crave for his roughness, I want this side of him, please John I want this, I want your cock bury deep inside my cunt, I want you to pound my pussy like you hate me, Fuck Daddy I want this.
Something inside John flip and the next moment I was laying down on the bed, he ripped open my bra, and panties leaving me butt naked, my leg wide open, I feel naked with John staring at me like that, I mean he does see me naked before, but never like this, his green eyes darkening, his eyes lay on my bare pussy, he lick his lips, and when I was about to say something, John diving, licking, pulling on my clit, swallowing my clit up, his finger pounding my open with so much force, that I could feel myself cumming any time now, oh Fuck Johnny, Daddy Sammy call me daddy he growl at my pussy feasting on me like a food.
Oh fuck, Johnny, he bite my clit a reminder of what he ask me to call him, Fuck I moan, my eyes rolling to the back of my head, when he curl his fingers inside my cervix, my feet curls up, my hands shaking as my body shooks from this movement, oh Fuck Daddy am cumming, I pulled his hair as he feasted on my clit, moaning inside of my pussy, leaving me shaking each time, he pulled his face away, pulling me for a kiss, while still pounding me with his finger, my eyes close, fuck I moan out, am cumming, my pussy tighten around his finger, gushing out my juices, creaming around John finger, he pull his fingers out of me, leaving me empty.
Turn around Sammy, harsh your back out for me Baby girl, am not taking easy on that pussy anymore, you getting that rough fuck, and my dick have been missing you, and one more thing he said while slapping my ass, i pierce my cock baby, so it will be a different kind of pain, so be ready.
Oh shit, he what, my pussy gush out again, man am so wet and ready, I don't think I ever being more ready to fuck than now.
I bend over, hashing my ass out, ready for the most exciting moment in my life, I want to feel John in a way I never experienced before, and fuck it if I don't feel better.
He push the head inside my hole, I moan out gripping the sheet, fuck he moan out your pussy feel so fucking tight, he pull out again, holding my waist, with one hand, while holding my hair around his hand and slam his cock so deep inside me, I groan out from the pain, and pleasure that rush through me like an electric, oh fuck he moan out, you feel so fucking good, my eyes teary, his piercings, bring a pleasure I never knew before, he hold himself inside me letting me adjust with his size, letting my pussy welcoming his brutally trust that will be coming soon.
He pulled out and slam again, moaning out loud, not caring who hear him, he push my head against the bed, holding me by my neck, he climbed in top of the bed, both of his legs right next to my side, this position pushed him so much deeper inside of me my hands gripping the bedsheets, groaning from each deep trust he landed inside of me, my ass clapped from his trust, his not taking no mercy from me at all, and fuck it I love every minute of it, fuck Daddy right there I moan when he let go of my neck his hand gripping the bedsheets also, we end up in a position of deep pain and pleasure, and fuck it if I didn't enjoy it.
I don't know where we going but one thing I know John is not letting my pussy have any rest, because his eyes darkness never fade and my pussy couldn't be more happier.