This was so sudden that my brain did not accept it at 1st and now the more I hear it see it, listen to it, and get updates from the know it's not even hurt like I am numb I do not know how to react and we all know this is not suicide or murder this is drugs and it is hurting badly that all I feel like is the dream of reunion is a dream or it is funeral. I can't even express the grief and everywhere I see it is the same thing everyone is saying the same thing and worse this all happened before my birthday.