What is A- yeong thinking about ?
I haven't been in a serious relationship since i've been with lucas . we broke up when i was 25 And now I'm 27 the last 2 years I've had so many random relationships and affairs .
yoongi's confession is making me overthink, I do like him.
but it's just hard for me to get attached to someone and have genuine feelings I promised myself that i would just focus on me and what satisfy me without caring for other people or associating my life with someone else .
I'm a free spirit i go with the flow i'm independent i work hard and i party and have fun all the time the idea of a boyfriend and commitment scare me . I did sleep with 2 of my friends in less then a week but that was supposed to be a one time thing but obviously i was wrong .
But deep down i know i have feelings and I'm afraid i would fall for him even more i'm still not sure and even if i did accept his feeling and end up breaking up that would ruin out friendship but even thought i didn't it's still ruined , oh god i'm such a mess .
Here in korea after kissing someone you either apologise or take responsibilities for your actions but now it's too late to apologise .
I'm so overwhelmed right now so i came up with an idea to break the routine which is going in a vacation with the boys it's brilliant idea but where i thought about my vacation house in Hawaii it'd be perfect and i'll get to meet my friends .
So tonight I Decided to bring it up to the boys we're eating dinner so i suggested " hey guys we've all been busy lately so i thought maybe we should go on a vacation this week , what do you think ? " they looked at each other
then namjoon said " brilliant , I've been so consumed by work i really need a vacation . How about you guys ? " they all agreed and jimin asked "so what's the plan where and when " i promised " i've got it all covered up just be ready by tomorrow and we'll be on our way , trust me this will be the time of your life ."
So it's the next day everyone packed their stuff and we're all ready we went to the airport we've got in the private jet .
After about 10 hours we're there and my drivers are waiting for us at the airport
it's almost sunset when we got to the house all the boys were expressing how beautiful the view is
we just chilled there and watched the sunset then we got inside and each one got it's own room everyone is unpacking and getting ready to go out tonight .
Everyone is ready first we wanted to dine out and since i've been here multiple times so i took them to a restaurant i used to go to whenever i'm here i've already made reservation.
the food is incredible and the decor is really fancy , so we went there we ordered we enjoyed the food and chatted it was a lovely evening everyone enjeyed the food the company it was perfect .
We went back to the house and it was 1 am already everyone went to sleep after the traveling gor 10 houes we were so tired so we fell asleep immediately.
We woke up late we found the breakfast ready the house was provided with maids and chefs so we didn't have to do anything we ate breakfast , then got in the pool i wore my new bikini i don't think the guys are adapting to seeing me in it . But We had so mush fun .
Then we sunbathed for about 2 hours . .
though jungkook looked so precious and cute uwu .and was nagging that he was bored and wanted to do something more fun .
I took a lot of photos of them to keep as memories
Couple of hours later it was already 5 pm . Everyone was tired so they fell asleep, It's just me and jin who's still awake so we deciced to take a walk to the beach , it was so near so we walked there and talked about our lives and some deep thoughts and i even told him some of my family problems that no one but jungkook knows we actually grew to like each other more ,
he's understanding and mature it felt nice venting to him. He can be really incredible when he's not making his dad jokes .
The sun is down so we head back home , the boys are now awake and having fun next to the pool joking amd chatting . I interupted "we're here, what are you guys doing ."
Namjoon replied " hey we're just chilling , where have you been to we've been looking for you two . "
Jin explained " we took a walk to the beach it was so pretty it's Crystal clear and refreshing . "
Jhope nagged " why haven't you woke me up i wanted to go . "
I assured " it's okay we'll go back tomorrow , but now we still have the whole night where should we go ? "
Taehyung " wherever you want , do you have any suggestions? "
I stated " well i know this exclusive night club we really should pay a visit . "
They all agreed so we ate dinner then we left to get ready i was the last to finnish they were all waiting , i came out with this dress and there it is the same look they always do when i wear something relvealing
After they got over it , we went out me and yoongi got in a car we just sat in silence until he said " let's just speak comfortably you don't have to be uncomfortable whenever we're alone " he then smiled and i responded " of course sorry if i made you uncomfortable " then we got back to talking like we used to all the awkwardness just faded away and i can finally have my friend back but i still have some feelings for him . I know i shouldn't he didn't mention what we talked about since that day i know he din't want to ruin our friendship too .
we got to the club and it was crowded we sat on a private booth we drank and danced , jhope hope really was like it's my time to shine he really went all the way , everyone in there were watching him he was impressive though jungkook and jimin have some moves too , it's 1 am we were about to leave we got to the parking lot and jhope was holding so i don't fall , we run into a bunch of people they were calling my name i was dizzy and my eye sight is blury so i didn't reconise them for a second but it turned out they are my local friends then the next thing i heard mark as he got close one of them say " the one and only A-yeong is here and we had no idea , girl you're in trouble when did you get here why haven't you called . "
I responded " i came here with some frineds say hi guy these are my friends mark , lilly , emma and noah , liam . " they greeted each other and i teased " you still inseparable do still go everywhere together ." " of course but you betrayed us and left and this is how we found out u're here . "
" you can come over tomorrow to my place ."
" Okay deal see ya and take care ."
We then left and slept right away .
The next morning we woke up at 10 am we ate breakfast and decided to go to the beach , we left at 12 am
These lazy guys just sat here on the beach . me and jimin kept rooming arround we found a cat on out way jimin kept chasing it until he got it . He wanted to take it but i told him maybe someone is looking for it so we left the cat .
Then we came back to the guys and played handball . I was in yoongi , RM , jin and taehyung's team but i didn't do them any good i just kept running away from the ball . And jimin kept making fun of me and teasing me .
Then we chased after each other and splashed water , jungkook holded me in bridal style and run away and the others running after us then he threw me in the water then jimin and taehyung joined we didn't have swimming suits so our clothes got soaked .
Yoongi kept a distance from us . He doesn't normally enjoy pranks and jokes so he backed off and just watched from afar . Then fell asleep .
And RM , jhope and jin are wondering somewhere .