Its been weeks since I last saw the love of my life... I miss him so much.
I have been doing my best distracting myself from the fact that he might never come back. Ever since that day I have been accompanied by my dog. Yes, I have a dog now, his name is Tolets. Its a pretty weird name I know but I just came up with it so its fine.
When I came back to Amadeus's secret place I remembered that I haven't explored the beach that well so I took Tolets with me and went for a walk.
Tolets was the happy go lucky kind of dog, he would often be called a gentle giant every time someone meets him. He had thick mocha colored fur and he was very cheerful.
While walking on the shore, Tolets hinted something to me. I sighed and chucked at him.
"You wanna run boy???" he barked in response and smiled with that cute face of his.
I started running as fast as he was running and I was having so much fun! We ran and ran until my legs could take no more. I arrived at the end of the shoreline...
There were drift wood that came in all shapes and sizes and finally at the of the shore there was a drift wood that formed a big archway!
As cold salty breeze of the ocean hit my bare face and my heart pounding out of excitement and the feeling of peace and freedom.
I crawled under the archway and Tolets was still beside me. What a good boy. I thought to myself.
I took a deep breath and looked around, I was all alone and I took this moment to scream at the top of my lungs and say everything that I've been bottling up to the calm sea.
"WHY IS MY LIFE LIKE THIS?! ALL I WANTED WAS TO BE WITH HIM AND YOU KEEP TAKING HIM AWAY FROM ME. WHY?! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! I MISS YOU AMADEUS!!!!! YOU COMPLETE ME! I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK AMADEUS!!!"
I screamed and started to tear up. Why do they always take the ones that I love? Why?! I started to cry hysterically and hugged Tolets. I felt his warm fur pressing on my cheek and I drifted to sleep.
A couple of hours later, I woke up with Tolets sleeping soundly beside me and the sun was coming down...
I decided to go back and face reality once more...