The next day
Cross was standing next to Yun Che with Luna as the Villa master explained the rules of the Heavenly Basin Realm. Luna decided to stay with Cang Yue and protect her as Qin Wushang, Cross, and Yun Che went inside.
Luna watched Cross go and dragged Cang Yue away saying "Girl time~" Cang Yue was flustered and said "Sis! I-" Luna cut her off saying "GIRL TIME~!" before disappearing.
Luna POV (If you don't like it blame YayPepto)
I reached into a crack and pulled out Zephyr and Pandora, along with Selena. We got on top of her and flew away, Cang Yue said "Sis! This is... a Dragon!?" I smiled and said "Of course!" Zephyr looked at me and said "Mommy, where are we going?"
I felt warm and happy inside, I loved these little trouble makers with every fiber of my being. Most of the time, Cross is there to take care of the annoying flies, so usually I don't have to do anything. But it didn't mean I didn't want to. I was strong too!
I hugged Zephyr and Pandora, kissing both their foreheads before saying "We're going on a little adventure for a few days! Me, you two, Aunt Cang Yue, and Selena!" Selena smiled and said "Where to Luna?" I thought for a moment before saying "Let's go to the Diving Phoenix Empire."
Selena nodded and flew towards the Empire, with Cang Yue's directions.
I talked to Cang Yue on the way there, while playing with my beautiful kids "Sis, are you really okay with Yun Che having more than one wife? So far, including you, there's 4!" Cang Yue sighed and said "What am I supposed to do? He's lecherous but he truly treats me well. He almost died for me you know."
I was silent, that was true but sharing? I don't think I can do it, Cross was mine and mine alone! Why would I share? Plus, Cross wasn't that kind of person. After our talk in the Phoenix clan, we've been closer than ever. It makes me so happy to have him, sometimes I remember when he was still acting cold at Hogwarts...
Those were good times, dangerous, but fun!
Cang Yue asked "What about you sis? If Cross were to..." I grimaced at the thought, I didn't like thinking about that. My Elven Prince loved me to death, I sighed and said "Sis, I don't think that will happen.. Cross.. Well, I think, even if he did start liking someone he wouldn't accept them because of me."
Those were my true thoughts, I didn't really know how to feel about them. I absolutely did not want to share him. With anyone. But I felt like I was somehow holding him back. I can still remember the very real fear in his eyes when he thought about losing me. It didn't make me feel good at all.
My conflicted thoughts were caught by Cang Yue, who smiled and said "You can talk to me, sis." I smiled, Cang Yue was a really good friend. She was a bit too nice at times though. I replied "Sis, I feel like sometimes I hold him back. He's very special and you could say that having more than one wife would be in his best interests but despite that he stays with me and me alone..."
I wiped my eyes as I continued "I feel like he silently sacrifices things to make me happy." Cang Yue hugged me very gently, I smiled softly and let my eyes flow. Who else could I talk to about something like this? Cross would just tell me I was thinking to much. I sometimes wanted to look at his thoughts and see what he was truly thinking, I know he would never lie to me but for something like this... My intuition said otherwise.
Maybe even he doesn't realize that he sacrifices so much for me? I thought that this could be the case, I don't believe he didn't even have a shred of emotion towards Hermione before I showed up. I think he might've crushed those feelings for me and that made me happy but also sad because he could subconsciously be doing it again since we got here.
Cang Yue smiled and said gently "Having multiple wives is very normal here. I've seen Emperors or Kings that have dozens of wives. The saying goes 'The stronger the man, the more women follow him.'..." she sighed and added "I don't believe Chu Yuechan will be the last woman to fall for Yun Che's charms."
I looked at her, this girl was hurting too! This made me think and I asked "How does that make you feel, sis. The truth." Cang Yue was silent for a few seconds before she said "It makes me feel like I can't help him. That I'm not enough." I gave her a sad frown and rubbed her back as she continued, wiping the tears from her eyes and saying "But as long as he loves me I will support him no matter what!"
I didn't know what to say, her thoughts conflicted with each other. She felt like she wasn't enough but it was okay as long as he loved her? What about her needs? Her wants? I voiced my opinion "Sis... Why do you sacrifice so much for him? What about your needs?"
Cang Yue smiled, it seemed to be.. happy? I couldn't understand, and she said "Because I love him." That hit me like a truck, I was stunned. With all the knowledge I had from the rituals my mom did on me, I still couldn't understand what she was saying. Her voice and feelings, they were all poured out into that once sentence.. I mumbled "What is Love really?"
I wasn't expecting an answer by Cang Yue gave me one anyway "Sis, you and Cross love each other and from what I've seen, your love is very deep. As of you were simply made for each other! But everyone has a different perception of love. For me, as long as Yun Che is happy, I will be happy. As long as there's a place in his heart for me, I will be satisfied!"
I trembled at her words, what was our love in the end? Cang Yue asked me what I was thinking "What about you, Sis?" I opened my mouth but nothing came out, I was confused for a moment before answering her "I.. I can't even describe it. Every moment I'm with him is like I'm in heaven. When I'm away from him a long to see him again. I want nothing more than him to be happy, I.. I love him so much I would gladly exchange my life for his.."
Cang Yue smiled and I added "But to share him... I feel hurt, my heart squeezes in pain that I can't help him. As if I'm not good enough... I.. I just want him to be happy." by the end I was a wreck, tears escaping my eyes like a dam just broke.
Cang Yue smiled and said "Sis, I'm not saying to accept others but what if it does happen? What will you do?" I froze, my mind went blank. I couldn't think of a response. Indeed. What would I do? I felt anger, sadness, before feeling helplessness. I sighed and looked down as I said "What can I do? He's my everything, I could never leave him. I love him move than I love myself."
Cang Yue smiled softly and said "I sometimes wish I was you, sis." I jerked my head up in confusion, Cang Yue smiled and said "Your bond with Cross is amazing! The way he takes care of you and pampers you.. I could only imagine it in my dreams... Maybe if I didn't go through so much with Yun Che, I would be in love with your husband instead."
I was startled at her words, I never really thought that I was so special. I knew he loved me but to go as far as say I'm pampered.. I had no idea. He never asks anything of me, he just gives. He gives me all of his attention, love, and care and I ask so much from him in return...
I started crying again, I felt awful. I know that Cross doesn't care and would do it anyway, but that doesn't mean I don't feel bad. What have I given him except my body and love? Nothing. Even from before, I haven't been a help at all. Possibly even a liability. Even now, I haven't helped him a single time. All I've done is take up space in the castle and leech off him.
I looked at Zephyr and Pandora, who were looking at me with concerned looks. It only made me feel even worse, he gave me beautiful kids, he even gave me the chance to see my mom again, and he made a way to grow extremely powerful profound veins in all 3 of us and yet I still ask so much from him.
Zephyr and Pandora hugged me tightly, I was a mess. Why did he love me if I treat him like this? Zephyr said "Don't cry mommy!" Pandora added "Yeah mommy! We love you!" I shook and hugged them tightly, they were my life. I loved these kids to death. I was so selfish before, not anymore.
I wiped my tears and smiled beautifully as I kissed the two little brats and said softly "I love you both.. So much." Zephyr sniffed and turned away with red eyes, I smiled, he always acted tough just like his father. Pandora burst into tears and said "I love you too, mommy! Waaahh!"
I smiled lovingly, Cang Yue wiped her eyes and said "This is something I wish I had even more.." I squeezed the kids tightly before letting go and saying to Cang Yue "Thank you, sis. Really... Thank you."
Cang Yue smiled and said "No problem, sis. I know you would do the same for me." I smiled, of course I would. I smirked a bit and said "I can help you with that by the way~" Cang Yue was confused and I touched her stomach, my finger glowed and I said "I made you more fertile, when you do it. You will most likely become pregnant." Cang Yue was startled before a gentle smile formed on her lips and she said softly "Thank you, Luna."
I smiled and Selena landed on the ground before shrinking down and wrapping around my arm. I held my kids and we all walked into the Divine Phoenix Imperial City.
I spent most of the day shopping and walking around with Cang Yue, coming to terms with my feelings and trying to change myself into a better wife. I don't want to reply on Cross anymore, I want to help him, not drag him down.
I felt refreshed and my conversion sped up, before clicking. I reached the Tyrant Realm! I smiled and kept my aura, It was good but I still had a long way to go. I felt like when I converted all my energy, something spectacular would happen. Something that would make me able to help him. I had to be stronger than him, so I could protect him from harm.
I had a sneaking suspicion for a while that something very scary and very dangerous was waiting for him. Something that wanted nothing more than to destroy him. It terrified me to my core and I tried to see into the future and predict how much time we had or even what it was, but I was blocked forcefully.
The block was gentle as if protecting me from something. But that only made me more worried because my suspicions were true. Something was trying to kill the love of my life and if he wasn't strong enough I would lose him forever. I couldn't handle that. I needed him, he was my other half, my true love, my everything.
I shook my head, ridding my mind of those thoughts. I needed to get stronger, not panic. My intuition was telling me that the threat was very far away, we had enough time to prepare. It was good.
As we walked down the streets, I saw a girl. I stood still and looked at the girl a little bewildered, the girl seemed to sense me and looked over. I looked into her eyes and was shocked, I felt like I was looking at myself from a long time ago.
This girl was no doubt beautiful, I would even go as far to say that she was on par with me now. There was a strange flash in her eyes, she seemed to feel the same way about me. She walked over and said gently "This.. Big sister, what's your name?" I recovered and his pint and grey eyes glowed as I said "Luna... and you are?"
The girl smiled happily and said "I'm Feng Xue'er! Nice to meet you, big sis Luna." my eyes dimmed and I looked at Feng Xue'er with a gentle gaze as I said "Nice to meet you, Feng Xue'er... I think you should leave before your brother finds you."
Feng Xue'er gasped "How did you-" a shout was heard "Xue'er! Where are you!" Feng Xue'er jumped and ran away saying "Bye, big sister! Hopefully we can meet again in the future!" I smiled softly and replied "We will..." Feng Xue's eyes flashed an unreadable light and she smiled warmly before disappearing.
I sighed to myself and continued me and Cang Yue's trip, thinking about Feng Xue'er. It was too strange, it was like as if she was my counter part in this world. She seemed to be in her own world most of the time but I could tell that she knew exactly what was going on. Just like me, she often did drift off into her own world.
This wasn't good news.
I thought about Cross and then finally Jasmine. I sighed, they were the same with the only exception being Jasmine was a girl. I felt strange, if Feng Xue'er was 'me' and Jasmine was 'Cross' in this world then what would happen?
I rubbed my forehead, I didn't like what I saw in the future but I had to accept it. I smirked to myself, just because I can accept it doesn't mean I have to tell him that do I? I felt a little sneaky doing this but, it was up to Cross in the end.
We continued walking and ignored the drooling looks, I can see why Cross got so angry all the time. Weren't these people just too rude?
A man stepped in front of us and said "You are very beautiful! Come with me and be my wife." I was disgusted, wasn't this guy too forward? I smiled politely and said "Thank you, but as you can see. I'm already married and have children. I cannot, sorry." and I walked away, who would've thought the man grabbed me and said "Bah! What husband, I'll kill him! He's trash, come with me instead!"
I turned around and said in an ice-cold tone "Who the fuck do you think you're talking about." the man sneered "Your worthless hus-" I had enough and slapped out my hand, the man, the street, and the building behind him were obliterated.
There wasn't even a speck of dust left. I snorted and said "An ant has no business talking bad about my husband." as I walked away with Cang Yue while the kids looked at me in awe. I smiled inwardly, I guess I'm a pretty badass Mom~!
With that thought, I enjoyed the rest of our 'Girl Time' before leaving the Divine Phoenix Empire and going back, feeling refreshed and excited for the future!