"Why did you propose to me? We've just met not long ago and we don't know each other that well. Do you propose to anyone who caught your attention? I mean, what is wrong with you?"
Mo Zhexi had expected that she would ask similar question like that. He knew no one would propose on their first meeting.
He didn't know what happened to him. His body and mouth moved on his own. But one thing for sure, his heart beat for her. He truly love her. Although he couldn't explain the feeling, he knew no one would trust him even for her.
"I'm sorry for my action yesterday. I didn't know what came over me. But I'm serious. I want you as my wife for the rest of our life. I can guarantee that I can give you happiness. I will be only loyal to you and cherish you for the rest of my life. I won't disappoint you. Trust me."
"Thank you for loving me. Although I'm still doubtful if it's love, for now, I'm not ready for a relationship. Please don't waste your time over me. We can still be friends. There are must better people out there are more suitable to you."
Xu Wenwen rejected Mo Zhexi with an excuse. Although it's true she's not ready because she kept running away. She's afraid 'that' would happen again.
Mo Zhexi was stunned by her rejection. She didn't give him a chance to pursue her and he was rejected instantly. Mo Zhexi was thinking if he was too rush.
Mo Zhexi was afraid she would be snatched away without him knowing. That's why he was so eager to pursue her.
"Please don't reject me so fast. Give me a chance to prove my love for you. You can't just push me away without trying. Maybe it'll work out for us. Please, let me prove myself worthy for you. Can I have your permission to pursue you?"
Mo Zhexi panicked and kept asking her to give him a chance to pursue her. He didn't want to end before even starting.
"I'm sorry. It's better to find someone else other than me. Just give up."
Xu Wenwen stood up and walked towards the door to leave.
NO! NO! NO! He didn't want to end his first love that fast. It's just two days and he was given the cold shoulders already.
Mo Zhexi quickly grabbed her wrist from behind stopping her from leaving. His expression was hurt and asked Xu Wenwen.
"Why? Why can't you give me a chance? Am I that bad? You shut me down before I even try. What are you afraid of?? Tell me!!"
The word 'afraid' stabbed through Xu Wenwen's heart. She knew what she's afraid of but Mo Zhexi didn't know. She never wanted to go through the same pain again.
"Let go of me!! What do you know!? You know nothing!!! Get out of my sight, Bastard!!!!"
Xu Wenwen struggled free from Mo Zhexi's grip, pushed him and ran out leaving him dumbfounded. Mo Zhexi stood there frozen and kept repeating the words Xu Wenwen said in his mind.
He's a bastard. He shouldn't have rush things. There must be something preventing her from having a relationship. That's why she kept pushing him away.
But he pushed her too far by stepping on her bottom line. And now, she must be hating him. Mo Zhexi was utterly defeated by his stupidity. How he wished to kill himself right now.
He's a fool.
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Xu Wenwen ran outside and hid behind a tree nearby. She squatted there and cried. Tears kept falling from her eyes. She couldn't stop herself from crying.
She never intended to hurt him with her words. She was happy that someone like her but the past kept haunting her. She couldn't get rid of it.
Under the shade of the tree from the moonlight, she was finally calmed down. Because she was tired, she laid down with her eyes closed and eventually fell asleep.