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Chapter 17 - I won't give up

Mia

This hurts. The pain is unbearable. I open my eyes only to shut them because of the laser beams that literally shot in my eyes.

I groaned in pain. A warm and quite large hand came to hold mine and shushed me.

"It's okay, Mia, open your eyes slowly." The voice was very calm and soothing to my ears. Can that person just speak like for forever?

I tried again and I saw a hand above shielding my eyes from the lights. I traced the hand to its body and found James looking at me with a small smile.

"What are you doing?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

He removed his hand abruptly and cleared his throat.

I sat up to look around but the pain in my back and my stomach stopped me.

"Mia, don't move." James put his hand on my shoulder and tried to lay me down.

I don't know why but I panicked.

I struggled in his hold and tried to move against the force he was applying.

The sound of beeping panicked me more.

Danger.

"Mia, Mia please calm down. You are completely safe, Mia, it's James calm down, Mia." A reassuring voice boomed in the room.

The voice was very familiar. The pain was too much. The beeping sound was too much. Everything was too much. How am I safe if I feel like shit?

My vision became blurry and something wet touched and ran down my cheeks. No no this is no time to cry, I'm in danger damn it. This is how I am going to die, like a weak girl who has no control over her emotions. And is this how I plan to kill Brian William? Gosh no, he will laugh at my face first, then shoot me off the next second. Brilliant Mia, good going!

"Mia, look at me. Focus on my voice. Listen it's me James, your friend. You are safe, Mia. Just listen to me."

He started humming,

"When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

There's so much they hold"

"And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?"

He cupped my face and smiled at me.

"Well, I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up"

My breathing seemed to be going back to normal. He kept on singing quietly. There is magic in his voice I swear to God.

"And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating

I'll be here patiently waiting

To see what you find"

"Cause even the stars, they burn

Some even fall to the earth

We've got a lot to learn

God knows we're worth it

No, I won't give up"

The world seemed to stop, it was like there was only him, only James and somehow that felt enough. Somehow I felt content. I had not gotten such peace in the last 2 years. That feeling of the safety nest was back. And I have only known him for a couple of days.

This was weird. I really do not have any control over myself, do I?

It is a rhetorical question, do not answer it.

His smile made me feel safe... so much better.

Then someone cleared their throat.

"Miss Edge, how are you feeling?" The doctor I assume asked me. 

James and I saw her standing near my bed. I pushed myself back and James did the same. Good, now I feel lonely.

"My stomach and back are hurting like a bitch and I feel dizzy. " I answered.

"We need to do some tests so can you please leave your girlfriend to us. I promise we'll be done soon." The doctor motioned James towards the door.

"He's not my boyfriend."

"She's not my girlfriend."

We both said at the same time.

"Oh, I'm sorry. You both were so in your moment that you both didn't see me coming and the fact that you both are still holding your hands. I misunderstood."

James and I looked down at our intertwined fingers and he smiled.

What was to smile about?

I removed my hand and nodded for the doctor to continue.

After a few minutes, she was done and James came back into the room.

"Everything all right doctor?" James asked.

"Yes, yes nothing to worry about. She can leave later today, maybe in the evening, she needs to take care of her wounds. The back wound isn't that serious but we had to do stitches on her stomach wound. You have to be careful, Mia." She looked at me.

"That won't be a problem, anything else?" James answered for me.

"Yeah, haven't you been having a proper diet? The vitamin and mineral content in your body is not enough. You need to have proper meals and also some multivitamins that I'll give you a print of. There are other instructions on it. Please follow those. If there's any problem come to me anytime."

I nodded, "Thank you doctor Gilbert." I looked at her tag and said.

She smiled at me and left the room leaving me alone with James.

"What happened when I passed out?"

"The guy's in police custody don't worry. He was harassing the woman for quite some time and he even broke the restriction order against him. He won't trouble any woman now."

"That's good." I sighed.

"How are you feeling, Mia?"

"I'm fine."

"Mia..."

He looked at me like I'd done something bad.

"Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Mia, I saw you harming yourself last night. Today I wake up and see that you are gone. Do you have any idea how that felt? I was so stressed that you might hurt yourself again and I didn't even know where to find you."

"First of all, I was about to punish myself that's different, and second why do you care? We met not so long ago. Why do people pretend to care when they actually don't?" I replied bitterly.

I felt so hurt by seeing the look in his eyes.

"James, I'm sorry. Just don't care about me, I'm not used to it and I won't know how to react. I'll only hurt you." I said looking down at my lap.

"Mia..."

He was about to say something when the door opened to reveal Ryan and Naomi.

They were standing very close to each other and were grinning like idiots.

"Are we interrupting something?"

"Were you both about to kiss?"

"Ryan, go to hell. " James said.

"Well if we are not disturbing you both, how are you doing, Mia?" Naomi asked with a kind smile.

"Just a little bit out of it. Apart from that okay I guess." I shrugged.

"That's great." She beamed.

The grins they had plastered on their faces scared me, just a little but it did.

"Why are you idiots smiling like that?" James was tensed.

"We have some news for you guys." Ryan was smiling like a child on Christmas morning.

"We are pregnant!" They said at the same time.

"Oh my god! I'm gonna be a godfather!" James was air fisting whilst spinning around.

" Who said you are the godfather?" Ryan teased.

"Oh please, it'll be only me or no one." James patted Ryan's back while hugging him.

"Congratulations. " I said giving a thumbs up.

"Thanks, Mia. " Naomi said.

"How long?" James asked.

"It's been a month and a half." Naomi placed her hand on her stomach.

Their positivity was infectious.

"I brought you both some clothes and something to eat. Here." Naomi handed out James a bag.

"Cookies!" James started to stuff his mouth.

"Save some for Mia you monster. " Naomi shouted.

"It's okay. Let him have his fun. Doesn't he get choked eating like that?"

"Mia, you need to understand this, when James is eating his sugary stuff there's nothing that can stop him. " Ryan said in a deadpan voice.

We laughed and James was totally oblivious of the fact.

"He's just choosing to ignore us. He's listening to every word we are saying." Ryan said.

"Mia, if you need any help call us okay?" Naomi squeezed my hand.

"Yes."

They smiled at me and left.

Leaving me with James.

He got up and gave me the last cookie he saved for me.

"You can eat it I don't mind. " I said.

"It's for you too. Here."

He gave me the cookie and I ate it.

"It's really good."

"I know right!"

"Did you contact the professional lock picker yet?"

"He came by your place and Ryan made new keys for you."

"Oh thank you. Where's the bill?"

"I paid for it, don't worry."

"How much did it cost, James?"

"Mia, that shouldn't concern you right now."

"It does concern me. You'll give me the bill when I get back to my apartment."

"There's no winning you."  He shook his head slightly but he was not upset.

"And since you call me Sugar all the time, I have a nickname for you too!" I amused.

"Oh yeah? What is it?" He leaned against my bed.

"Cookie Monster!"