It was like an invisible barrier, you had to force your way through, but the pushback was so strong, that even if you charged at it at full speed, you wouldn't make it.
I tried. I tried really hard, by bringing up the image of my family in danger, somewhere out there, clueless about the devastation happening just under their noses. I brought the vision of Martin, kneeling down dead with a smile on his face.
It made my heart hurt, but that too wasn't enough. Even Nobuo, who fought to the very end, knowing he will die. Druoag too. The alien whom I saw butchered, surrounded by the aliens who did that to him.
All of it was too little. The pain pushed back on me so hard, that it felt like there was no option I could transform.
