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Date of Published: 01/08/21
PH 🇵🇭 Time: 01:45PM
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"Call off the engagement" he said, looking directly into my eyes.
Tears started streaming down on my face. "But I like you" my voice started to crack.
He sighed. "Listen to me carefully .... Missy, you're still young. You can find another man better than me. The man who will love you the most and will cherish every moment with you. But it's not me."
he said, calmly. Obviously just convincing me to let him go.
"Young? I'm turning eighteen next to next year Zhenshin, can you wait for me a little longer please? Besides, I don't like other guys—only you I liked. Can't you even feel it?" I fired back, trying to stop my tears from continuously falling.
"Missy, you don't understand." kalmado paring sabi nito
"Then make me understand you!" I almost shouted in anger "Because I don't really know the reason why you don't like me!?"
Umiiyak na sabi ko. Lumapit ako sa kanya at binigyan siya ng mahihinang suntok sa dibdib.
"Tell me, am I not beautiful in your eyes? Am I that foolish for you? Am I only disturbing you? Is it also because I am not doing good at school? Look, it's not that I–—" before I could finish my words, I was suddenly interrupted by him.
"Missy enough!" he cut me off as his voice raised, holding my shoulder with both of his hands and which made me burst into tears even more. "Please, don't hurt yourself like this." he said.
I continuously sobing "Zhen, do you really think I'm not serious about this?" I asked, looking directly into his eyes and which made him looked away, avoiding my gaze now.
"Is my feelings for you a joke to you then?" I choked with sobs but he still didn't have a response.
I scoffed. Kumawala agad ako sa pagkakahawak niya sa braso ko. Why doesn't he want to speak now?
"I am not that young for you and you know that you're not that older for me too. You're just 21 and I'm 16 but turning eighteen—2 years from now, it's just about 4 or 5 years gap right? What's wrong about it tho? I have loved you and will still love you ... Zhen. Why don't you give it a try.... try to love me back." iyak lang ako iyak na halos hindi narin ako makahinga.
I didn't know how I said them but I felt like my voice was unusually hoarse.
I can also tell that he wanted to explain, but no matter how he explained to me, it was unnecessary because probably he thinks that I won't still let him go, that I won't just listen.
I almost fell on my knees but he held me again. "I'm sorry.... But the thing is that ... I don't feel the same way you do." he apologized guiltily and by just hearing that, makes my heart aches.
my little precious world suddenly stopped revolving around him
that's it .... he finally said it didn't he?
he doesn't like me
he never did.
Should I give up on him now?
"Please say it again" kalmadong sabi ko.
Kusang tumigil rin ang pagpatak ng luha sa mga mata ko and now, I'm nervously waiting for his final response.
Kapag sinabi niyang tigilan ko na siya ....
No matter how it hurts for me
gagawin ko. I will let him go.
"I'm really sorry Missy, but I really can't be with you. Please .... stop this now."
stop this now
stop this now
stop this now
For one last time, another tears escape from my eyes again as my shoulder fell.
He said it .... he did.
Dahan-dahan akong humiwalay sa kanya at humakbang ng dalawa, patalikod.
"Do you really hate me so much that you want me to call off the engagement?" I tried to sound normal to avoid embarrassing myself even more.
"No, it's not what you think it is, Missy. But believe me, you'll only get hurt if you continue doing this and I don't like it either for you. But I don't also want to get married with someone I don't have feeling for. I'm really sorry." he said
Foc! He just keep on apologizing!
ang sakit sakit
ang sakit na ipinapamukha niya sa'kin na hindi niya ako gusto at ako lang itong nagmamahal sa aming dalawa
I took a deep breath and shed my tears using the back of my hand "Okay.." I nodded, smiling.
He then looked at me in astonishment, can't believe to what I have said.
"Really?" paninigurado pa nito.
I scoffed inside. He really wants me to.
"You know what, I was actually wondering if I have atleast made your heart beats faster just like mine when you were around." I chuckled, holding on my tears.
The smile on my face became a bit more sorrowful. But I can't help it. I'm so hurt this time.
"Missy..." he tried to speak but I immediately cut him off
"You don't need to answer it. Afterall, feelings is a thing that cannot be forced." I said
My heart became a bit more desolate, and my lips curved up in a self-deprecating smile.
He did not utter a word, don't know what to say now.
I took a deep breath before speaking again "I'll tell my parents that we will no longer need to be engaged ... and also—don't worry about what would they say, I can handle it. I will also tell my grandfather to still support your family's company even though the engagement is already cancelled by me as your request." sabi ko at pilit na ngumiti sa kanya.
"Thank you Missy." he smiled back.
My heart aches seeing him smiling because we are no longer engaged.
"Oh paano? Una na ako ah? Sorry sa kadramahan ko hehe" kunwaring natatawang sabi ko
"It's okay. I understand you ... and I'm really sorry if I can't even reciprocate your love for me but I hope we can still be friends." he said.
He extend his hand for a hand shake at tinanggap ko naman
This is too much. Since when did I like tormenting myself huh?
And what did he say? He's hoping that we can be friends?
Ouch. Just friends huh?
Stop it now, Missy! It's over.
and I don't know if we still can, as what he wishes for us to be.
"Sure." I lied. I forced myself to smile before I took his hand.
Nakangiti lang ako sa kanya at 'ganun din naman siya sakin ....
Smile lang Missy! kahit deep inside, parang gusto ko na naman ulit na maiyak.
"Well, I guess, it's time to bid our farewell to each other." I added.
He stared at me for a moment and when he was about to talk, I cut him off again.
I won't let him to be the one who will going to finish what we are having right now.
"I'll promise that this will be the last time I will cry because of you Zhenshin" I said.
but more serious this time.
"Goodbye ... Teacher Zhen."
After saying those words, I turned my back against him and walked away with my back straightened.
I have cried so much today ....
and I promise that this is the last.
I will also try to stop myself from falling in love with him, I'll try to control my feelings. I will.
I just hope that one day comes that I finally get over you, Zhen.
Now, you're finally free....
Goodbye....
and just like that ... we parted ways.
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AUTHOR'S NOTE:
HELLO, IT'S ME, ESSY KAYE AND THIS IS MY FIRST STORY. :')